The final chapter before 2 becomes 3...

LAM2011

hi Kavics - I dont even know you but I have been worrying about you. I worried that your family was so far away and you were alone but I am glad to hear that you are getting some support. Hugs x

kavics17

Thank you Lam,

I went back to work today. I could have stayed at home for another 2-3 weeks but I just couldn't see the point. It was the best decision ever, I work with children and they really distracted me. I can't say the same for now, have been in tears since I arrived back home. One step at a time, hoping that tomorrow will come soon enough.

miffy257

Kavics so sorry to hear your devastating news. I wish you and your little one lots of luck in the months to come. Hugs to you.

lilmissmup

Not a regular reader but have stumbled here before.

Just wanted to send my sympathies to you, I have no idea what its like to be in your situation but its saddened me to read this.

There are so many supportive people on this site stay around and let people like us help you through.

I often feel my MSE friends know more about me than my real friends.

missymoo81

Hello my dearest, long time no speak, have no idea what's been happening with you, so bear with me whilst I catch up and I'll post layette in. Big hugs x

missymoo81

I've PMd you my love x

mandz1

Kavics so sorry to hear your news. I havent fully read your diary yet, but i will.

hope you are bump are ok

please-let-me-be-lucky

I've just caught up with your story kavics and I'm so sorry to hear your devastating news. I know it will be hard for you being on your own with the baby, but at least that way you will always have a part of your OH with you. I'm sure he will be watching over you both. Take care Xx

LAM2011

kavics17 wrote: »

Thank you Lam,

I went back to work today. I could have stayed at home for another 2-3 weeks but I just couldn't see the point. It was the best decision ever, I work with children and they really distracted me. I can't say the same for now, have been in tears since I arrived back home. One step at a time, hoping that tomorrow will come soon enough.

I am glad the children lifted your spirits a little. You will need time to grieve - I cannot imagine how hard it must be for you.

How is bump doing?

kavics17

Another day survived, it was not bad at all. But feeling very emotional once again, being at home on my own. I have friends coming over tmrw eve and meeting another on Fri, my weekend has been already planned out-friends are making plans and I just let them drag me along.

Bump is doing ok. I cycled back home from work but I think it was the last time, I was just really not aware of the roads or anyone around me, I can't take this risk. It will be hard as my commute will be much longer and will involve tube and buses but on the other hand I have nothing to look forward to at home. I still haven't felt any movements and bump is much smaller than it was a month ago. I guess the bloatness has gone finally.

I got a phone call from my OH's boss today, they are paying me 2 months 'death in service' salary. He had to fill in a form years ago who he wanted to be the beneficiary and I completely forgot about it. I will order his headstone using this money and will put the rest towards the loan.

Thanks for all your support, I really appreciate it.