Depression

flis21

CCStar wrote: »

Where is everyone?

I don't know why I bother with the vent thread on here - it just attracts jokers who want to be nasty.

And don't even get me started on screwed up families who kick you when you are down, accuse you of nasty things, yet claim they care. I don't do conditional love.

Hey CC,

sounds like you are having a bit of a rough time. Has something specific happened with your family or is it just a general feeling?

EthelBloggs

flis21 wrote: »

Hey Ethel,

What are the tests for? Sure they are needed or else he wouldn't send you for them.

Liver function, kidney function, cholesterol, glucose, loads that I didn't understand, thyroids, hormones, forgot what else, he pretty much ticked all the boxes on the blood test form :eek:

Had a phone call earlier, my daughter's consultant is very angry cos she was moved without his approval so she's being moved back on wednesday. Not sure if that's a good or a bad thing for her but it's good for me cos it's less travelling... I just hope she copes ok with all this chopping and changing

rose07

flis21 wrote: »

I feel so down. Don't really see the point in living. Am in so much debt, we can't spend any money on anything. So can't go anywhere or do anything. We were trying to have a cheap holiday, but work won't let me have the time off, have said that I can only have holiday in the school holidays, but we can't afford to go away then and not sure if hubby can get time off in July as a lot of his workmates have children and they already all have their holidays booked for July / August.

Hi hun,

cause there a point in living, you gotta look at what you have got hun, not what you havent. lovely hubby for one, someone to support you and love you, thats a special thing hun. Now how about a holiday but close by, sometimes a holiday doesnt need to be about a lovely place, but can be just as much about the person you are with, and the time you get together.

What is the point of my life? Trying to live without spending money, trying to walk, trying to go back to work. And for what? Just don't see the point in anything. At least the holiday would have given me something to look forward to. Now have nothing.

Now hun, every point has a meaning. Now I ddef understand the frustration of walking hun, but take one day at a time, actually in our cases, take one step at a time, dont rush things. We will get there, I believe no matter how bad things can get we all deserve the best, it may not come instantly, but you will have your time hun.

And to top it all have to put up with my nan coming for lunch tomorrow, so she will dump all her problems on me, which I could really do without. Arrggghhhhhhhhhh.

Now this is tomorrow, so take it just each bit at a time, if I could I would try and take away your pain, and each one of everyones here. But I am here hun, as best i can be, and just take tomorrow as it comes what hits us when we are down, or hurts us when we are strong, can only make us learn and stronger in the long run hun.

ooo ooo owww pins and needles and pain , better go hun, you know how it is

take care flis

xxxx

Horasio

We had a lovely time away but have felt so tired this weekend. My OH was a pig yesterday and I feel really down now.

We have 44 days left here - which is good in one respect and scary in another, we haven't found anywhere to live:eek:

Sugar_Coated_Owl

I think everyone can do with one of these:

I need to go to bed as I have to get up early in the morning but before I go...

Flis, you are young, you have your whole life ahead of you. You just have to keep telling yourself that things aren't always going to be this way. Right now things are difficult money wise but things will change and get better.

You have so much to give flis. You're a lovely person. You have your OH and family who love and care about you. You're already taking positive steps to lose weight :T and also sorting out your debts :T you should be feeling proud of yourself.

Right now you haven't really got anything to occupy your mind. Perhaps when you return to work you will feel better within yourself.

Stay strong. Keep fighting.

xxx

Tiff_2

Hi rbk!:hello:
How are you hun? As you can see, I'm playing catch up again - still back on page 231.:rolleyes:
I hope work's still going well angel. You're bound to be exhausted and stressed - it's only natural after time off. Just make sure you get some rest when you get home.;)

quote=razorbladekisses
I felt a little upset earlier at work. One of the guys who has been covering for me (he's still working there atm) noticed the cuts/scars on my arms and asked what they were e.t.c I told the truth, said it was where I used to self-harm. He's like 'what?' so I repeated myself. He still said 'what?' I was getting quite embarrassed as 2 other people could hear what I was saying. When he realised I said it was from self harm, he said 'what's that?' I was in no mood for explaining so just said I'm not going into details. I find it hard to believe he didn't know what self harm is. It's the first time in ages that someone has pointed out the cuts/scars so I guess that's why I felt upset.
Oh bless you rbk. It must have been very awkward for you hun.:o Try and remember how you felt angel - it may help if you feel the need to sh again. You handled it well hun - you only have to tell people as much as you want them to know.;)

I'm afraid a lot of people genuinely don't know what sh is hun. And if they have heard of it, they really don't understand. They don't understand how someone could put themselves through that pain. It's nothing personal hun. If you look at it like this angel - could you imagine being Russian? Not likely because it's out of your experience.

If you think about it, a lot of people who sh, hide their scars so people aren't used to seeing them. Often we don't understand our various symptoms, whatever they may be, but we live with them. To someone with no knowledge of mental ill health, they can find it hard to relate to. So don't feel bad hun - it's good the way you handled it. :T And don't get upset over it angel - at least he had the decency to ask you about it instead of whispering to others and speculating.;)

I've finished with my bf. I ended it yesterday
So yeah, another crap week over with./quote
I'm sorry about you and your b/f hun. All this at once is bound to have left you drained. Completely natural to feel how you do. But you are doing really well hun - remember, baby steps okay? It seems like you're heading in the right direction so far.;) Take care hun.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

Hi rose!:hello:
How's you hun? The pain is part of the healing process angel but I'm sorry you're struggling.:o A day at a time hun.;)

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and tiff no getting up to mischief:rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl:



No mischief?
I think you're about 42 years too late angel!:D
You know what minxes us Tiffsters can be!:rotfl:

Im suffering alot atm im afraid, i have no support at all, it all seems to have fallen apart since easter and me going into hospital. I used to have councelling, docs and general support now i have nothing and im afraid im suffering alot.
Ok hun, you know what needs to be done - you need to contact your mental health team if you haven't heard from them! It's not unusual rose for things to fall apart around the holidays/Bank Holidays. Then they wouldn't usually see you if you were in hospital for surgery angel - they wouldn't want to distract you or give you too much to deal with while you're trying to recover. So now you feel the need for their support, there's nothing wrong with you contacting them!;)

My parents are having serious fights atm, and my brother went back to uni (down your parts tiffy), and now i am very limited to how much i can move after the operation, keep pushing myself too much as well:o , stairs are the worst, simple things are becoming very frustrating, not being able to move much . In alot of pain, as i can now feel the stitching and my bones that have been operated on. very sore , and pins and needles are not making things easy. Its soo painful
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Sorry about your parents hun. Nothing you can do about that rose. Like you, they're adults and one way or another, they'll sort it out. I know it upsets you hun.:o I know it's an awful thing to be around rose so try and stay away from it. It's like with the biscuit thing with mum, you have to show her that you are an adult now and that at 23, you shouldn't be treated like this. I don't know the situation hun but I know it's devastating when parents argue.

You do have other options rose. You can ask for help from Social Services to move you and support you and Department of Works and Pensions (DWP) has a community care grant and or budgeting loan that can help you settle elsewhere in some emergencies. So you're not stuck hun and you don't have to suffer it. Contact your mental health team and tell them how you feel.

I hope you start to feel better soon hun.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

Hi ethel!:hello:
How are you angel? I hope things are getting better with you and yours hun.

quote=EthelBloggsEvening everyone :wave:
I'm just home with a nice cuppa..
The place is beautiful.. like a hotel with lovely gardens and grounds. It has 3 sections, one for eating disorders and two intensive care centres.. one of which my daughter is in. A nurse stays within arms length of her at all times, even watching over her when she sleeps.. which is very reassuring for me. Daughter is annoyed cos they don't even let her go the loo on her own or for a bath or shower, someone has to go in with her always. They will review this on monday.
Oh ethel, that's fantastic news!:j I'm glad it's not a dingy little place. This is what DS needs angel. I imagine that she'll have to earn the trust back. With them being real experts, hopefully they'll see through any tricks as they'll have seen it all before. I know it's upsetting angel but at least you know she's safe.;)

Her wounds are hideous, because she wont allow them to treat them in anyway, you can see the end of her vein poking out of the cuts and it really made me shudder to see. I cried when I saw her.. which upset her and she didn't want to speak to my mum cos my mum cries too and that makes her feel guilty but we can't help it
You cried because you love her and you nearly lost her. If she doesn't let them treat her wounds, they can apply for some kind of order to enable this. They won't let it go septic hun. Seeing how she has made you and your mum feel makes her feel guilty but you shouldn't hide it from her angel - it may help her in some small way to see the effects this causes. She's a poorly young lady hun but I really hope that she can start on the road to recovery here hun.;)

I'm completely shattered now, lol /quote
Can't possibly imagine why!:rolleyes: Having gotten over the initial shock angel, having visited the place and been reassured how good it is, I hope you feel a bit better.:o You must look after yourself and DS sweetie.;) I think you've coped amazingly well, even if it doesn't feel like it to you ethel.:T :A Again, a day at a time, ok angel?
Thinking of you hun and wishing you well.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

Hi there blinky!:hello:
Good morning hun - how's you? Hope all is well with you and r angel?
Just wanted to say hi and see how you are -I know what a busy blinky you are.;)
Have a good day angel - take care.:A
Right - back to page 232 for me!:D
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

Hi lrs!
How's your week going hun? I'm sorry you're feeling down.:o

quote=Let_Robinson_Sing
Morning Tiff.
I feel a bit ill this morning. Parents are away for a few days as you probably know it just a bit empty in the house. I went to football yesterday and we lost the game in the last minute. afterwards went to a pub with my friend but he left early as his girlfriend was hassling him. I wandered to another bar when some chavs came over to try and cheer me up. Didnt work as i was still gutted that we lost.
Just a bad day hun. I'm sure there's a cure for football somewhere.;) Sorry to hear you're feeling poorly hun - I hope you're eating properly etc? When you feel low it's good sometimes to have family rattling around in the background. As I said, it was hopefully just one of those days angel and I hope you're feeling better now.;)

Might go to my grandads today and cheer him up, he gets lonely sometimes so at least we can be lonely together.
I'm sure it made his day seeing you. Well done lrs on getting out and trying to distract yourself from being so low and for thinking of someone else who's in the same position.:T Sometimes, concentrating on someone else's problems can lift our mood.;)

I keep playing in my mind about my OH. Because she suffers from cystic fibrosis it worries me that she'll die. I know i shouldnt and I try and put it to the back of my mind but i cant and i really feel nervous and anxious when i think about. when we first got together i was the strong one but it feels like I am becoming weaker. All my friends praise me for dealing with it but i dont feel like i deserve the praise as she has the illness and she deals with it better than me.
Hun, you do deserve the praise. What she needs more than anything is your love angel and you obviously give her lots of that. As you know, it's a serious illness and it's only natural that you're worried and upset hun. May I suggest that you tell your gp or counsellor - they can help you work through this.

Also here is a link for the national cf charity.
http://www.cftrust.org.uk/
I've not read it but there's bound to be a section of support for loved ones and other ideas - there's a support forum even if you google. It must be so hard for you hun, but you are making a difference and this situation would be scary for anyone to deal with. Don't look too hard for the future sweetheart, if it means you're missing out on today.

I think i might be missing my old job, not the type of work that I did but the people i work with, even though my boss bullied me, made me feel like !!!! and humiliated when i didnt hit my target.
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Correct me if I'm wrong (which I usually am!:rolleyes: ), but you sound lonely hun - or is it that you're not satisfied with what you're doing right now maybe? I know you both had a fantastic holiday angel - and you can get a serious case of the blues coming back to reality.;) Maybe it's because you're feeling so low lrs? Try doing something you haven't done before, something to vary your routine a little - and no, I don't mean shoplifting!:eek:
I hope you're feeling better and I'm thinking of you
hun.
Make sure you're looking after yourself!;)
Much Love,
Tiff xxx