A few months and several questions

Knitting_Nora

Oooo, yes...I caught a bit of Once Upon while out and about (no tv at home)...and have been lusting after that jacket ever since!

*dons plotting hat*

Nora.x

RosaBernicia

*also dons plotting hat... wonders if mysterious abduction of Dr Cameron and her stylist could be blamed on Rumpelstiltskin *

Rosa xx

RosaBernicia

Weeelll...

• garden now very nearly sorted (just one ex-leylandii to burn, another to butcher, seedlings to plant),
• house very nearly sorted (another box decluttered today, so four more to go - this involves a lot of bookshelf shuffling so will be done over various weekends, the boxes aren't in the way so no hurry),
• goddessing nearly sorted (hair and lashes done last week, am drinking plenty and eating properly as not at work, digging helping with toning up, about to do nails)
• and allotment started.

Have listed 3 more things on the rainforest including one I hope will sell - it's a textbook that's now out of print but I will never use it again and I know people want it, so am hoping for a good price for that. Dry cleaning vouchers ordered and my favourite, fabulous winter coats (so beloved they justify the Toast price tag) in cover ready to go when the vouchers arrive. I'll also get some anti-moth strips to store them with.

And it's only just the end of the bank hols so I still have almost a week to get reading on msc project and sorting wardrobe... though it's chucked down here all day so maybe I can hold off on the sandals

NSD :T

Rosa xx

RosaBernicia

Slept late - bored with this now as am caught up on sleep, so need to start getting up and doing stuff. Though it would probably help if I didn't stay up til 2am so must remember to put myself to bed at a sensible time!

Returned the Ea5t stuff so that's £120 back to the CC, and have had confirmation of refunds for the returned fab dress and skirt, so that should be another £140ish. :T I think this may make my monthly net total £100 lower than I thought, so will be rather pleased if that happens.

Also heard from mum that there will be a bit of money coming through from my gran's estate, and I plan to put that towards debts so that will hurry up the process too. I am thinking of focusing on getting as much as EASILY possible - note caps, I am not going to make myself miserable in the process or do without a social life for another year - paid off by April 2013 since this will be the point where my job moves if that is going to happen. There shouldn't be any panic as if I'm made redundant I would get a payout and one of the good things about not buying a house is that I can move very easily if necessary but the less debt I have at that point, the more options will be open to me.

Also had rather good pole class as was the only person there - this may have been due to mix-up on tutor's part rather than pure luck, as I notice somebody else had been told to turn up to the later class... but essentially I got a private lesson so happy with that . Got to go through things a little slower and work on technique, which was good as it means I felt I was doing things better. Even managed a sort of attempt at a plank. So a bit of progress was made and I think I will just stop worrying about whether it's fast enough or whether tutor thinks I'm an idiot and just keep plugging away at it. Do want to think about a pole at home though as classes twice a week would be expensive and restrictive timewise.

So all good here today

Rosa xx

vasseur

I hate sleeping late as I feel I've wasted some of the day otherwise - even if it just gets to 9am and I'm still in bed it takes me even longer to get sorted. I am off this week and have just set my alarm as normal (saddo) but it means I get up and helps me avoid getting a headache

Great news on the pole class - mine was quite good last night but I am thinking that an hour a week really isn't enough. If i had a pole at home (that I could put up easily) I could practise and get my confidence up in the privacy of my living room then I reckon the lessons would be more successful. I am currently bidding on a pole so keeping evrything crossed here that it's mine soon!

RosaBernicia

Oooh fingers crossed Poles, let us know how you get on. I've just measured my ceiling and watched a video on how to put up one of the pole types as they seem to only be about £200 instead of the £500 for a fully portable one. That's much more doable. Need to know where the ceiling joists are though so will have to pop into B&Q and ask a nice gadget bod how I do that. Fortunately my kitchen/dining area table folds up and after some ridiculous hopping tests I think I would have just about enough space :rotfl: a lot of my living room ceiling is taken up with a skylight so I don't think it would work in there.

Today has been a bit of a write off, I've been antsy all day. Woke up earlier than in the rest of the week but it appears the interviews I was going in for tomorrow may not have been organised *sigh* and the friend I was hoping to meet up with on Friday can't make it . On the bright side it means I may get all tomorrow off. And have arranged to have loooong catch-up chat over coffee with friend on Friday via phone instead.

Wandered into town to post stuff and check out local dentists as I need to change mine. Can't believe the envelopes I only bought yesterday are peeling open though so have had to buy more and the duff ones will be going back! Just as well I hadn't posted my driving licence in one yet :eek:! Treated myself to a Starbucks and have postponed Sainsbugs stock-up trip by trying out the local corner shop. Hadn't realised it was so near, and they are rather good. So that solved my crisps n' chocolate craving without needing to drive and risking spending on other things.

If I am not going out on Friday, I may actually manage to stick to the budget this month. Bit at not doing anything exciting while I'm off... I keep forgetting I have got some energy levels back so am out of the habit of booking stuff... but might just lump it and try to work on the MSc project so something definite gets done and then I can justify having other time for fun. The weather has been antsy all day too, every time I've thought about popping over to the allotment it's showered so hopefully it will be dry tomorrow.

Right, so dinner, CSI, then hopefully-interesting textbook. Too grumpy for ironing it will have to wait til tomorrow

Oh, the glamour in my life :rotfl:

Rosa xx

kerri_gt

Great news to hear the pole classes are going well this week, well done on starting the plank :T fingers crossed the good pole vibes continue for my class this week too - working on my elbow grip atm with an aim to eventually cracking an Ayesha and Jack Knife (currently a LONG way off that though :eek:)

RosaBernicia

Today (and yesterday) I have mostly been angry.

Which took me a little by surprise.

Yesterday I think it was triggered by general annoyance at having a week off and nowhere to go/ no money to spend/ not having organised to see anyone. Which slowly morphed into an 'I'm cross at the state of my life' thing, followed by a dawning 'well I've sorted out a whole lot of other things in my life, so frankly sorting a social life and relationship should be chicken feed if I just put my mind to it'. Then there was some dithering about flow-going vs. grabbing life by its whatsits and shouldn't I be, I dunno, more humble about the whole thing.

Today I just got cross and decided I'll be humble about the things I need to be humble for but that doesn't have to stop me being fabulous. I have finally got a bit of my sparkle back and d'y'know what, my life has potential to be very sparkly indeed. And since all sparkles will happen via either My Own Bl**dy Hard Work or the general grace of the universe, I have no need to flaming well apologise for any of it. :p

Was completely messed about today by various people over whether to go in or not, ended up going in, still have to sort out interviews which means a) I have no admin next week and b) I'm still doing somebody else's job for them. Combined with a long impromptu moaning session from my deputy who is just back from two weeks holiday, spent 15 minutes telling us about her complex family situations and hadn't bothered to raise any of the questions with me before moaning to our supervisor (who was also raising her eyes to the clock in an attempt to point out that I was actually supposed to be on holiday), and our tech lead informing me that we have a problem because it appears the last techie didn't actually do the tests they said they had, I came home seriously wanting to post Why Doesn't Anybody Take Any Fking Responsiblity and Am I The Only One Crippled With A Bl**dy Conscience :mad::mad:.

I actually went and stood in front of the mirror and did exactly what one of my friends suggested - practiced saying No. :rotfl:

I'm fed up of giving up my time to do stuff that doesn't actually benefit me and that isn't flaming appreciated. I spent most of my 20s with a trail of lame duck friends - not relationships, which could be considered bad in that I wasn't getting the fun bits, or Thank Fk in that it could all have gone so much more wrong - and I've finally managed to shed a lot of the ones who take but don't give. But I still can't seem to do the same at work and it is getting to be a problem. I hate feeling that I should have done something to fix things for people, even when it wasn't humanly possible or is way outside my influence. And I am beginning to get ragingly resentful of the people who just expect it of me. I shouldn't have to come in during my leave - I'm entitled to it like anybody else. I shouldn't have to chase around finding whether people did what they're paid for - if they can't be trusted to either do it or highlight a problem, they shouldn't be on a professional salary. Why am I spending my time fixing something when it essentially enables the person who screwed up to enjoy his time doing something else?

I don't actually want to run my life around work. It ends up taking over quite easily because of my determination to do things right, and because my family are at the other end of the country and come with their own complications, but it has never been an end in itself to me, just a means of security.

And now I'm at a point where I actually pretty much have that security. I have my own flat (rented, and actually much happier with that right now than a millstone mortgage around my neck), my own car, my debts should be clear in about a year. I have more qualifications than I can possibly need, I have an allotment, and I can nearly pole dance. See, I am rather sparkly. :rotfl::rotfl:

I think it's time I started to treat work as my own business and refuse to do more hours than they are paying me for. After all, I wouldn't do extra time if I had a fabulous, sparkly home and social life to rush off to would I? So, as they say, fake it til you make it.

I'm going back to that mirror to practise explaining to it all the sparkly things I must do instead of working. (No, I'm not going to miss my dance lesson. No, my boyfriend's taking me away that weekend. No, I have dinner arranged. No, I shall be on a fabulous holiday. No, we're at an evening do on Friday and I need time to get ready. Etc )

OK rant over, you can come out now :rotfl:

Rosa xx

ZTD

RosaBernicia wrote: »

Today (and yesterday) I have mostly been angry.

:grouphug:

RosaBernicia wrote: »

Which took me a little by surprise.

Shouldn't do. You have the same rights to get angry as everyone else.

RosaBernicia wrote: »

Then there was some dithering about flow-going vs. grabbing life by its whatsits and shouldn't I be, I dunno, more humble about the whole thing.

Grabbing life by the..?

:shocked:

I know - try both and report back which one suits the best.

RosaBernicia wrote: »

Today I just got cross and decided I'll be humble about the things I need to be humble for but that doesn't have to stop me being fabulous.

You never know. Perhaps saying you're fabulous *is* being humble.

RosaBernicia wrote: »

I have finally got a bit of my sparkle back and d'y'know what, my life has potential to be very sparkly indeed.

:T

RosaBernicia wrote: »

And since all sparkles will happen via either My Own Bl**dy Hard Work or the general grace of the universe, I have no need to flaming well apologise for any of it. :p

:T:T

Never apologise for the good things. If people can't abide your happiness, then they are Soul Drainers and should be avoided.

RosaBernicia wrote: »

Was completely messed about today by various people over whether to go in or not, ended up going in,

RosaBernicia wrote: »

still have to sort out interviews which means a) I have no admin next week and b) I'm still doing somebody else's job for them.

RosaBernicia wrote: »

Combined with a long impromptu moaning session from my deputy who is just back from two weeks holiday, spent 15 minutes telling us about her complex family situations and hadn't bothered to raise any of the questions with me before moaning to our supervisor

So someone who is really fit to walk in your shoes then...

RosaBernicia wrote: »

(who was also raising her eyes to the clock in an attempt to point out that I was actually supposed to be on holiday),

So take the hint woman!

RosaBernicia wrote: »

and our tech lead informing me that we have a problem because it appears the last techie didn't actually do the tests they said they had,

RosaBernicia wrote: »

I came home seriously wanting to post Why Doesn't Anybody Take Any Fking Responsiblity and Am I The Only One Crippled With A Bl**dy Conscience :mad::mad:.

You're probably pretty rare. Make sure you don't end up on the wall of some collector.

RosaBernicia wrote: »

I actually went and stood in front of the mirror and did exactly what one of my friends suggested - practiced saying No. :rotfl:

:T

RosaBernicia wrote: »

I'm fed up of giving up my time to do stuff that doesn't actually benefit me and that isn't flaming appreciated.

Amen.

RosaBernicia wrote: »

I spent most of my 20s with a trail of lame duck friends - not relationships, which could be considered bad in that I wasn't getting the fun bits, or Thank Fk in that it could all have gone so much more wrong - and I've finally managed to shed a lot of the ones who take but don't give. But I still can't seem to do the same at work and it is getting to be a problem. I hate feeling that I should have done something to fix things for people, even when it wasn't humanly possible or is way outside my influence.

Amen!

RosaBernicia wrote: »

And I am beginning to get ragingly resentful of the people who just expect it of me. I shouldn't have to come in during my leave - I'm entitled to it like anybody else.

Absolutely!

RosaBernicia wrote: »

I shouldn't have to chase around finding whether people did what they're paid for - if they can't be trusted to either do it or highlight a problem, they shouldn't be on a professional salary. Why am I spending my time fixing something when it essentially enables the person who screwed up to enjoy his time doing something else?

Oh yes.

RosaBernicia wrote: »

I don't actually want to run my life around work. It ends up taking over quite easily because of my determination to do things right, and because my family are at the other end of the country and come with their own complications,

The first is probably more important than the latter.

RosaBernicia wrote: »

but it has never been an end in itself to me, just a means of security.

And now I'm at a point where I actually pretty much have that security. I have my own flat (rented, and actually much happier with that right now than a millstone mortgage around my neck), my own car, my debts should be clear in about a year. I have more qualifications than I can possibly need, I have an allotment, and I can nearly pole dance. See, I am rather sparkly. :rotfl::rotfl:

:beer::beer::beer::beer:

(I can't pole dance, but can drink beer.)

RosaBernicia wrote: »

I think it's time I started to treat work as my own business and refuse to do more hours than they are paying me for. After all, I wouldn't do extra time if I had a fabulous, sparkly home and social life to rush off to would I? So, as they say, fake it til you make it.

Yes indeedy.

RosaBernicia wrote: »

I'm going back to that mirror to practise explaining to it all the sparkly things I must do instead of working. (No, I'm not going to miss my dance lesson. No, my boyfriend's taking me away that weekend. No, I have dinner arranged. No, I shall be on a fabulous holiday. No, we're at an evening do on Friday and I need time to get ready. Etc )

"I've consulted my diary, and unfortunately I find I'm watching television that night."

RosaBernicia wrote: »

OK rant over, you can come out now :rotfl:

Rosa xx

It's good for you to get it off your chest. It makes things better, and slashes and burns a new trail to "change".

Knitting_Nora

That's it Missus B - rant it out.

You're a fab and twinkly lady - I barely know you, and can see it clearly (by the way, you've inspired me to create a garden in the concrete madness that is my next home!), so no need to doubt it.

All power to your elbow on sticking up for yourself both at work and home - you deserve to have quality in both. *dons cape, slips undercrackers over her tights, picks up the magic knitting needles, and stands tall alongside Missus B*

Nora.x