Depression

EthelBloggs

G'morning Tiffy :hello:

blinky

Tiff wrote: »

Hi there blinky!:hello:
Good morning hun - how's you? Hope all is well with you and r angel?
Just wanted to say hi and see how you are -I know what a busy blinky you are.;)
Have a good day angel - take care.:A
Right - back to page 232 for me!:D
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Very busy at work - sorting out other people's c*ckups.

R is fine didn't see her last nifgt.bit of an a**e as it was our 6 month anniversary.. (feels like much longer - I mean that in a good way).

Let_Robinson_Sing

Tiff wrote: »

Hi lrs!
How's your week going hun? I'm sorry you're feeling down.:o

quote=Let_Robinson_Sing
Morning Tiff.
I feel a bit ill this morning. Parents are away for a few days as you probably know it just a bit empty in the house. I went to football yesterday and we lost the game in the last minute. afterwards went to a pub with my friend but he left early as his girlfriend was hassling him. I wandered to another bar when some chavs came over to try and cheer me up. Didnt work as i was still gutted that we lost.
Just a bad day hun. I'm sure there's a cure for football somewhere.;) Sorry to hear you're feeling poorly hun - I hope you're eating properly etc? When you feel low it's good sometimes to have family rattling around in the background. As I said, it was hopefully just one of those days angel and I hope you're feeling better now.;)

Might go to my grandads today and cheer him up, he gets lonely sometimes so at least we can be lonely together.
I'm sure it made his day seeing you. Well done lrs on getting out and trying to distract yourself from being so low and for thinking of someone else who's in the same position.:T Sometimes, concentrating on someone else's problems can lift our mood.;)

I keep playing in my mind about my OH. Because she suffers from cystic fibrosis it worries me that she'll die. I know i shouldnt and I try and put it to the back of my mind but i cant and i really feel nervous and anxious when i think about. when we first got together i was the strong one but it feels like I am becoming weaker. All my friends praise me for dealing with it but i dont feel like i deserve the praise as she has the illness and she deals with it better than me.
Hun, you do deserve the praise. What she needs more than anything is your love angel and you obviously give her lots of that. As you know, it's a serious illness and it's only natural that you're worried and upset hun. May I suggest that you tell your gp or counsellor - they can help you work through this.

Also here is a link for the national cf charity.
http://www.cftrust.org.uk/
I've not read it but there's bound to be a section of support for loved ones and other ideas - there's a support forum even if you google. It must be so hard for you hun, but you are making a difference and this situation would be scary for anyone to deal with. Don't look too hard for the future sweetheart, if it means you're missing out on today.

I think i might be missing my old job, not the type of work that I did but the people i work with, even though my boss bullied me, made me feel like !!!! and humiliated when i didnt hit my target.
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Correct me if I'm wrong (which I usually am!:rolleyes: ), but you sound lonely hun - or is it that you're not satisfied with what you're doing right now maybe? I know you both had a fantastic holiday angel - and you can get a serious case of the blues coming back to reality.;) Maybe it's because you're feeling so low lrs? Try doing something you haven't done before, something to vary your routine a little - and no, I don't mean shoplifting!:eek:
I hope you're feeling better and I'm thinking of you
hun.
Make sure you're looking after yourself!;)
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Thanks for the reply Tiff

I didnt eat well at all this weekend. on saturday I had a small portion of chips and a pie and on sunday i had a mini baby bell and an apple. I haven't ate that badly since summer. Everytime i was tried to eat i felt full. When i first went for my assesment with the Mental health department at hospital they were worried about my BMI and they were going to send me to a dietiten 30 miles away but i was just over so they didnt do anything about it. Sunday was also the first time in ages i felt like self harming but i wasnt even motivated to do that. Normally when i feeling down i go out to the local and have a few drinks but yet again i couldnt because i wasnt motivated and didnt have the energy

Sunday dragged like no end it felt like a week it was horrible. I went to grandads and stayed with him for a bit and we watched the marathon.

the CF trust site is very good and thanks for linking me. At christmas i asked everyone that instead of getting me pressies to make a donation to charity in my name. and they did .

I do feel quiet lonely and it didnt help me yesterday with being on my own. My parents are on holiday for a week and i have the house to myself. Most of the time i am jumping for joy being in the house all alone but i didnt feel motivated to do anything. i just led on the sofa with my duvet watching comedies.

After work i used to love being alone because i spent all my time at work talking to people and it really improved my confidence, however all that confidence has seemed to disappear and i just feel like caving into myself.

thanks

alex

Tiff_2

EthelBloggs wrote: »

G'morning Tiffy :hello:

G'morning ethel hun!:hello:
Yes I know it's nearly 4pm but I had a catnap earlier - well, that's what Tiff's are good at!;) :rolleyes:

I saw this and thought of you and frankie!:D
Very sensible idea actually frankie - like portable central heating for cats!:D :rotfl:




How's everything angel? Hope you got some rest hun. Maybe catch you later sweetie.;) Thinking of you.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

queensway_boy

Darkness

I'm swimming all alone in a pool of darkness
and I feel like darkness is slowly pulling me under
I yell for help but no one is there to hear it
I begin to see the water at eye level
and I kick and flail
fighting to stay above the darkness
But the darkness won't let go of its hold on me
and I slowly begin to give in
to the feeling that lies below the water line
the waters starts to fill my lungs
the lungs that once held so much life
yet now they allow the murky water to replace that
I know that this path doesn't lead to happiness
But why doesn't someone grab my hand
pull me from darkness's grasp?
because no one knows I stand at the boundary
the boundary between light and dark
so I give in to the thing that holds me
All of the strength and all of the courage
that I once held in my heart
can't save me from the water
So I slowly slip below the world of conscientiousness
undetected by the occupants of that world
I don't want to fight anymore
I've given into darkness


..............................

Tiff_2

Hi lrs!:hello:
Hope you're feeling better today hun.

quote=Let_Robinson_Sing
Thanks for the reply Tiff
Welcome hun.;)

I didnt eat well at all this weekend. on saturday I had a small portion of chips and a pie and on sunday i had a mini baby bell and an apple. I haven't ate that badly since summer. Everytime i was tried to eat i felt full. When i first went for my assesment with the Mental health department at hospital they were worried about my BMI and they were going to send me to a dietiten 30 miles away but i was just over so they didnt do anything about it.
Ok sweetie, you have to eat and drink properly. It'll meddle with your body chemistry hun and you don't need that right now.;) Try and eat little and often, if nothing else. You need to maintain your basic health angel ok? Apart from anything else, if you're not taking in enough fluids and food hun, it'll make your depression worse. I'd suggest that maybe you should go and see your gp about your BMI and getting it checked hun.;)

Sunday was also the first time in ages i felt like self harming but i wasnt even motivated to do that. Normally when i feeling down i go out to the local and have a few drinks but yet again i couldnt because i wasnt motivated and didnt have the energy
Whatever the reason was hun, I'm glad you didn't sh! You don't want to get back into that mindset hun. I don't know if something has triggered this low spot for you angel - Tiffy ain't no doctor :rolleyes: - but it'd be a really good idea to talk to your gp alex, before you feel any worse. Sh was just an idea this time angel, but you don't want to get to the point where it's a reality. Better to keep it just as an idea and nothing more hun.;)

PLEASE stay away from alcohol guys!:o [STRIKE]:beer: [/STRIKE]
It makes your depression worse. I get the impression alex - again, probably right off track :rolleyes: - that you go for the socialising side of things with your friends more than for anything else and of course, if they're in the pub, it's easy to follow suit. You could always drink something else of course.;)

Are you on ads hun? Drinking while taking meds is a huge no-no guys. You may think you can get away with it 'just this once' but it only takes once for it to be dangerous. It really is like Russian Roulette guys.;)
I know - Tiffy's taking everyone's fun away!:o

Sunday dragged like no end it felt like a week it was horrible. I went to grandads and stayed with him for a bit and we watched the marathon.
I'm proud of you for being motivated enough to do this angel - well done you!:T If nothing else, he must have been really pleased to see you alex.;)

the CF trust site is very good and thanks for linking me. At christmas i asked everyone that instead of getting me pressies to make a donation to charity in my name. and they did .
What an amazing thing to do alex!:T :A You're obviously a very warm, kind and sensitive soul angel. Had you been on the cf website before hun? Sorry if you'd already been there.:o Maybe you're so busy looking after everyone else hun, that you forget YOU need tlc too!;)

I do feel quiet lonely and it didnt help me yesterday with being on my own. My parents are on holiday for a week and i have the house to myself. Most of the time i am jumping for joy being in the house all alone but i didnt feel motivated to do anything. i just led on the sofa with my duvet watching comedies.
Sometimes when we feel run down there's nothing wrong with doing that angel and just going with the flow. Are you still at college hun? Are you working? I really think it's a good idea to tell your dr all this hun. Are you getting any input or support from your local team at all? Any counselling going on? You've identified low points that you've been through before alex and because you've recognized them, it's time to go see the experts, if only to check everything's ok.;)

After work i used to love being alone because i spent all my time at work talking to people and it really improved my confidence, however all that confidence has seemed to disappear and i just feel like caving into myself.
thanks
alex/quote
I sensed that hun.
If you're isolated more, it tends to give your self-esteem a knock not to mention feeling depressed. I can tell you that a lot of people on here care about you hun and are very grateful for your support.
If you can angel, find some ways of giving yourself a treat of some sort or do something different each day. Be imaginative - it could be anything. It'll give you something to focus on angel.
I know it won't cure anything but if you create something to look forward to, or a kind of routine, it may at least take care of the boredom and distract you a little from your negative thoughts.

As usual sweetheart, ol' Tiff can only say that your dr should be your next step. It sounds like counselling would really help you with all of the responsibilities and stress you're carrying right now alex. Imho, it sounds as though your life goes from hectic to slow and it will do you good to be able to open up and offload to someone in counselling. Just a Tiff thought.:rolleyes:

Remember, if you can hun, that whatever's making you feel like this, is just temporary. You know where we all are if you need a shoulder ok? Hope this has helped a little bit hun.;)
Please keep us posted hun as to how you are. Thinking of you - take care angel.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

queensway_boy wrote: »

Darkness


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Hi qb!:hello:
That was a nice piece of prose qb - did you write that yourself hun? It was very expressive.
It can really help to get over-whelming feelings out in a creative way angel.

I do hope that you're ok qb? I was quite perturbed to see your blue huggy hun.:o
If you're feeling really low angel, please call your gp or your mental health crisis team or The Samaritans.
I hope I'm not being an over-reacting silly Tiff :rolleyes: and that it's just written as an expressive piece hun.
If there's anything wrong qb, please contact someone to talk. You don't have to suffer or struggle on your own - you can get the help you deserve angel.:T
Thinking of you hun - take care of yourself.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

EthelBloggs

Evenin all.. been and had me blood tests.. 11 bottles she took :eek: some from my arm and then that dried up so she went for my hand! Came out of there feeling all wonky and weird, lol

My mum's having trouble with one of her neighbours.. bear in mind that mum is almost 80 and has trouble with mobility.. this bloody woman is blaming my mum for the fag ends in her front garden.. my mum doesn't even flippin well smoke!! So she's chucking the fag ends into my mum's porch and banging on the door and shouting at her to come out.. :mad: What's really annoying is that this woman's garden faces onto the street and she's only got a small fence so it's probably passersby knocking their fags but nooooooo.. she's looking for a fight with a frail old lady :mad: :mad: :mad: So I go up there to sort her out and she wont say a fekkin word.. just went running off inside :mad:

We really don't need crap like this at the moment..

Oh well.. what don't kill us make us stronger eh?

geminilady

EthelBloggs wrote: »

Evenin all.. been and had me blood tests.. 11 bottles she took :eek: some from my arm and then that dried up so she went for my hand! Came out of there feeling all wonky and weird, lol

My mum's having trouble with one of her neighbours.. bear in mind that mum is almost 80 and has trouble with mobility.. this bloody woman is blaming my mum for the fag ends in her front garden.. my mum doesn't even flippin well smoke!! So she's chucking the fag ends into my mum's porch and banging on the door and shouting at her to come out.. :mad: What's really annoying is that this woman's garden faces onto the street and she's only got a small fence so it's probably passersby knocking their fags but nooooooo.. she's looking for a fight with a frail old lady :mad: :mad: :mad: So I go up there to sort her out and she wont say a fekkin word.. just went running off inside :mad:

We really don't need crap like this at the moment..

Oh well.. what don't kill us make us stronger eh?

Hi Ethel.Your poor mum!the woman should be ashamed of herself picking on an old lady.Well done for going to see her i would have done exactly the same.As you say neither your mum or you need this at a time like this.Hopefuly even though the woman was too much of a coward to speak to you she will now leave your mum alone.As you say its proberly passers by throwing the tab ends.Anyway hope thats the end of it.

Karrie

Hi All

Is anyone on Citalopram? Been on it a week now and can't function properly. Was told I could take it during the day but nearly fell asleep at the wheel of the car yesterday so won't be doing that again. I feel sick too. I am going to stick with it because I need some help but was just wondering if anyone else is on this.

We're all having crap times right now but it's so good to know you can switch on the pc and you have help and support from people on this thread.