Depression

rose07

its quiet in here aint it?

hope you are all well and keepin going



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Horasio

What do you make of a husband who accuses you of being abusive when you feel tired and abuses your for it?

rose07

flis21 wrote: »

Rose - I am so sorry for how you are feeling. What has happened to your support? I can totally understand the frustration of not being able to move around easily. I am still having trouble with stairs and slopes and I had my accident 3 months ago now. Are you in a plaster cast? That is horrid, mine was so itchy and uncomfortable, was such a relief to get it off. The thing is, as frustrating as it is, don't try and push it too much. You need time to heal and it will get better, it just takes patience. (Don't worry, I didn't have a lot of patience tho!! Got very frustrated and kept trying to do things I shouldn't). Anyway, am thinking of you honey, and things will improve with time.

Hi Flis hun

How are you?

I dont quite know whats happened to my support, everything seems to have fallen apart, since easter and people being on holiday for the easter time, and then me going into hospital, theres just nothing happening atm. And tbh I feel quite alone atm . No one to talk to, and my mum has started to controll me again, simple thing like asking for a biscuit, , becomes an arguement of her saying i cant have one. now i know i cant move but surely i should be able to decide when i eat or not , i hate relying on others, as i either get ignored, or told no.

I am in a cast , yeah hun, the pain that it is. , very hot and sweaty. im still trying to master stairs, my dad says im getting the hang of it, but thats prob cause i will push myself as far as i can. went for a walk down the road today, fell and hurt my knee, not badly, but it got me soo annoyed with myself, im getting soo frustrated, and im getting soo low with it.

Each time i move i can feel the stitches, if i move to suddenly the pain increases, the weight of the cast, and this special shoe i have to wear makes my foot heavy. Every little thing is getting to me:o . Each time i ask for help it seems a hassle than a help, yet when i try and do things myself i am over doing it, i can tell.

beating myself up , cant help it. just feel soo low atm:o

hope you all well

much love xxxxxxx

rose07

EthelBloggs wrote: »

Evening everyone :wave:

I'm just home with a nice cuppa..

The place is beautiful.. like a hotel with lovely gardens and grounds. It has 3 sections, one for eating disorders and two intensive care centres.. one of which my daughter is in. A nurse stays within arms length of her at all times, even watching over her when she sleeps.. which is very reassuring for me. Daughter is annoyed cos they don't even let her go the loo on her own or for a bath or shower, someone has to go in with her always. They will review this on monday.

Her wounds are hideous, because she wont allow them to treat them in anyway, you can see the end of her vein poking out of the cuts and it really made me shudder to see. I cried when I saw her.. which upset her and she didn't want to speak to my mum cos my mum cries too and that makes her feel guilty but we can't help it

I'm completely shattered now, lol

Ethel you deserve one of these

, and put ya feet up

it sounds like your daughter is in the environment she needs, and you as a parent can feel safe she is not alone, even for a wee

It is ok to cry hun, just take one day at a time

you are amazing for being soo strong, just keep it up

xxxxx

queensway_boy

BiG Huggys to everyone xx




Hope everyones ok

flis21

Hi Rose,

Just remember 'this too shall pass'. Do you know how long you are going to be in a cast? It took me ages to master stairs. The day I came home from hospital it took me 45 mins to get up the stairs!!

Even with my cast off now it is stairs and slopes that are the biggest problems. Stairs I am fine going up them, but not so good going down. My ankle won't bend very well, so I have to go one stair at a time, which takes ages!

You will get there, just try and take it one day at a time. Could you get your own stash of biscuits near you, so you can have one whenever you want?!!


Flis

Horasio

Where is everyone?

I don't know why I bother with the vent thread on here - it just attracts jokers who want to be nasty.

And don't even get me started on screwed up families who kick you when you are down, accuse you of nasty things, yet claim they care. I don't do conditional love.

EthelBloggs

just seen my gp.. he's sending me for a rake of tests.. told me to be prepared to lose an awful lot of blood :eek:

flis21

I feel so down. Don't really see the point in living. Am in so much debt, we can't spend any money on anything. So can't go anywhere or do anything. We were trying to have a cheap holiday, but work won't let me have the time off, have said that I can only have holiday in the school holidays, but we can't afford to go away then and not sure if hubby can get time off in July as a lot of his workmates have children and they already all have their holidays booked for July / August.

What is the point of my life? Trying to live without spending money, trying to walk, trying to go back to work. And for what? Just don't see the point in anything. At least the holiday would have given me something to look forward to. Now have nothing.

And to top it all have to put up with my nan coming for lunch tomorrow, so she will dump all her problems on me, which I could really do without. Arrggghhhhhhhhhh.

flis21

EthelBloggs wrote: »

just seen my gp.. he's sending me for a rake of tests.. told me to be prepared to lose an awful lot of blood :eek:

Hey Ethel,

What are the tests for? Sure they are needed or else he wouldn't send you for them.