Depression II

Tiff_2

Sazbo wrote: »

Thanks for reminding me, Katie hunni! I'll pack extra blue smarties!;) Close your ears Tiffy! :rotfl:
Sxxxx

Hi sazzy hun!:hello:
Erm, sazzy...



I HEARD THAT!!!
Now you know what blue smarties do to you saz.....!
No wonder you've been practicing your running!:rotfl:
I hope you're well angel. Take care hun.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Sazbo

gillette147 wrote: »

Hi folkes,

Very dull day today. Nothing taped or good on TV. Don't feel like going out. MSE very quiet too.

I am becoming really subdued. Not working or seeing anyone has made me really quiet. I don't even join in on MSE much nowdays. I see friends on msn but I stay hidden. I was thinking about it yesterday and I am shocked how quiet I have become. My humour has dwindled, my interest in talking has dried up.

I need to make an effort in finding work now my exam results are in but I find I'm procrastinating.

Hello to Katie xxx
Sazzy - Nice to see you around. Mistya girlie xx
SF - I am sad to read about your troubles. Stay positive xx
GL - You are worth so much more than this bloke sounds like he gives you xxx
Tiff - Blessings as ever xxx
Karrie xxx

Hugs and handshakes to all on here.
Life is something that just needs to be survived sometimes.
So we are all successes.

xxx

Heya Gilly. Nice to see you too. All I can say is I know exactly how you feel, I get like that too. Just give yourself a little time, listen to yourself, give yourself a break from the pressure you're always putting on yourself hun, to study, to find work, to be the life and soul, to be happy. It's ok to be you, that's what the Sazter reckons.

Take care of yourself.

Much love,
Sxxxxx

Sazbo

Tiff wrote: »

Hi sazzy hun!:hello:
Erm, sazzy...



I HEARD THAT!!!
Now you know what blue smarties do to you saz.....!
No wonder you've been practicing your running!:rotfl:
I hope you're well angel. Take care hun.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Hiya Tiffy! :wave: LOL! I think you've rumbled me hun - I've been a turbo-fuelled runnning sazzy on the blue smarties!

Hope you have a good day sweetheart. Thinking of you as always.

Sazxxxxxxxxxx

Tiff_2

Hi katie!:wave:
That graphic looks lovely hun.
Well done you.
I don't get the roses - I just alway end up with the thorns!
Serves me right I suppose for trying to dig them up in the middle of the night from the council's flower beds!
Take care hun.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

gillette147

To SF and everyone else.....

You are never a bother and you should never worry about posting on this thread. Although I don't know any of you, and things like self-harming are very alien to a pain coward like me, I think this thread is a wonderful acheivement and we ALL should be proud to be a part of it.

It's existence reminds me every day that there are people who care. And that I can care too.

Nothing is too trivial, no topic unimportant. I try not to be judgemental and see through the day-to-day ups and downs to see each person beneath. And I see alot of gold.

xxxxxxxxxxxx

gillette147

razorbladekisses wrote: »

Gillette, (((HUGS))) Sorry to hear that you're feeling so down atm. Have you made up with your girlfriend or is that also a contributing factor as to why you are feeling low?

I know you were talking about coming off your medication before. Have you done so yet?

Any plans for tomorrow?

Look after yourself Gillette.

Nice of you to ask girlie xxx

Me and g/f are ok. But we haven't seen each other for over three weeks. We have some regrouping (re-grope ing) to do next weekend.

I'm more withdrawn than actually depressed. The fear of job-hunting is cowing me and my circumstances mean I don't see anyone and so don't talk much/have any fun. And it's a vicious circle.

I do want to come off meds, but I haven't done anything about it yet.

I just assembled my fireplace and fitted it. It was a project I started before xmas so it's nice to have it up at last. I'm quite pleased with it.

Plan for today is.............watch tv and maybe cut lawn if it gets cool.
I have no nice food in the house but I can't be bothered to go out. So I'll have to make do.

You have a great day RBK
xxxx

rose07

I dunno what to do with myself. Ive had an awful time of it lately.

I need to talk to someone tho. So im turning to you guys.

Thursday night I went out, was a goodbye night out to one of my friends, she went back to London on Friday so we were all out having a good time. But then it was ruined by someone starting on my friend. Im not one to stand back while things happen, so got involved, I ended up being head butted kicked in the stomach and bruised. Im now feelin in soo much pain, with a bangin constant headache.
On Friday it was the senior race day and we headed up to the mountain to watch the race, it was great, nice day and the racing was going well, until one of the bikes seem to loose control and went into spectators, two were killed outright and the racer died too, and I just cant get the images outta my head, my thoughts are truly with there families tho.
Also on Friday one of my good friends died, I think tbh im still in shock, I feel sick, in pain and just dunno, I couldn’t sstop shacking on Friday, had panics attacks, and yet I cant seem to cry, its all just building up. And it reminds me of my friend that died 4 years ago at this time.
Then last night I was out and got arrested. I just want the world to swallow me up and die. Im feelin soo !!!!. I even contemplated on Friday hurting myself. Tho saying that im going on the bungee cage tonight ya never know the rope may snap. I know I will get through this I always do. Just needing someone to guide me right now i guess.

Things have also got worse between my parents, and I no longer feel I can talk to them. They aren’t setting an example, and aren’t there for me in the way they should be. My bf has also been away this weekend so have no one to hug, or cuddle me.

So any hugs much appreciated

Hope your all ok, and sf read about you feelin soo low you hurt yaself, just want to give you a big . Try using bio oil on your cuts once they heal hun, i used it on my scares thinkin i would never get rid of them, but it sure did help, take care hun x

xxx

imported_goldie

Tiff , thanks for your detailed reply (you are up and about early on a Sunday arent you?) will look at thos websites soon.

Now the thing is I have done something really mad! (for me anyway). As I dont go out and my friends seem to have disappeared the total boredom of each day and pointlessness of it isreally getting to me. SO I have emailed some local amateur dramatic societies asking about helping out backstage. I really love dressmaking and offered to help with costumesetc - I really really do want to DO something and have a life again. They have said to go along to one of their meetings and have just replied to them saying I am very hard of hearing so they know what to expect. Even without being hoh I am extremely shy and self conscious so dont really know why I have done this especially as they must all be extroverts to be acting? Am I being silly and if I turn up will I regret it big time? Any thoughts greatly appreciated.

queensway_boy

imported_goldie wrote: »

Tiff , thanks for your detailed reply (you are up and about early on a Sunday arent you?) will look at thos websites soon.

Now the thing is I have done something really mad! (for me anyway). As I dont go out and my friends seem to have disappeared the total boredom of each day and pointlessness of it isreally getting to me. SO I have emailed some local amateur dramatic societies asking about helping out backstage. I really love dressmaking and offered to help with costumesetc - I really really do want to DO something and have a life again. They have said to go along to one of their meetings and have just replied to them saying I am very hard of hearing so they know what to expect. Even without being hoh I am extremely shy and self conscious so dont really know why I have done this especially as they must all be extroverts to be acting? Am I being silly and if I turn up will I regret it big time? Any thoughts greatly appreciated.

I think thats a fantastic idea:T go for it goldie:j just go along and go with the flow

queensway_boy

rose




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