Depression

Let_Robinson_Sing

beeswing wrote: »

Hi everyone, I think I've become depressed again because of my debts and forthcoming bankruptcy (11th May). I decided I had to come home from work yesterday because I couln't stop crying, it's so frustrating - for years when I've wanted a good cry - nothing, now I can cry at the drop of a hat!! I was asked to do a different job yesterday, which I have done before, but I thought OMG I can't do this!!! Then the crying started and I had to phone my boss. She was really good, I told her about the BR, and that I was worried about losing my job and she was fine. Unfortunately I have to use holidays for yesterday and today because we only get statutory sick pay, but nevermind. I hope the depression gets easier - GP put me on Dosulepin last week, be glad when the BR is over and done with.

Hey, thanks for posting :j

Just think of the positives of going bankrupt, the horrible debt weight will be lifted off your shoulders. You'll be able to start a new fresh. also the hassle from Debt collectors and creditors etc will syop. Dont worry about crying, sometimes it's the best thing to do, just to let it all out. I can see why doing something different, like a job at work will be a bit strange. But if it does get stressful, have a little break, take a little walk and return. Apart from your GP giving you Dosulepin have they referred you to a Community Psychiatrict Nurse?

beeswing

Hi LRS, thanks for your reply. I'm going back to see the Dr next week I'll see what happens then.

geminilady

cifpower wrote: »

I had a bad spell just before easter. I sat by my PC and popped my Dosulepin tablets out of their pack and lined them up on the table. I took one, followed by a sip of water and then another until I had taken all 10. I just sat there and lit a cigarette. An hour after my heart started racing, my legs and arms started shaking and I couldn't breathe properly. I wasn't expecting this - I just wanted to go to sleep and not wake up.

I rang 999 and was taken to hospital where I stayed for 6 or 7 hours.

I have been off my medication since then and, tp out it bluntly, have been high as a kite. I laugh giddily at nothing and talk to myself about crap.

I finally made an appointment with my GP on Monday and I am seeing her this afternoon. I was not looking forward to it but realised it had to be done.

Hi Ciff,I am NOT a doctor and of course it is up to him to make a diagnosise but to me your symptoms sound very much like bi-polar.People who have this can swing from extreem "highs" to extreem "lows" as you have described,be sure to tell the doctor everything on Friday including your impulse buying(hope you get a good price on ebay) If you do have this disorder the correct medication should balance you out.

Tiff_2

Hi lrs!:hello:
How are you today hun? I hope you're feeling better lrs.;)

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I am back in college from 2 of the best weeks of my life. I had forgotten how good it felt to feel happy for a substantial amount of time. I am back in college today, It's strange, I feel really teary and nervous about being back. What really does worry me is will i ever overcome depression or will my life be just strewn with little bits of happiness.
I'm glad that you had such a wonderful time angel - I bet it did you the world of good.

When we come back to our routines where we struggle, we're bound to feel down hun. Even more so if your mental ill health is waiting for you when you get back! So what you're feeling is completely normal imho lrs.

Maybe the tears and nerves are down to coming back to your routine - that can happen even if you didn't have depression hun. That's why holidays are so good - you can get away from all the emotions and problems. Ironically, if you were to move to live where you were on holiday, your depression would probably take the next flight out to you hun!:eek:
Give yourself a little time angel and if it doesn't settle down, go and see your gp for an update of everything.

There are some things we just don't know the answer to hun. And to be honest, if we could know, would we really want to? I don't think anyone can predict what's going to happen angel. Even if you do have life-long mental ill health, that's not the same as your life being over or being very hard necessarily hun. People with bad depression can learn to manage it with help and support and have a great quality of life too.

Try not to look at it all as a big mountain all at once hun. That's just going to make you feel worse - not very helpful at all. You're studying, you've got a g/f and you just had a wonderful 2 weeks - these are all positives. It may be worth thinking back to how you were thinking/feeling on holiday and then try and apply the same rules back here at home if you can. Sometimes, it's not a case of where you are but how you are.

The language we use to ourselves and others in these situations is powerful. It's classic to view things in all-or-nothing and black and white terms. We don't realise the effect the way we word things has on our psyche.
Instead of 'little bits of happiness', you may well find life full of dirty great big chunks of happiness angel and I hope that's the case.:T

When we're aware of it, we should try and change how we talk to ourselves - it's not so much about positive thinking but realistic thinking, imho.
Ask yourself if what you're saying is a true picture of what is happening or if it's the way your ill health is making you feel. Remember hun, everything changes - you won't be left feeling like this all the time. Plus you've still got treatment options open that may help you even more, so hang in there angel!;)

On another note i got a letter from the local psychlogical clinic asking if i still needing CBT. does this mean that I am not far from being seen?
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I'd get in touch and say that you would still like CBT hun. You don't want to turn it down and then further down the road come to regret it. Nothing ventured - nothing gained and all that.

Sometimes, they write to clients just to make sure that they are still in need of help. Some people may have felt better and not feel the need for it now. This leads to wasted appts, which is why they check. It may mean you're near the top of the list hun.
Like counselling, it's very hard work and will require regular practice of what you learn angel. It takes a lot of doing but the rewards at the end can be truly amazing!

Hang in there angel - the party's not over yet!;) There's help around if you need it hun and don't be afraid to go back to your gp - they can't help you with what they don't know about guys. Thinking of you lrs - take care hun.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

Hi guys!:hello:
Just popped in for a minute.:rolleyes: I'm doing things the other way around today - I'll be posting later on. Am exhausted and not felt too well physically - been cleaning and clearing Tiffy Towers!:eek:
If I don't get some more sleep now, not only will I fall over but if anyone says they're going to jump, I'd probably come with you!:o No offence - or instructions! - intended.:rolleyes:
Catch you all later. Thinking of you all.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx
So off for a catnap and will be back later

learning_to_drive

off mystery shopping today!

queensway_boy

learning_to_drive wrote: »

off mystery shopping today!

Is it good doing that?how long you done it for? I have heard shopworkers say they know when a mystery shopper comes in,do you think thats true?i mean is there any clues you give away unwittingly?

blinky

Hiya all :hello:

Sorry I haven't been around much. Been busy both personally and at work.

Ethel - good to see you back here :dance:

Big hugs to all.

cifpower

geminilady wrote: »

Hi Ciff,I am NOT a doctor and of course it is up to him to make a diagnosise but to me your symptoms sound very much like bi-polar.People who have this can swing from extreem "highs" to extreem "lows" as you have described,be sure to tell the doctor everything on Friday including your impulse buying(hope you get a good price on ebay) If you do have this disorder the correct medication should balance you out.

I have had urges to buy useless things for years and it nearly always ends up with me taking them back for a refund. I always do this when I am feeling high and exhilirated. When I am on a low I need to be on my own and can feel anger inside me twisting my stomach into knots - it can be very unsettling.

I asked the GP last year after watching the Stephen Fry documentary on BBC2 if I was bi-polar and he replied by saying, "What do you think?" I had no idea which is why I was referred back to my CPN. She then sent me to the Consultant Psychiatrist unusually early.

I am dreading next Friday but at the same time feel I need to do it to finally receive the correct treatment for whatever my condition is.

gillette147

Hi folkes,

I'm ok. Sunshine is a good help to me.
Agency phoned tuesday - a firm want to talk to me about a possible job - we'll see.
Picking up g/f tomorrow for whole weekend *smiles*
Trying to let myself be happy.
xxx

Special hugs to Karrie, Cifpower, B's and other in extra pain lately.
Usual (but also very big) hugs to CC, Tiffy, Sazzy, Ethel, RBK, Rosie,GL and pats on the back for LRS, Blinky and LtD.
Anyone I've missed is getting my wishes too.