The New Me And Our Quest To Become Debt Free And Have Self Belief

elantan

happy birthday wont be long till your running around and climbing up on everthing enjoy your day

Snaggles

Happy birthday Mollie - what a lucky girl you are having such a fab Mummy to take good care of you. Have a lovely day all of you xxx

Snaggles

Gina, I love the autobiography thing, it made me smile and very nearly made me cry. I'm going to print that out and read it every time I think that life is ganging up on me!

Tinks_77

Hi Weller

Just read your OP, made me cry.

Happy Birthday to Mollie

T

Dumyat

happy birthday mollie!!!

tinks77 you should read the rest of the thread - its an inspiration.

Tinks_77

dogrose wrote: »

happy birthday mollie!!!

tinks77 you should read the rest of the thread - its an inspiration.

Am just about to read the rest now i have a cuppa & some snacks to hand...

AnW'sMum

Belated Happy Birthday Mollie

chevalier

Happy belated birthday Mollie. Glad to see that you are coming to grips with things. How did you ebaying go?
chev

moonlightpjs

Hi all
Well, I have finally plucked up the courage to post - had a few problems lately, not debt wise that seems to be going ok. We are making more than our agreed monthly payments, had 2 debts written off :T , have money in the school account again, money in the clothes account and nearly enough money in the spare account for a months mortgage payments should anything else go wrong. I know we should probably pay this off our debts but we need to know that we have a spare mortgage payment incase Andy is ill again (or loses his job again though thats very doubtful).

No problems with Mum, seen her twice since Mollies birthday, things are icy but I am taking it one step at a time. Things great with Dad - no problems there then.

I had a miscarriage 3 weeks ago, the pregnancy wasn't planned and I didn't know I was pregnant - until things went wrong. I was about 9 weeks when they did an internal scan and told me the baby had died. I am absolutly devastated and I'm not sure why -we weren't planning on having another baby but it still hurts like crazy, I'm sick of having miscarriages and feel a failure. Medically and practically I know we shouldn't have another baby but why do I still feel this longing, this feeling inside me, I don't know how to describe it - its just there and it won't go away and I feel like time is running out for me to have another one even though Andy doesn't want one. Its something I am going to have to deal with but it doesn't make it any easier.

Sam plays with the boy next door (as I won't let him play out in the street, awful, aren't I) and they play in the garden but this boy is only 4/5 and he bullies sam and Sam just sits back and takes it, my heart goes out to him. I don't mean to be horrible but this little boy is horrible and I can't bear the way he treats my boy, we've tried talking to his Mum but she just says "well hes only 4/5" Sam is so soft he will let this boy do anything and he breaks all Sams toys and his Mum won;t do anything. The thing is, if we stop Sam playing with him Sam has got nobody to play with

Both my SIL forgot Mollies 1st birthday - one is Andrews half sister and the other is married to his true brother, and I can't get it out of my mind it hurts so much - they have 5 boys between them and I know that his brothers wife had a problem with me having a baby girl, even though she has 3 beautiful boys and never once have I forgotton any of the 5 boys birthdays/christmas/easter etc . There was a time that I would have given anything to have a baby, boy or girl, whilst she was having her 3 so I can't understand why she has just cut us off, shes so lucky - she and Andys brother are Mollies Godparents too - what a mistake that was!!!! They were fine when we were giving them money (approx 2 years ago) and paying tehir mortgage (that is part of our debt problems now) but when we said no more - didn't want to know us and no matter how hard weve tried, eg asking them to be Godparents they do this to us???????
We sent them a letter last week saying we didn't want to know anymore and we wouldn't be contacting them again - the old Lisa wouldn't have done that

Last and not least, I have stopped going out of the house completely, I don't even take Sam to school, some of this is due to me being so ashamed of my weight and some because I have no confidence and feel everybody is talking about me, don't feel at all comfortable with myself at the moment and its driving Andy mad - I have been dieting and have lost over a stone (which I'm very proud of) but now seem to be stuck. I know the AD's that I'm on piled the weight on when I first started taking them but the GP says he doesn;t want me to come off them even though they are one of the worst AD for putting weight on. Going to see GP tomorrow and demand some help!!!!!!

Then this afternoon, got a call from the School mentor at Sams school saying we need to talk as he is always late for school (another Mum takes him) and I should put Sam first - I bl00dy do and am bl00dy annoyed, I am trying my best and my son does come first - its just that I can't take him to school and I do feel very guilty but I just can't do it - I don't even go shopping anymore. We have talked about it before to his teacher and this mentor and they were supportive and seemed to understand. Now this phone call to make me feel like the worst mother in the world - I'm not by the way, I'm a
bl00dy good MUm (see, new Lisa again ) she has just really upset me.

Ok peeps, rant over, thanks for listening and love to you all. Needed to get that all off my chest (thanks Toto)

Edit: forgot to say I am happy with my lot - just things keep cropping up and I suppose they will continue to do so.

southwester_2

Hi Weller

Ive got a soft spot for you after all my troubles so I just wanted to say it is obvious you are a bloody good mum and I really hope you can find the courage to go out more, even if they are talking about you, what a bunch of losers they are, dont forget its not how you look its the inner person