Dear Diary...

HeadAboveWater

Sisters!

You soooo should make a point of going somewhere! Even for one night! Was one of those trips where you just drive and stop whenever you fancy the look of the place. Have a few snacks. Take a couple of pics. And move on again!

Yeah got a digital frame. One in our bedroom and OH has his good one in the living room. It's getting myself organised to actually update the photos

Sounds bliss! I agree: you should never, ever cook when you're on holiday! It's against the rules of holidaying! Same as washing clothes and ironing. It just isn't done!!

Yay for payday! I've just 3 more sleeps to go before mine!! lol. You've a lot of big spends coming up, but you seem to be organising and budgeting fairly well.

And in regards to the wedding....

Bad_Weather

Hi All,

Just another flying RANT/CRY/MOAN. I sneakily do these in work so that is why I don't get a chance to read any other diaries! Or even the comments on my own one!!!

I feel like I have not stopped in months. ANOTHER girls weekend over, back today. EXHAUSTED.

I think I am done. No more weekends away anywhere for me, for a while. A long long while. Need to get back on track, I no longer feel in control of my life.

Girls weekend was good, I stuck EXACTLY to my budget. Actually have 5 euros left. What annoyed me though was my cheaper friend (who I do love dearly) ran out of her money, so was like eh yeh can I borrow Euros off you. Borrow to her actually means "can I get your Euros that you won't get them back".

This kind of bugged me as I had budgeted meticuoulsy and then they blow out their cash and then try to take off me. If I got it back I wouldn't mind but I just KNOW I would not get it back. I managed to wiggle out of it by saying I literally had enough left to pay for my dinner & drinks that night and my taxi. Another friend then lent us money one night and I paid it back and the cheaper friend never paid it back and told her she would give her it later. Now she won't and has not and this bothers me. But I'm thinking just worry about yourself, just worry about yourself!!! She's not borrowed off of you. She has not borrowed off of you!

I think lesson learned when away with cheap friends? I am going to tell them I actually have less cash with me/on me than I actually do, as I told them exactly how much I had so they knew I still had money.

I think I need some ME time at the minute. Everyone is irritating me just now. Especially my friends and family. Probably because I have been spending sooo much time with them all and I'm feeling quite stressed. I am probably irritating them aswell. I think you need to just step away sometimes from everyone, and that time is now for me. This summer has been exhausting and so so busy and I literally have lost the plot. I said above but I honeslty do not feel in control at the minute. More like I am just holding on for the ride!

So for the next month or so I am just going to focus on sorting myself and my house and finances out. It is going to be all about me. I am going to play on MSE and catch up with everyones diaries who I have neglected, I am going to go to the gym and swim and go walks at the weekend and not catch up with ANYONE. I am going to plan MY WEDDING and that is it! Got more than enough to keep my busy for months and months I am honeslty planning now to keep a low profile until end of November.

Spend September and October finishing off wedding plans and then holiday in November and then I will be in the Christmas rush.

If you catch me signing up to anything - tell me off!!! xxx

Bad_Weather

So, not much to update on, feel i just need to keep updating this or I lose my mind!

Bought a new charger for my playbook, a portable charger for my ipod and iphone and ice packs for my leg which I have hurt. I wasn't using my playbook as I had lost the charger so really, really needed it!

Bought some spanx aswell - for under my dress at these weddings. I personally think this is a good investment. Have a few more weddings coming up so want to feel "comforable". Loving the spanx already. I will be wearing it under every dress and not just wedding outfits.


OH and I had dominoes Two for Tuesday on Tuesday night, but never ate it all. Instead of binning it we kept the other halfs and reheated last night with some salad. It tasted the exact same. So next time I have a dominoes I'll not be binning it, i'll be doing that! It effectively covered two nights dinners!

Feeling better about everything, I think there was so much going on that I just couldn't cope, hence spending and eating. I am determined to not commit to any more nights out. Told the OH, he can go if he wants but I am absolutely not. I just need to stay in and be at peace with myself

Got another girl in work I stalk. Opposite of my other stalkee. Both are gorgeous, she is all designer though. Well I think it's designer bags, and scarfs and belts etc but her dresses are french connection etc. And my other girl has designer items aswell but not as much, shes more vintage.

I do love the Real Housewives of Beverly Hills. And they are the same, their coats and bags and shoes etc are designer but their dresses were from Reiss and French Connection!!! they look so glam aswell! Just shows you what some good accessories can do.

This is ultimately how I want to be, good coats and bags etc. My other mate though has all french connection and ted baker etc and only ever buys the stuff from the sales or outlets. I'm thinking I'll half be like that aswell!

Trying to get rid of more clothes that I just never wear, when I was really really skint I became a bit of a hoarder and did not want to throw anything away so now I am starting to look a bit "scruffy". Need to smarten up. Start with chucking out the really bad stuff and then I will start replacing clothes, first is to be work shirts, they are all completely done in!

Along with spending and eating my cleanliness also takes the hit when I can't cope, house is pretty bad looking. Trying to do an extra wee bit every night. Needs a good gutting. Hopefully with all the free time I have coming up I will be able to do that.

Lastly back to a wee moan about my work mates! One of teams wedding coming up so we are all putting in for a present, I'm invited to the wedding so I am getting my own present but the wedding card has went round about 6 people already and only one person (my other mate) has put in £5. So not one other person has put anything in it!!! That is bad! Put £1 at the very least!

Lastly I've been eating better last few days. I think my problem is the all or nothing mentality. And that I think I need to be eating "clean" so if I cheat once, then I just go all in and say I'll start tomorrow. So been giving myself a hot chocolate to have and been allowing myself coffee again. I need to CALM DOWN. I AM NOT PERFECT.

Thats all i can think of to brain dump at the minute....I swear this diary is like therapy!

please-let-me-be-lucky

Sorry to hear you have hurt your leg. Hope it gets better soon.

If your old clothes are not damaged etc, then weigh them in at a cash for clothes type place. You won't get a fortune, but more than you'd get from the bin!! Xx

HeadAboveWater

Yup, can be very therapeutic!

Glad you're feeling more upbeat now We all have our bad days/moments. The important thing is not to give up! Just pick yourself up and keep plodding on.

Agree with your nights 'in'. Let OH go on if he wants. I think you're partied out at the minute!! lol.

Have a fab Friday and a great weekend!

Bad_Weather

Hi ladies! Thank you for popping in, yet again I am sneaking on during work. After this weekend coming up that is me clear until November!

Still got lots on - weddings, car needs to go get repaired, need to go visit someone in hopsital! Still ALL GO! But at least we are not signing up to MORE things. Nearly there, I just need to hold off another week or so and then its FREEDOM!

I have calmed down a lot more now. Still eating "normally", feel better Been going to gym, cos of sore leg just taking it easy!

Currently looking to move our joint account, I like the accounts with benefits, I know they are sometimes not the best value but I am not the most organised person so having RAC cover and travel insurance and phone insurance etc all in the one place works for me

Looking to go to Barclays, also if its on joint account we are both covered unlike my current account where it is only me that is covered! Need to convince OH to switch though. I've asked and he says whatever I think.

I gave up on the last two wedding presents and they got money. It was not worth my mental health to try and make some more. So they got money.

Need to do some research on heating bills. We live in a very very old house, so going into winter heating will need to be on, I heard that it is cheaper to have your heating on a low temp instead of having it on and off.

But what if i turned my radiators down low? So there was still some heat, so some heaters would be up full but the ones in more obscure places would be on the lowest radiator setting? Would it cost the same regardless or would that save me money? As I do not want to turn those rads off completely (freezing and dampness), but at the same time they will not be contributing the main heat in the house so do not need them up full.

Hmmm think i will need to go the utility bills section of MSE...

Lastly, as things are still not really in control it is back to a TO Do LISt:
Buy Baby Present
Register for Common Wealth Games tickets
Find House of Fraser Gift Card to us to buy wedding jewellery
Take thing back to Debenhams
Register for Icloud on computer
Make Dr Appointment
Buy wedding card x 2
Send other baby card
Finish 2 xwedding presents
Send friend anniversary card
Buy OH birthday present
Start thinking about holiday (so I am not running aournd like a headless chicken at the time)
Start making wedding lists (for sanity/sleep reasons)
Order ribbons for wedding invites/orders of service
Buy my sixpence

Right back to work...xxx

Bad_Weather

I am feeling weird. One of my best mates has told me she is moving to Boston with her work today.

I am sad, happy & excited for her, but more than anything I am jealous. Is that really bad? I am really really jealous. But in a good jealous way.

I so badly want to move away. She is a good girl, she is super smart with money, does not go crazy with clothes or anything, is very vintage. Drives a normal car even though we have alright jobs and she has zero debt so could have splashed out at some point.

I know she has been wanting to go for a while, so no doubt she will have been saving. But arg, I am so jealous.

On the plus side this has given me a little but of a spur. Just another reminder that I could have been living abroad right now if I had sorted my money out a long time ago. OH and I would have moved abroad years ago if it was not for my finances.

As a result, I have signed up for an Immigration expo. OH and are going to start looking into it in January. Probably start contacting a recruitment consultant aswell. And its given me the spur I needed!

Only two things off my to do list:

Lastly, as things are still not really in control it is back to a TO DO LISt:
[STRIKE]
Buy Baby Present
[/STRIKE]Register for Common Wealth Games tickets
Find House of Fraser Gift Card to us to buy wedding jewellery
Take thing back to Debenhams
Register for Icloud on computer
Make Dr Appointment
Buy wedding card x 2
[STRIKE]
Send other baby card
[/STRIKE]Finish 2 xwedding presents
Send friend anniversary card
Buy OH birthday present
Start thinking about holiday (so I am not running aournd like a headless chicken at the time)
Start making wedding lists (for sanity/sleep reasons)
Order ribbons for wedding invites/orders of service
Buy my sixpence

Bad_Weather

Nearly there! One more day and then its my last crazy weekend!

A weekend of madness and then I should be home and dry...for a while anyway! As long as I do not sign up to anything else

My to-do list is not getting any smaller...ohhh dear. Hopefully will tick off 2 things today. Wedding cards and the return. Must buy 3 wedding cards today. Must not forget this. Weddings stress me out!! That will hopefully be sorted on Friday night and then we are nearly done with the wedding rush this year. Missing the next one as we are on holiday. In fact getting all the upcoming wedding presents sorted are top of the list.

VIP on the list is commonwealth games tickets. Going to sit the OH down on Friday night! Need to get my nephew a birthday present aswell.

Found a nice bottle of prosecco in the house! That will do for the evening wedding invite we have this weekend! Everyone I know has a wedding this weekend (not all the same one)! Got them champagne flutes and the bottle of prosecco. Just because I'm only and evening invite

OH is finally starting to get involved with the wedding planning, I think he knew I was nearly at my wits end. And he sensed that it was no longer funny and starting to really p*ss me off!!!

So he's sorted kilts (well I prompted and he agreed ), he's been looking at the guest book and he is looking into accommodation. The control freak part of me wants to get involved and just do it, but I am just going to let him sort it. I think I NEED to let him sort it or I will have officially turned into my mother. Where my sisters and my brother are all totally useless as my mother never let them do anything incase they did it wrong so now they can barely cook a pot of pasta between them.

Erm what else? My iphone is on the way out, now that its dying I really really want it to last until the wedding, or even better last until we go abroad. I am going to clear it out, back it up and update any software and hopefully that will help it. I only have a 8Gb phone aswell - never making that mistake again. 62gb next time.

Thats all for this sneaky work update x

Bad_Weather

Just read on someone's diary that there mobile phone company has taken extra money from them.

Small reminder that I love GiffGaff Never going to a contract again as long as GiffGaff exists!

Bad_Weather

Wedding card purchaseds. Spanx returned and replaced for another pair - they had burst down at he hem on the leg! Feel better already!

Lovely salad box and fruit and yogurt also purchased. £5 total. I know this is bad spending but it was lovely fresh food and just GORGEOUS.

OH and I got car bill, £450! :eek:But as he says it will be running a wee dream. As it was very dodgy for a while there! That should last us till we go abroad.

It's a wee banger and the OH often goes on about how come two people who earn as much as we do (we are not high earners, but we are not low either) can only afford a wee banger. Once the wedding is over most of our individual debts will be cleared and we can then start saving for a car. NO DEBT. I hate the thought of money going out each month for a car. £200 each month for a car? I am clearly not a car person! I have a £5k max budget for a car between the two of us.