Trying for a Baby Part 7

emsbet

skintchick wrote: »

Thanks Emsbet.

DD is 2 and four months (well, she will be tomorrow, it's her monthday lol) and she is very bright and advanced, so I'm not surprised by the questions so much, but that she keeps asking, and at random times too.

I'm worried the random blood might stop me Oving, but I did OV last month so hopefully it is fine.

I'm not surprised I'm depressed as I have such a history of it I know what it looks like but I can understand that if you don;t have a history then it can be a real shock to know that you are depressed rather than just a bit down/blue.

I do think I'll feel a lot better (not better better, but a bit better) after Christmas. Hope thats the same for you too Emsbet.

Awww Happy Monthday tomorrow Mini Skintchick I think children know a lot more about what's going on than people often give them credit for. Maybe she asks about it when something triggers the memory for her, like playing with her dolls or seeing a baby/pg lady in the street or on tv?
My eldest nephew, who's five said to my sister the other day "Emsbet really wants a baby. I think she'll get one next year" I hope little man's right

Was the bleeding a lot or just a small amount? I think if it's only a small amount it shouldn't affect your ov.

I know that I'm not myself at the moment but I've been trying to push it away as I feel that I should be moving on now and I know that DH thinks it's healthier for us to try and put it behind us and move forward. I'm trying, I really am but there are so many landmarks (like yesterday's should have been v day) or events (like Christmas) that keep reminding me of what we have lost.
I did speak to the doctor a few weeks ago and she asked me if I wanted to hurt myself and I tried to explain that I didn't want to die but that I just want to not be me for a while and escape from myself IYSWIM. I think those days are getting fewer now. Like you I'm hoping that it gets easier after Christmas (also hoping for a BFP in the new year)

xx

QQuaver

emsbet wrote: »

My eldest nephew, who's five said to my sister the other day "Emsbet really wants a baby. I think she'll get one next year" I hope little man's right

Ahh... sweet:happyhear
I heard some young children can see the baby before BFPs, so fingers crossed:)

I'm trying, I really am but there are so many landmarks (like yesterday's should have been v day) or events (like Christmas) that keep reminding me of what we have lost.

I don't think one can truly put it behind us. I don't want to make it a distant memory. I'd like to try to live with it:o

emsbet

QQuaver wrote: »

I don't think one can truly put it behind us. I don't want to make it a distant memory. I'd like to try to live with it:o

I don't want to forget my babies, I just want it to hurt less

xx

QQuaver

emsbet wrote: »

I don't want to forget my babies, I just want it to hurt less

Time will make it bearable, but it'll always hurt (((hugs))).

I'm hoping having a forever baby will make it a bit better:o Mum believed in reincarnation, and that seems to have done the trick (she lost hers at 6 months, I came 5 years later, different sex:shocked:).

emsbet

QQuaver wrote: »

Time will make it bearable, but it'll always hurt (((hugs))).

I'm hoping having a forever baby will make it a bit better:o Mum believed in reincarnation, and that seems to have done the trick (she lost hers at 6 months, I came 5 years later, different sex:shocked:).

Thanks. That's what I'm hoping. I will never forget my lost little ones :A but I think having a forever baby will make things a lot easier and give me something positive to focus on.

Oh, forever babies please hurry up and come to all the lovely ladies here. We are all so deperate to meet you and we will love each of you so very much.

xx

AbFab

I don't know how you ever get over the loss of a child, at whatever stage or age. May you all find some sort of peace somehow.

Well, going by a usual 28 day cycle, I am due on today, though last month I was late (34 days), so I am not getting my hopes up until next week, if AF hasn't arrived. Though I am due to test in four days. Maybe I should wait longer, I just liked the idea of testing on Christmas Day for extra luck. Hm, what to do! This is MSE after all, and I don't like to fritter my money away on HPTs! :money:

AbFab

emsbet wrote: »

Oh, forever babies please hurry up and come to all the lovely ladies here. We are all so deperate to meet you and we will love each of you so very much.
xx

That made me well up a bit!

emsbet

AbFab wrote: »

I don't know how you ever get over the loss of a child, at whatever stage or age. May you all find some sort of peace somehow.

Well, going by a usual 28 day cycle, I am due on today, though last month I was late (34 days), so I am not getting my hopes up until next week, if AF hasn't arrived. Though I am due to test in four days. Maybe I should wait longer, I just liked the idea of testing on Christmas Day for extra luck. Hm, what to do! This is MSE after all, and I don't like to fritter my money away on HPTs! :money:

Finger crossed! A BFP on Christmas day founds fab, but I guess it depends on how well you take BFNs just in case it's not good news.

Sa-ra-ra-ra how's that digi coming along?

xx

emsbet

AbFab wrote: »

That made me well up a bit!

Sorry

xx

AbFab

emsbet wrote: »

Finger crossed! A BFP on Christmas day founds fab, but I guess it depends on how well you take BFNs just in case it's not good news.

xx

Thank you. I've only done one POAS, and that was a BFP with DS. I was quite late at the time, IIRC. I think I'd rather test late than early and it be negative. Well, I'll see nearer the time, could well have come on by Christmas Day anyway.