Depression II

mclaren_2

Hi guys

Yesterday i actually enjoyed myself! I was'nt feeling 100% but i did go out, and it was good.

http://www.wdpics.com/forum/showthread.php?t=1258 < selection of my shots for you to have a look at

RBK - i do plan to go to my doc and try another one - though i have had 2 previous - this was my 3rd and i am not sure how many they will go through before they tell me no lol

I hope everybody has been okay today

I am okay atm but i am starting to get my anxiaty up - tomorow i am going to be ill as fcuk cos ive got dentist checkup at 12 and i am petrofied of going.

Tiff_2

Hi andi!:hello:
How are you today hun?

quote=andipandi
Hi all,been looking at this thread so thought i would post something.
I'm glad you did post hun - it's better than struggling on your own and somewhere where you are not judged. There's a wealth of experience here as you know hun.;)

Its not been a good day,ye old depression is lurking inside me and i'm not sleeping well,i'm fed up with having to get drunk to get any sleep,in fact i'm fed up with everything,not sleeping ,having alcohol issues,having a son who thinks i'm a cheeseball,having to live in a flat that is a building site,havin to do all the work myself(which i am capable of doing),hmmm i won`t go on anymore am gonna post this cos i typed it and not wasting that effort.
Merry Christmas all/quote
WHOA THERE! If this is what's constantly turning in your mind angel, it's no wonder you feel so low!:o First rule okay hun? Break it all down into separate smaller pieces. Let's have a look hun...

As the other guys have said, your gp is your first port of call. They will be able to help with the depression, the sleep and the alcohol issues. They tend to feed into each other, don't they andi? Have you been diagnosed as having depression hun? Bad sleep and alcohol make everything worse. So as you say it's a work in progress, I'm hoping you won't delay it.;)

Reading between the lines, (so probably way off course!:rolleyes: ), I get a sense of a relationship having ended hun. Is this why you are having to work on the flat and why you think your son feels like that about you angel? These two issues are practical ones, which means they can change.

The work on the flat will get completed - maybe not as quickly as you want. but it will get done andi. You must be exhausted so it's bound to take longer.

Obviously, I don't know anything about your personal situation andi but where your son is concerned, there is also the chance of change.;) Whatever the issues are, they can be proven wrong, or put in the past, and relationships can be nurtured again. This is going to be a long term thing, so you'll have to be patient hun. Don't rush anything - you must go at your son's speed.

If there are any legal/housing/contact/financial issues, then I suggest that you visit your local CAB who are experts in these matters hun.

I'd say you need to deal with the physical problems first hun because when they're under control, you'll be in a better place emotionally to work on the other two issues.
I hope this has been of a little help angel.

Once you have started outlining a plan to move forward, you will feel so much better. Don't give up on yourself! Take care andi and feel free to post anytime.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

slowlyfading wrote: »

Thanks for asking you two They went okay - really glad they're over! Went to see Pirates of the Caribbean 3 tonight and loved it. Johnny Depp and Orlando Bloom dressed as pirates is one hot movie
hope everyone else is okay.
sf x

Hi sf!
Just wanted to say that Orlando Bloom and Johnny Depp dressed in anything - or nothing!;) :eek: - is wonderful!:D
Down Tiff - down!:rotfl:

I'm glad your recitals are over angel - well done.:T We need our nerves when we're being tested as they can help put us in ready mode as it were. The clever trick is to control them and not let them control you - answers on a postcard please.:rolleyes: At least that's one thing off your list now angel. Hope you're well hun.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Sugar_Coated_Owl

Morning!

Ethel, Awww you poor thing. I hope your ankle gets better soon. At least everyone is helping you Is the boyfriend making you breakfast in bed? Is your ankle feeling any better today?

rose07, :T congrats on the charity work hun. That's brilliant :T

What is the Tourism Trophy?

I hope you had a good night

mclaren, Great selection of pics I hope that you enjoyed your day.

I know that you are worried about going to the dentist so (((HUGS))) take a few deep breaths before you go in and hopefully you will be fine. Is it just a check-up? I hope it goes well.

Tiff_2

Hi mac!:hello:
Sorry you're feeling so poorly angel.

quote=mclaren
Well as you can see, its 4:45am and im still awake.
We just keep missing each other time-wise mac,
although it's late this morning for me to be posting.:rolleyes:

Between pain in my knee (sickly), fact i am feeling like !!!!!! (cold sweats, etc..) just like few weeks ago when chest infection kicked in..... i hpoe its not round 2... headache, feeling drained, dizzy, weak, etc..... not tired though
See your gp hun now the holiday's over. Have you damaged your knee hun? Could it be arthritis? A chest infection takes a few weeks to get over angel and I also hope you're not going in for round 2. Please see the dr about your health hun.

Dunno why i thought "am i about to die now?" but i did - christ, i feel like i am heading back to square one right baout now.
Everything over the past few days has been hitting me left, right and centre. I am supposed to go out later today with camera - dunno if i can even be bothered - and thats not like me cos i am always ready to go with the cam..... i dont feel like me tho atm - its strange. Ive never had that feeling before - its like im som1 else.
Oh well - still need to go out today, collect my press pass for the marathon on Sunday (1 of the photographers 4 event).
Your resources are low at the moment mac, so don't be too hard on yourself.;) Again, are you getting any support or input now hun? It'll be worth mentioning this to the dr too angel.
You obviously have a talent to be able to cover such an event hun.:T
Sometimes we don't feel like ourselves when little changes are starting to filter through. It can be quite confusing. Keep an eye on how you feel angel, eat properly and go and see the dr if you feel any worse ok? Thinking of you and wishing you well.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx
Wish i could just get to sleep now but i am wide awake [/quote]

EthelBloggs

Morning everyone :hello:

Ankle is a bit better today but for some reason it's got a big red lump on it and it's very itchy and burny which is odd because the skin's not broken. I've got an appointment this afternoon with a consultant about poor circulation in my legs so maybe he'll shed some light on it. Thanks for asking tho RBK.. how are things with you?

I am absolutely shattered, keep waking up really really early and then can't get back to sleep.. woke up at five this morning and caught the cat bang to rights peeing in the living room agian.. I thought we'd cured him of that by shampooing the carpet and blocking his access to where he normally goes but he's just found a new place :mad: squirted him with water while he was doing it and put him out and I've sprayed the area after cleaning it with some cat deterrent stuff.

b/f has been lovely lately.. things are so much better between us and he has been looking after me so no complaints there. Had daughter home this weekend and she really did my head in but... that's her, lol I think even once she's sorted out and stops the self harming n stuff, she's always going to be one of those people who is really hard work :eek:

Big huggs to everyone.. mclaren I hope you start to feel better soon and same to everyone else really. I'm sorry I'm crap at individual replies, I seem to have the concentration span of a goldfish , doesn't mean I don't luv ya all tho xxxxx

Tiff_2

seobeglobal wrote: »

Hi, hope you are all ok. Try to relax and just have fun. Life is too short to be worried about things that are not so important, or at least that have no inmediate solution.best regards.

Hi seo!:hello:
Welcome hun - hoping you are well.;) Thanks for posting angel.

You might want to start running now hun...I can hear the posse saddling up!
Just joking seo.;)
Some people may have misinterpreted your post as being a critical one.

I'm sure you have only the best of intentions with your post angel, and it's kind of you to try and put things in perspective for us - we all need that sometimes.;) It's a battle I think we all fight.

However, that's the problem with mental ill health issues imho - we can't always see so clearly. I agree with what you say, but I think this is a process that has to be learned. And they're long, hard lessons to learn too.

We're all trying to get there hun - none of us volunteer to feel this way. But we keep fighting back!:T Thanks for your kind regards and I hope you're well.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

Hi gertie!:hello:
I hope Tuesday finds you well hun. Welcome and thanks for your thoughts.
quote=gertie
IT IS THE PERSON INSIDE that matters.
I so agree angel.:T
Sadly though, it often seems to be kind words that get trotted out by some people, (not you gertie!) just to make us feel better.
As a fully paid-up member of The Generously Proportioned Club, I'm fully qualified to speak on this subject...:D



The sad thing is that not many people want to get close enough to a calorifically-challenged (larger sized ) person to even see what's on the inside.:o

I was a size 10 wet through for 30 yrs and then started to suffer with an underactive thyroid and now I am 3 and a half stone heavier. Yes, I felt frumpy, embarassed (people automatically think you eat too much) but I have realised that as long as you are doing what your can (eat sensibly, exercise even if just a walk, etc. then you have to accept yourself as you are, you the person have not changed it is just the frame you are in that's changed.
Remember that is what you are loved for not what you look like
regards
gertie/quote
I completely agree gertie - you put that so very well.:T
It's not just what we feel/know others think of us, it's also about how we judge ourselves. We tend to be crueller and harsher to ourselves, imho.
My favourite tagline is 'Be kind to yourself.' If you can accept changes, or accept who and how you are, that's a huge achievement!:T I know I'm not going to be a size 10 in this lifetime - sometimes you have to accept yourself for who you are and be the best you that you can be.;) Take care.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

slowlyfading

Tiff wrote: »

Hi sf!
Just wanted to say that Orlando Bloom and Johnny Depp dressed in anything - or nothing!;) :eek: - is wonderful!:D
Down Tiff - down!:rotfl:

oo I totally agree. They're both so gorgeous! There's rumours going round that the POTC3 isn't going to be the last one if it does really well this week. Here's hoping!

I'm glad your recitals are over angel - well done.:T

Thank you. So was I! I have one final one on the 11th June, which is my soloist one and counts for 25% of my course mark this year. Am steadily practising my way to get my pieces good and ready.

We need our nerves when we're being tested as they can help put us in ready mode as it were. The clever trick is to control them and not let them control you - answers on a postcard please.:rolleyes:

What a profound and brilliant sentence you just wrote

At least that's one thing off your list now angel. Hope you're well hun.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Yep, just two things left to do! Thanks, as always, for your kind words.
sf x

queensway_boy

BIG HUGS to everyone



Ethel

Hope your ankle gets better soon