Mum2one - next chapter - baby steps make big strides

taxi73

nice to see you about...mum/dads do sounded good and glad they enjoyed it.
everything else bit of a mixed bag but overall sounding good

mum2one

as usual the postman got my post mixed up and gave me bills not valentines cards! but hey I can dream.

Not much going on at the mo, the schools broken up now for half term, so we have a sleepover planned (help!!) couple of mse family days out,

Off to see Hairy Bikers - just got to hope mum doesn't come down with a soft spot for one of them.... We went to see the Soliders - considering she didn't want to go.. there the best thing since buttered bread and she has a very big soft spot for one of them (poor man!!).

Touch wood the bullying quieten down, its more a sly of hand moments!! the girl hid DDs dinner ticket, luckly DD went to the office and told them what happened and she said she was forceful and told them if it wasn't sorted (as dinner ladies said she couldn't have a dinner without a card (they have a system in place where kids choose in morning so cooks cook to order), - that she would be really upset and they wouldn't want that as it mean she'd need her mum and they know what her mums like........... within 2 mins she got a dinner!!

Nice 4am wake -up call neighbours kicking off, - but not as bad as has been - but enough to be annoying, should have really rung the police - but it went quiet after 15mins, - but still 15mins to long.

OU- Still haven't done anything, - email tutor in week, see what happens - going to enjoy the week with DD and worry about everything after.

OT - been brill - shes arranged for my chair to be raised - 3in - but it makes a difference, - shes also been in touch with mental health team, - had an initial assesment, and call today,
The MH assessor I had theyve now swopped her hrs to part time, - she thinks I'm intelligent (no comment!!) but not getting the support medically (I know), although my GP is brilliant, I've done all options - pain mgt, reviews etc, but she seems to getting out and about help.As she its reactive depression (I know), so I don't really tick enough boxes, but shes sending me some info to local groups.

I think its been a combination of fighting him through the courts, he's not kept to the order, I've had to pick up the pieces from all his promises to DD, and theres a possibility we may have to go back through it again in the summer. I could leave it up in the air, but not just for my sake but DD asked as well being as what hes done (or not done) - we would have to apply to court for a variance to get the original order overturned - being fair he's breeched the court order 4 times, being picky could be classed as 10 if I took it literally thats 8 mths!

ESA - forms filled in lady from the council did them for me, so just waiting to see what fun and games we have!!

Bar that - everything else is on track, - lost a few more pounds - not sure how much but had to tighten the cords in jogging bottoms and move a hole on my belt to hold jeans up, without a belt they fall down!!

I'm thinking of looking at weightwatchers online - but need to right frame of mind, (and courage) so set myself April to attack my weight. xx

taxi73

your life sounds pretty much like mine at the moment with OH and MHT...my MHT are my lifesaver as she's come up with all sorts for me.
I'm going back to WWs myself in the morning if I get up...think you'll feel better in yourself if you have that to focus on but as you say you need to be ready.
Hope you can feel better about stuff soon as it's a dark place to be.

mum2one

I treated myself this morning, and for the 1st time don't feel quilty, - i'm off to see Showaddywaddy - got 2nd row tickets - they were my childhood favourite, saw them about 15yrs ago, - wonder they aren't on zimmer frames now!! xx

taxi73

didn't even know they were still going

mum2one

Another month gone, where is the time going! can't believe i'm 6 mths into DMP, - not moving as fast as I would like, but Rome wasn't built in a day.

survived the dentist - got away with a small filling and a scale, DD she got away with a check up.

Not much else going on, this weather just a pain, doesn't know which way its going.

But on a positive i'm organised, have all bday presents sorted, mothers day and fathers day day, and 90% of xmas. Just mum, dad and DD to do.

Decided to put the hol planning on hold, got to save a few more Tesco vouchers and look for something in the summer brochere.

xx

mum2one

Wheres the time gone, - bit of a catch up, ended having to miss my DMP payment in March, - buying the car back in Jan - just throu everything into caos, been using Feb to pay Jan, Mar to pay Feb they were really good and said they'd sort a months break - just gives me chance to catch up a bit.

Still plodding along, - thou it feels getting nowhere, not been helped as the compnay DD had her hot air balloon booked with (she was going with dad, - xmas prezzie ) - gone bust - nearly £250 gone - as mum lent me the money to pay on her CC - going to try to do a section 75,

really hit home earlier - just seem so stuck in a rut, - feel like lost my fire - think its a combination of stuff, - upto June last yr spent 18mths going back and forth to court with ex - nows hes gone and messed DD about - I'm left picking up the pieces, - the hassle I had with one of the parents at school b4 xmas - she got a served an harrasment order
I was alright in Jan as had mum and dads anniversary to organise - now just feel lost - my GP thinks as theres nothing to organise that my brain replaying last couple of yrs of hassles.

Its money, the ex - if he feel in muck he would come up smelling of roses, DD not been well recently tummy bugs, and incidents, - need a kick up the rear.

So daft even noticed the difference when we had some time away, - just didnt feel safe outside the 4 walls thou somewhere thats like 2nd home.

it sort itself out soon, - trying to sort myself a to-do list - so that make an effort.

1st said take DD to town on sat - thou means me hiring a mobility scooter, only way get around, promised her breakie at McDonalds - Bacon and Egg Muffin ...

xx

taxi73

Sorry to hear that you're not feeling too good in yourself
A list of to dos sounds like a good idea and may help xx take care x

mum2one

I just need to stop feeling sorry for myself and get a kick up the rear, - my GP suggested CBT, I just think its last couple of yrs come to head, - were get there, Rome wasn't built in a day.

xx

taxi73

CBT might be woty a try though x