Depression II

rose07

razorbladekisses wrote: »

Rose, Thank you for your kind words (((HUGS))) I know I should do what you suggested but I just find it so difficult. Oh well, lets see how today goes.

Hun, you've come so far. I'm glad you are beginning to see just how much you've overcome. I really hope you are proud of yourself :T



That's fantastic rose :T

I'm so glad that you've got your support back. I was really worried about you when they just left you with no-one.

Remember I'm always here for you hun xxx

awww thanks hun, for your lovely words

Im glad i have the support back too atm i was starting to think i had been forgotten about

I know its hard hun, trying to stand up for yourself, but i never used to stand up for myself, and just got trampled on and taken advantage off. Take control hun.

And im here for you too hun, anytime, im on msn now too if ya wanna talk

much love

xxx

rose07

slowlyfading wrote: »

Its nearly the end of term now, so I can't really this term. Might look into it in October when I go back to uni, it might help, I dont know. I'm better when I'm at home around mum as I tend to try harder at not hurting myself, as I know it would really upset her if she found out.

Hi hun, how are you?

Yeah, i think it would be a good idea to do that, then you will have the support in place, and you will find it may help you along in studies as well, as you wont feel soo worried about things. Not long now and you will see your mum hun.


Maybe, I didn't think of that. I had a similar dream last night, but different people. Kind of strange, but I knew this time that it was a dream.. if you get me?

I get ya hun, dont worry,i have strange dreams too sometimes. But remember it is a dream, and you are safe


Lol thanks sometimes I do wonder though...

xxx


Thanks, you say the nicest things I love this thread, I feel like I can be myself and no one will judge me. :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: to those who want or need one
sf x

I just say what comes out, lol, This is a good community here, def agree with that one, and no its not a place for judgement just for chat and support



take care xxx

rose07

Tulip wrote: »

Hi Rose07,

I am fine thanks How are you? hope you are keeping well yourself,Its so nice to be busy,gives me time not to feel low in myself and depressed.I wont be able to get a photo of Katie Price as its not allowed as she doesnt like to be photographed while pregnant apparently which I can understand totally


Katie

Hi Katie

how are you?

Im ok thanks, bit busy atm tho. Doing some charity work tomorrow morning, so early to bed .
Shame bout the photo, but i understand that too, gotta respect that

got any plans this week?

xxx

rose07

Pumpkin_Pie wrote: »

Been feeling odd last couple of days - Put id down to getting the grat of probate through for my dad's will. Today its all going pear shaped (close to tears at the drop of a hat) and I suddenly remembered that I didn't take my meds for a few days - How many I don't know - Maybe 3 or 4.

So I am trying to be extra bright and funny at work so that they won't ask whats wrong (which will open the floodgates good and proper) and I';ve sneaked off to the loo for a little sob

I may have to leave early today which I REALLY don't want to do, but sitting in an open plan office with tears streaming dowbn your face does not a happy workplace make!

Sorry to lumber you all but as SF said - tyhis is a place I can be me

Oh GRRRR WHy is this happening again?

Pumpkin xxx

Hi Pumkin

firstly...




I hope you are feelin a bit better now

if you didnt take your meds for a while, your mood can detoriate quite rapidly, i missed 2 of my tablets this week, and i was a bit off, but ok, keep takin them, if you forget get a tablet box thingy (rosie technical words there )

you keep going hun

xxx

rose07

razorbladekisses wrote: »

Thank you all for your good luck wishes

:hello: My review went better than I expected I'm pleased that it is over. Next review is in about 6 months time. She gave me 3 objectives. The first is to set up and dispense the medication into trays for 35 patients in a nursing home. The second is to organise 30 or so community tray patients which involves ordering their prescriptions each month and dispensing their medication into trays and getting them delivered on time. The final objective is to complete either a module or unit of my coursework each month and submit it to my acessor.

I am so glad it's over :j I was really worried.

My cat had to go to the vet today as we noticed that she was holding up her left paw and limping. The vet thinks that it was likely that she had been hit by a car recently The good news is that he thinks her leg will heal on its own. She's supposed to stay indoors to rest but she's sneaked out the door.


rose, I was wondering how your appointment with your psychiatrist went. Did he not help at all? Did he suggest anything?

(((HUGS)))

Uh oh, rose is hitting the town tonight :eek: lol jk hun, I hope you have a great night. You definately deserve it!

I'm so glad it's nearly the weekend. I'm completely exhausted.

Hi again hun

Im glad your review went ok, and least you got some targets, that'll keep you busy , just remember hun, your best is enuff.

Na my psychiatrist was crap, lol, i was in and out, like a fast food place. :rotfl: . It was the locumm again, and he just kept sayin be positive, dont be depressed, everythings fine and dandy, well fook off lol.

Oh yeah i had a good night the other night, out with the butcher, the gardener, and the candlestick maker :rotfl: . It was good

Hope your weekend going ok hun

xxx

rose07

OK to the rest of the family

Tulip, Karrie, MC, Carol, Tiff, Ethel, Sazzie, andipandi, gertie, sf, Gillette, Blinky, cb2, lrs, ltd, stenny, et all



xxxxx

Tiff_2

Hi newlywed!:hello:
Welcome to the thread hun. I'm playing catch up with answering posts (been a busy Tiff, but that's no excuse), so sorry for not replying sooner.;)

quote=newlywed
Can I just ask... how do you tell if you are just a bit down or are depressed and need help?
It'll be a different answer for each person hun - depression can come at many levels and have a different effect too. Imho angel, if you have to ask the question then it's probably a good idea to see your gp and let them diagnose whatever your problem is, properly.

I go for weeks being just fine and then just one thing seems to trigger me off and I'm crying for hours and working out whether to take a pile of painkillers or something worse. But I wouldn't even really do anything as even just thinking about it scares me. Then a couple of days later I can be just fine again for weeks. I don't even know what happens or why it happens really.
I'm sorry you get so low hun but well done for not acting on the od (overdose) feelings. :T
The fact that you have these feelings and you seem to be feeling so uncomfortable with your moods indicates to me that the gp is the best option angel. They are the gateway to a host of options which you can discuss with them.

I don't know. I just know I feel low, so very low and then suddenly it can all go away and brighten again ./quote
If you can, try and go and see your gp maybe tomorrow. That way it'll be off your mind and you'll feel better for having a plan to do something about it. nd don't worry about the dr hun - they'll have seen it all before, so don't feel bad.;) I often suggest that maybe you write down how you're feeling or print off your post and give it to the dr to read - it's amazing how much we can forget to say.;)
Well done you for posting on here:T - I know you've already had some great advice from the angels on here.:A Keep us posted on how you get on hun.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

Hi pumpkin!:hello:
How are you today angel? Hi to the groom mr.pumpkin too.;) Let's have a look here hun...

quote=Pumpkin Pie
Been feeling odd last couple of days - Put id down to getting the grat of probate through for my dad's will. Today its all going pear shaped (close to tears at the drop of a hat) and I suddenly remembered that I didn't take my meds for a few days - How many I don't know - Maybe 3 or 4.
Firstly sweetheart, you are bound to feel low if you are missing out meds. If you need to get DH to remind you to take them ok angel? It can really make a difference if you miss meds - even if it's only one day with some of them.
I'm sure you've heard me say it before hun, but crying is a natural physical process of releasing all the bad chemicals inside. Let it all out pumpkin - it does you no good keeping it inside you.;)

Looking at this from an outside point of view hun, you've good reason to be emotionally up and down right now. There's an awful lot of stress in creating a wedding day which was only a couple of weeks ago. Then all the stress disappears and you have to find yourself a way of dealing with the after effects of all that.

In addition to all this pumpkin, you've had the bitter sweet granting of probate of your father's estate. That can bring back the grief quite sharply angel. Even the wedding can do that.

Sorry if I'm repeating myself, , but my brother was married a week ago. All through the ceremony, I was in tears - proud of my brother but also so sad that my Dad died over a year ago and wasn't there. My brother was the last of the three of us to marry.
My brother keeps his feelings inside and when he was reading his speech and talking about absent family and friends, he stopped and he steadied himself by putting his hand on the table. I could see the tears in his eyes. To buy him some recovery time, I started clapping and everyone joined in.
Grief has no time limit sweetheart, especially hard when things are still outstanding concerning the loved one. I've lapsed in pursuing my Dad's case with all that's happened in this year, but I've got to go back to it and follow it through as I promised him I would just after he'd died.
No wonder you're feeling the way you do angel.;)

So I am trying to be extra bright and funny at work so that they won't ask whats wrong (which will open the floodgates good and proper) and I';ve sneaked off to the loo for a little sob
I may have to leave early today which I REALLY don't want to do, but sitting in an open plan office with tears streaming dowbn your face does not a happy workplace make!
Is there any way you could take a few days compassionate leave or 'sick' days hun? It might help because the last thing you need to worry about is what other people will think if you break down from all these emotions. If you do cry at work, I'm sure most people would be understanding angel. Sometimes, we have to accept any support around us.:T

Sorry to lumber you all but as SF said - tyhis is a place I can be me
Oh GRRRR WHy is this happening again?
See above!;) :T :A You know you can turn here whenever you need to angel. Hope you're feeling better pumpkin and that some of this made sense.;) Take care hun and be a little more patient with yourself.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

Hi katie!:hello:
Hope all is well with you hun.;)

quote=Tulip:hello: everyone,
I just saw my phisopherapist who is helping me understand me better.
Please humour the old Tiffster :rolleyes: angel - do you mean physiotherapist or psychotherapist?
Regardless, I'm glad you've got someone working with you angel.

I have just cried as I am really tired as went to bed last night 11.45pm:eek: and woke at 9am.I so find it hard to talk to her about how I am feeling.She had suggested to me I put pressure on myself to be perfect and that everyone makes mistakes,whereas if I make mistakes I think to myself why,She also said I cannot be perfect 100% of the time and I pressure myself to be just that if you get what I mean and I pressure myself so hard I feel I let myself down and thats when I feel low etc,that is possibly true I suppose.
Oh I'm right there with you hun!;)
For whatever reasons we have our health issues, we tend to try and over-compensate for them.
I often have a need to prove myself or justify me being like this. Everyone else seems so much better, stronger - but they're not really, we put them on an imaginary pedastal so high, that we can't possibly ever achieve reaching that same height. It's a real hamster wheel situation.

Imho, I feel that we think that this will make everything all right and we'll be well, if we can achieve a hundred different things. The more we do, the better we'll be right?
Wrong!:o This is Tiff's failing too hun. :rolleyes:
The more we set ourselves to achieve when we're at our lowest, the worse we'll feel and so we try to take giant leaps instead of the smart baby steps which is what will really help.
We often try to hide our illnesses and go out of the way to prove that we're ok when really we're not. This is just putting ourselves under more pressure.

As hard as it is, I've got to accept my situation and work within the boundaries I have. That doesn't mean giving up or not pushing those boundaries when we can. It's about being realistic and being kinder to ourselves. If we can work under those ideas, it hopefully becomes a lot easier to progress without so much pressure. We can really be our own worst enemy sometimes.;)

Do whatever you can do angel and feel proud of yourself. If nothing else, this board has shown me what a group of real survivors there are here and what courage they have.:T :A And it humbles me.
Remember katie, recovery is a work in progress - not a project with a deadline. You're doing well hun - believe in yourself and be kind to yourself.
Sorry for all the Tiffy waffle guys.:rolleyes: Take care angel.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

razorbladekisses wrote: »

I've had 2 lots of CBT. I found it quite helpful at the time. It all made sense. However, applying what I had learned from my sessions to everyday life wasn't so easy and didn't really work.

Hi rbk!:hello:
I agree with that hun! Cbt has to be continously done several times a day, every day, for it to work well. Basically, you are changing your thinking and un-learning our bad habits or behaviours that make us feel so ill. It's a lot of thinking but as I said before, if you stick to it, it can really make a huge difference to a lot of people.
Hoping you're well rbk hun. Take care.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx