When I asked for luck I didn't mean the bad variety!!!

please-let-me-be-lucky

Been a bit of an up and down day. DH has been very wound up and on edge for most of the day but thankfully he is better now. I have no idea what caused it but everything seemed to be stressing him out.

However, we managed to get out to a local railway museum today. DS2 has been asking to go on a "toot-too train" and despite the museum being very close we'd never been, so we arranged to meet all the usual family members there. The museum itself is free and they had lots of free halloween themed crafts going on so that was great. We had to pay for a ride on the steam train but a family ticket was only £6 and my Grandma gave me £10 to pay for it so I actually ended up £4 up(which went towards the boy's tea from the restaurant with the golden arches ).

DH's best mate came round late afternoon to help DH lay the new bathroom flooring. This perked DH up no end and has been a great thing, not least because I have a shiny new bathroom floor :T.

Physically I haven't felt quite right today. It's felt like I've been carrying something heavy around in my uterus, like a bowling ball. .

Forgot to mention on Friday, I got a call from [EMAIL="T@lk"]T@lk[/EMAIL] [EMAIL="T@lk"]T@lk[/EMAIL] to make sure 'all my issues were resolved'! Er, no :rotfl:. No one has even phoned me back to discuss. Apparently I will be getting another call back. Hmm, heard that before.

please-let-me-be-lucky

Went over budget in Mr A's today so things will be extra tight this week Not great for half term!

We then went to MIL's to help her search for cheaper car insurance (which we did successfully). She then paid some money to our credit card so that will help immensely going forward. :j

Tonight I hosted a Halloween party for the Beavers which was great fun and I really enjoyed it. Was nice to just forget everything & act silly

millionaire_in_training

Just caught up on weeks of your diary. Big hugs from me. You have been having a right rough time. I remember when I had my miscarriage I had 2 D&C's and then also lost lots of 'stuff' in addition to the operations. It was a horrendous experience on top of the distress I was feeling as well. Lots of us know how you feel and your bladder will be too near your eyes for a good while.

It's the weirdest feeling though when you are going through such cr*p and then when you look around the whole world is still turning and you wonder why everyone is just being normal when your world is trashed. Been like that for me on and off for a while now but like yourself I will get up and start again. Take care xx

*Robin*

Hi Be Lucky, :hello:

Well done for giving your kids a lovely MSE excursion over half term, and I bet you and DH are very pleased with your new bathroom floor.

please-let-me-be-lucky wrote: »

Forgot to mention on Friday, I got a call from [EMAIL="T@lk"]T@lk[/EMAIL] [EMAIL="T@lk"]T@lk[/EMAIL] to make sure 'all my issues were resolved'! Er, no :rotfl:. No one has even phoned me back to discuss. Apparently I will be getting another call back. Hmm, heard that before.

..Time for another email?

please-let-me-be-lucky

Hey MiT, thank you for the hugs and big hugs right back to you. Your miscarriage experience sounds horrendous and I know things aren't great for you right now either. You take care too Xx

*Robin*, for sure I need to get another email sent. I hope that you are enjoying the Spanish way of life again Xx

Been a bit tearful and stressed today. It started when DS1 & I were upstairs getting ready and DS2 was downstairs in the lounge having a meltdown. DH was in the kitchen seeing to his chilli plant (don't ask!) totally oblivious. All DS2 wanted was his drink which had been put too high for him to reach, but DH hadn't even noticed the pleas never mind the tantrum. Yesterday DH had also been quite rude to the checkout girl in Mr A's and this has bothered me too as that's not normal for him. I'm worried that something is up and it got to me. I don't normally get bothered like this so I'm hoping it's hormonal, but I suddenly felt an enormous weight of 'what if it's like this for the rest of my life?'. The point is, if it is that's fine because he is still here and I love him to pieces but it just felt hard to deal with this morning.

This was also not helped by the phone call I got from his ESA people. They requested my payslips when I told them I'd lost job 1, and I sent them to them 5 weeks ago. Apparently they haven't received them :mad:. This happened the last time also and I had to get copies to send to them (they then sent the originals and the copies back in the same envelope even though they'd 'never had the originals' :mad:). Anyway, I'd copied the letter and job 1 payslips incase this happened again so they suggested we make an appointment at our job centre to have them faxed over. Cue being passed from pillar to post to do so. Appointment eventually made for tomorrow morning (no easy task when it's in the town centre and we have 2 kids in tow). I then called job 2 to see if I could get copy payslips from them to be told probably not as they couldn't access the system today :eek:. This caused more stress (and tears) and strops from me that 'nothing ever bl00dy goes right'. I hasten to add this was after I'd put the phone down! Someone somewhere obviously took pity on me though as the girl from Personnel called back and said she'd managed to get them printed off for me so I can collect them in the morning on my way into town. Writing this it all sounds so daft that I got upset over it but it felt like the bottom had dropped out of my world at the time .

On a positive note though, someone came to collect a sewing machine this afternoon that we had failed to sell through [EMAIL="eb@y"]eb@y[/EMAIL] so that was £20 in our hand. This at least solved a little of the stress I was feeling this morning as we were out for a meal for MIL's birthday tonight and I was worried how we would pay for it. As it happens, we weren't allowed to pay anything tonight, so things aren't quite so tight this week now :j. Mind you, we now need to pay for diesel and parking to get to the Job Centre tomorrow grrr. The meal tonight was lovely though.

please-let-me-be-lucky

Good grief, mammoth miserable post! I don't even sound like me anymore!

Will try to dust off my superwoman costume and get on with it again Xx

Fortune_Smiles

Remember to be as kind to yourself as you are to others

Fortune x

poohbear59

plmbl It sounds like yesterday was a pretty horrid day. It is okay to feel overwhelmed and let it all out. Your mental health would be much worse if you kept up the positive front and bottled it all up. My DH was like that, totally and blissfully unaware of what was going on around him sometimes, then moody and unresponsive and he didn't have the excuse of a head injury, well not a physical one. And my four kids (young adults now) have emerged from it as caring and tolerant young people.

I hope today runs smoothly and you have some positive outcomes at the Jobcentre.

brizzledfw

Totally agree with Poohbear..you absolutely are allowed to have off days, especially given everything that's going on. I have to say the Superwoman costume does get a lot of use doesnt it..but sometimes I just feel overwhelmed by being a mum to everyone..it's like I have 4 kids at times ( in fact said that to OH last night as he is one of them!).. Would just love to have a few hours off and away from the responsibility. OH is going away for work again in last week of November for a month and I think that's getting both of us down

Hope today is good and JC surprises you in a good way! . The steam train trip sounded great. We have been a lot to the one at Swanage. Everyone loves it..young and old!

Fudgefund

Hi PLMBL

I've read your diary from start to finish over the past couple of days and I just want to let you know from the bottom of my bottom that I think you are incredible. Everytime I thought I could foresee what was going to happen in your life something else happened and I couldn't believe how resilient you were about it all. I don't think you need to worry about the hormones making you stressed and teary, you've had a really hard time and you need to be nice to yourself, because your reaction is totally normal. Your family are really lucky to have you! :A