Depression

mclaren_2

slowlyfading wrote: »

telling people is not being a burden, its so you can have someone who will sit and listen so you can talk through what's bothering you. I'm here if you ever need a chat, just pm me
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I feel it is personally (but thats me lol) its how i am programmed lol

And the same to you, if you need a chat, my door is always open

actually, that goes for anybody who needs a chat, my door is open

slowlyfading

mclaren wrote: »

Its normal that you just want that - so why dont you? I mean, why not jump on a train next week, and go back home? I dont know how far away from home you are, but i am sure it is easy enough just to geton a train, and gohome to see your mum and dog?

I'd love to, but I have revision and stuff to do and also, the train ticket is £46 return and i can't afford it at the moment. It takes 5 hours on the train to get home.. and i'd only be able to go home for 2 nights. Its not really worth it I'm not going home until June now.
thanks for replying
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mclaren_2

slowlyfading wrote: »

I'd love to, but I have revision and stuff to do and also, the train ticket is £46 return and i can't afford it at the moment. It takes 5 hours on the train to get home.. and i'd only be able to go home for 2 nights. Its not really worth it I'm not going home until June now.
thanks for replying
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DO you realise that on trains, you can also studdy As for train £46 - alot but student rail card gives you 1/3 of your fairs so that would be £31

rose07

Hi hun, how are you?

razorbladekisses wrote: »

rose07, oooh not long until you get that plaster cast off woohoo There will be no stopping you then hun.

Oh, i know hun, make way for rosie eh? :rotfl: . Cant wait to get it off and get some exercise:D , I been putting on the pounds like a beach whale :rotfl:, so need to fit in my dress for my sisters wedding....;)

What did you see at the cinema?

I seen Spiderman 3, it was ok, but think im more a comedy/kid kinda person. Plus im awful when i go see a film, i criticise it like anything, because i know the ins and outs of the film world. . Tell you something tho, the guy i was with kept trying that arm over the shoulder thing, i wasnt having any of it,:rotfl:

It's good that you are now back at the unit. I know how much you like it there.

Yeah, im just there one day a week atm, then will go there more again when cast is off. Problem is there a guy there too that likes me , but i dont like him!

I can't believe that they have just left you with no support hun, that is so bad. Keep on at your GP until you get the support you need.

Aww my Gp was lovely, he was like, i cant believe you have heard nothing, im outraged, he is a great GP. Havent had support for a while now, but i seem to be coping, or getting by.

Awww hun I'm really sorry to hear that you were feeling really low the other night. Do you know what caused you to feel so low? Are you feeling sightly better now? Remember that we are all here for you. Big (((HUGS)))


Im just like a rollercoaster atm hun, but its a bit of an extreme rollercoaster, one minute im up, and next minute im soo low, there seems to be no in between atm. I think my home environment still isnt helping. And yeah, there are a few things going on, which im findin hard to deal with, but i will get there. I not really feelin better atm tbh hun, think im just tryna balance things best i can, aww thanks hun, appreciate you being here, and everyone else x

http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/f/f7/Rollercoaster_dragon_khan_universal_port_aventura_spain.jpg

Sounds like you had good fun at your friends Puppies are so adorable.

That they are. My mates son is also not well atm. She hasnt been getting any sleep because he is up and down like a yoyo all night. So i was helping out a little, read him some thomas the tank engine books. And i swear there are more and more characters now than what i remember, they even got names for the carriages. :rotfl:
The puppy wouldnt stop licking my face today, at least someone wants to kiss me :rotfl:

:rotfl: The poddington peas :rotfl:

Awww guess what else i found....

Bertha :T :T :T :T

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aEb78RkDOcE

did ya watch that when you were little? aww it was ace. I have to admit i have this on DVD

hope you are ok hun

much love and huggles

xxxxx

slowlyfading

mclaren wrote: »

DO you realise that on trains, you can also studdy As for train £46 - alot but student rail card gives you 1/3 of your fairs so that would be £31

I guess I could study - I have to be honest, most of the time on train journeys I sleep and the £46 is with a student rail card
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rose07

slowlyfading wrote: »

Thanks for replying. I'm in my second year, studying music :rolleyes: which is SO much harder than I ever imagined, and i seem to do so much more work than a lot of my housemates. I'm stressing over exams as i dont understand the material and going through books and notes is a long and painstaking process.
I do miss home, some days more than others. First year I didn't hardly at all - I loved uni and the people and the lifestyle. This year.. I dont know what happened really. I miss my mum and the dog so much sometimes it makes me hard to breath. I know that she's only a phone call away, but sometimes I just want a hug from her. Sad huh?
I went to the counsellor place on campus twice last year, but the woman i had made it seem like self harming wasn't a problem, that i'd found a way of coping so that was okay. I really want to stop completely but I hate sitting with someone and discussing how I feel all the time, it makes me feel so stupid and pathetic. I should be able to cope with everything.
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I had a mate that studied music, and it soo hard than you would imagine. I cant even read music. I play the drums btw. Well i play a celtic drum called a bairan, i think thats the spelling, I just go bangity bang lol.

Talk to your tutours and tell them you dont understand, you wont get help unless you ask for it.

I understand hun, i couldnt bare being away from my dog, and its not sad at all. Shows you have people in your life you care about, and there is nothing wrong with that.

Hmmm the councellor really shouldnt have been like that hun. Sometimes we may not have the right councellor so it is important to find the right councellor for you. It took me 3-4 years to find a councellor that could help me in the way i needed. unfortunately that was in the northeast where i was at uni, so no longer see her. but she was ace!

You are only human hun, you shouldnt have to cope with everything. well not alone in any case. Do you confide in your mum?

What uni you at btw?

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rose07

razorbladekisses wrote: »

awww rose07, You are so creative hun lovely poem.

Aww thank you hun

I bet you can be, go on put pen to paper, oo have i shown yas my recent painting on canvas? dont think i have, have i? Its bit of a !!!!!! one, but never mind. I will have an exhibition of my work by the end of the year. . Thats one thing im determined by, gotta get me work out there.

This is another poem I wrote for my nana, as most of you may know she died when i was younger, but she is still fighting inside me


I wake up in the morning, and what do I see
I see the hills gleaming, with the sunset upon them,
fields full of lambs, leaping at the day,
A stroll down the road brings me closer to you
And as the wind whistles through my hair, the sun hits my back
I think of how you were here and helped me on my way

The daffodils are out now, reminding me of you
The dog is barking up at the sky
Birds pass by, with planes roaring on
The smell of freshly cut grass sweeps me up of my feet
The sudden shiver down my bones, sends me thinking on

Walking over the bridge, the river runs by
Water overlapping the stones, branches being stuck
Like they are trapped in time, frozen by the water
That surrounds them, watch them as they drown
You are forever in my thoughts, and you battle the bad thoughts with me
I can feel you still here, as you live within me

xxx

slowlyfading

rose07 wrote: »

I had a mate that studied music, and it soo hard than you would imagine. I cant even read music. I play the drums btw. Well i play a celtic drum called a bairan, i think thats the spelling, I just go bangity bang lol.

Talk to your tutours and tell them you dont understand, you wont get help unless you ask for it.

I understand hun, i couldnt bare being away from my dog, and its not sad at all. Shows you have people in your life you care about, and there is nothing wrong with that.

Hmmm the councellor really shouldnt have been like that hun. Sometimes we may not have the right councellor so it is important to find the right councellor for you. It took me 3-4 years to find a councellor that could help me in the way i needed. unfortunately that was in the northeast where i was at uni, so no longer see her. but she was ace!

You are only human hun, you shouldnt have to cope with everything. well not alone in any case. Do you confide in your mum?

What uni you at btw?

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Thanks for replying I talk to my mum about most things, but not about the self harming. I don't want to worry her as she has enough to worry about as it is I'm at Lancaster University
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rose07

mclaren wrote: »

the Dean lol. Get both. Camera costs cheap. YOu can get a basic starter DSLR for about £350 now - unless you wana get a pro one and then you could get D200 for £900 or a D2xs for £2500 (d2xs imo is best out of all the cameras availible) so save up! lol

put money away for both holiday and cam tho

cant go holiday without a camera.... can ya?

The Dean, thats it. lol :rotfl:

No i know what camera i want, and where to get it. its bout 500 incl two lenses and filters.

I now have a savings account tho, its not a high rate thingy, but its ok for the amount i have, so im saving me pennies.

Well i have my other camera for holiday lol. I been looking at holidays to random places, like jamaica. would be cool to go there. Might also go to amsterdam tho. Or maybe Blackpool, see its a hard choice

rose07

slowlyfading wrote: »

Thanks for replying I talk to my mum about most things, but not about the self harming. I don't want to worry her as she has enough to worry about as it is I'm at Lancaster University
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Np, its good you talk to your mum about somethings.

Have you told a GP about SH, or anyonee?

Ooo Lancaster, just across the water from me , and wheres home?
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