The Giving Up/ Cutting Down alcohol support thread - number 11

DecemberBaby_2

41 and I know it - loved Mari's reply to you and I hope you are feeling better.

Day 1 AF here Shaggy. I've been reading how well everyone is doing and embarrassed to say I wasn't. I was pleased to be AF on New Year's Eve but unfortunately have made up for it since. I have had very few AF days in the last few months(years). I often feel the guilt/fear/shame of it and drinking again takes away the feeling in the very short term but then the cycle continues! I'm trying to stop worrying about the past and the future and live in the moment. Not easy for me!

Good luck to all.

DB

satchmo1

41_and_i_know_it wrote: »

After all my wise words the other day, when I was so so smug about having one bottle of Bud on NYE I went and blew it
Makes me feel like drinking cos I'm so fed up of being not in control. Fed up of failing, alcohol is everywhere you look.

Someone I know recently likened abandoning ones diet because of a blip as like having a flat tyre then going round the car and bursting the other three tyres! You don't, do you? You fix the flat tyre and carry on driving as soon as it's fixed.

I know it's sooo hard, and yes, alcohol is everywhere you look (even on here with the smilies). Real failure would be to give up trying, and you wouldn't be on here if you had given up trying!

Hugs for you.

PS The siren wine-voices were trying to lure me this afternoon whilst I was grocery shopping. I veered off into another aisle, so I am able to post 5/22 AF

Barny1979

5 down today, 26 to go

jak

5 AF
for me for the challenge and 7 in total!!!! Whoooppp! 1 whole week!!!! So chuffed! I feel so much better for it. I actually enjoy waking up in the mornings now. I took my little boy to the 10am cinema showing today. We had a great time. I'm still irritable but i'm trying not to be as much. x

mackeroo

:bdaycake: A big happy birthday CUPPATEA hope u had great day x

jak

Happy birthday cuppa xxxxxx

kittiej

Hi Guys

Another AFD for me so 5 in total. Tonight has been much easier than last night because my DH is here to talk to and he is cutting down as well and once his bottles are empty he isn't going to buy any more until his birthday in June. Hoping by then he won't be bothered.

Well done jak on the dry 7 days, and to ev1 else too.

graemecarter

DecemberBaby wrote: »

41 and I know it - loved Mari's reply to you and I hope you are feeling better.

Day 1 AF here Shaggy. I've been reading how well everyone is doing and embarrassed to say I wasn't. I was pleased to be AF on New Year's Eve but unfortunately have made up for it since. I have had very few AF days in the last few months(years). I often feel the guilt/fear/shame of it and drinking again takes away the feeling in the very short term but then the cycle continues! I'm trying to stop worrying about the past and the future and live in the moment. Not easy for me!

Good luck to all.

DB

That was me also. You described it to a tee.

Alcohol was both the problem and the (short-term) solution.
It was terrifying when it stopped working - I could drink and drink and still not rid myself of these feelings.

I needed help from other people to stop drinking and stay stopped. I still need that help today as I know that if I get complacent, one day I'll think it's a good idea to have a drink. And when I have a drink, all bets are off in regards to when I stop drinking. I sometimes would have 3 drinks and stop. However, I could also drink until my memory fails and I wake up at home (in a state).

Thus for me, it's the first drink that does the damage as that sets off a chain of events I have no control of. And I need help to prevent me picking up that first drink.

Good Luck

graemecarter

41_and_i_know_it wrote: »

After all my wise words the other day, when I was so so smug about having one bottle of Bud on NYE I went and blew it on Thursday night was that the 3rd Jan. Partner went off to darts and I was feeling so proud of myself that I wanted one can to just pass the evening. Four cans later went to bed. 8.4 units in a few hours, yesterday my nerves a bit bad, guilt, regret, depressed etc. I know it's only 4 cans of Stella but its the principal. I'm like a child that has no control and I am self-sabotaging and on the pity pot now. I don't want pity. I just want to draw a line under Thursday night and start again. What is wrong with me I'm on anti-depressants and alcohol is a depressant. My GP told me that they won't work if I drink, the pharmacist told me that alcohol will just make me more sleepy. Who do I believe? Why am I unable to just stop completely. Makes me feel like drinking cos I'm so fed up of being not in control. Fed up of failing, alcohol is everywhere you look.

I thought that for years. I was so hard on myself and was totally flummoxed that my actions (i.e. drinking) did not match my intentions (i.e. not drinking).
For myself, that's my alcoholism.

It was a huge relief when I heard other people describe that they felt these things, and they had a solution.

If this thread is not sufficient, try and get other help. For me, if I didn't change, then nothing else would change.

Good luck.

ChocolateCupcake

Good Morning all. 1AFD to add for me please making 5/31.
Yesterday was really difficult for me as it got to 'wine o'clock' and I almost didn't know what to do with myself and nearly caved in!
Its so difficult to shake bad habits isn't it?