Depression

flis21

Hi everyone,

Am really bored and quite sad today. I really want to do something. I wish I had a friend I could call on or something. My family are all busy doing their own things, my hubby is at work. Just me sitting here in my flat on my own, day after day. Am really fed up of it. I can't even go out for a walk cos of my stupid ankle. I feel so frustrated. Why don't I have any friends?

Even my doctor doesn't want to see me. I phoned up yesterday as I wanted to go and speak to him. The receptionist said that he was going on holiday for a couple of weeks and to just put in my repeat prescription and she would get another doctor to sort my tablets out. But I really wanted to talk to him about how I am doing. Worried that I am going downhill again. Trying desperately not to, but don't have much to cling on to. Apart from hubby and he is not here as he is working. Can't wait till 3.30 when he gets home. Think I will feel better then.

Sorry, am rambling, just feel really sad and alone and I hate it. My sister is so lucky, she has so many friends. Whenever I phone her up she has someone round her house or she is just going out to see a friend or something. I wish I could be like that. My only friend lives hundreds of miles away and I get to see her about 2-3 times a year. It's great when I do see her, but I would like to have someone just round the corner who could pop in for coffee, or who could go shopping with me or out for a drink.

Think I need to turn the radio on, the silence in this room is deafening me, it's like I can feel it pressuring me, pressing down on me. Sounds mad? Well, maybe I am mad.

I spoke to my sister in law yesterday and said I was feeling a bit depressed again, she said that I hide it well. Have been thinking about that and think she is right. You people on here are the only people I really open up to. It's silly isn't it. I don't even know any of you properly, but I tell you stuff I would never tell anyone else!! I suppose it is good that I let it out somewhere.

Anyway, I hope someone is around today, could use some comfort / support / company / a friend *any of the above!

beer2006

Hi flis

Turn the telly and go in the arms, plenty of sillyness to keep you amused in there :rolleyes:
Thats why I hardly ever go in there

You've got one true friend, thats something to be happy about, most people go through life with aquaintances, not real friends. I know what you mean about your sister, mine is exactly the same, yet her life would drive me mad ok madder ..... always busy, I need my downtime to recharge my batteries and couldn't cope with a busy house all the time.

HUGS for you, your sister probably wishes she was more like you, peace and quiet for yourself.

We always want what other people have, want to be like them, sometimes we have to look within ourselves..... maybe what we want is already there, it just doesn't look as glamorous as everyone elses

Tiff_2

Hi flissy!:hello:
Oh hun, I'm sorry you're feeling so low. You're a bright spark here and much loved. I doubt you'll get this now as hubbie is due in as I type.;)

quote=flis21
Hi everyone,
Am really bored and quite sad today. I really want to do something. I wish I had a friend I could call on or something. My family are all busy doing their own things, my hubby is at work. Just me sitting here in my flat on my own, day after day. Am really fed up of it. I can't even go out for a walk cos of my stupid ankle. I feel so frustrated. Why don't I have any friends?
It always goes quiet this time of year - everyone's off out shopping for the big famine that will hit us due to the Easter holidays!:rolleyes:
I'd find it hard to imagine angel that you don't have any friends. You seem an absolute sweetheart. Are you feeling like this because you're stuck indoors and getting a touch of cabin fever maybe hun?

Even my doctor doesn't want to see me. I phoned up yesterday as I wanted to go and speak to him. The receptionist said that he was going on holiday for a couple of weeks and to just put in my repeat prescription and she would get another doctor to sort my tablets out. But I really wanted to talk to him about how I am doing. Worried that I am going downhill again. Trying desperately not to, but don't have much to cling on to. Apart from hubby and he is not here as he is working. Can't wait till 3.30 when he gets home. Think I will feel better then.
A tad of exaggeration there hun re dr - although I know how things snowball into one big heap. If you tell the receptionist that you're feeling very worried about your depression, she may have let you have a phone appointment. We all tend to phone up for different things apart from mentioning the depression.;) How would you feel about speaking to another gp hun?

Ok, holiday weekend right angel? No point in worrying or fretting until Tuesday. If you want let your gremlins out for half an hour ONLY every day and then stuff them back in their box until then. That way the weekend doesn't seem like such a monster.

Set yourself a mission to find something to do every day, some small treat or activity. Maybe you could research a hobby to take up. One that will drive you mad, cost a fortune sometimes and is totally addictive is genealogy. Find and write out your family history.:D Mind you, I wish I hadn't - no pot o' gold yet!:rotfl:

May I say something else angel? I'm not sure it is your depression slipping. You always seem to pick up when OH is around, which is brilliant.:T You seem low when he's not. How's your self-esteem hun? You sound very bored and lonely flissy. Do you work angel? Do you have a good social life normally? Part of our mental ill health can be isolating ourselves and another can be losing our self-esteem. If this is the case with you hun, you're not alone.
And the bright point is, that it can be changed.;)

Sorry, am rambling, just feel really sad and alone and I hate it. My sister is so lucky, she has so many friends. Whenever I phone her up she has someone round her house or she is just going out to see a friend or something. I wish I could be like that. My only friend lives hundreds of miles away and I get to see her about 2-3 times a year. It's great when I do see her, but I would like to have someone just round the corner who could pop in for coffee, or who could go shopping with me or out for a drink.
If you apologise, I'll send sazzery round with a wet fish!:D

Would you believe my son JUST got up?!!!:rolleyes: 3.45PM!!!:eek:

Sorry, back to you hun.;) Things always seem greener on the other side angel and when we're low, it's so easy to see what a fantastic life everyone else has got. But things aren't always what they seem angel.

There's millions out there who feel like that - people in a new area, mums with young ones, shy people etc. There are groups to join, for hobbies, for socialising, night classes, even social groups for people with depression/mental ill health in most areas. Even volunteering for something can widen your circle. It doesn't have to be in a charity shop - it could be anything. But it's finding just that little leap of faith to manage it.;)

Think I need to turn the radio on, the silence in this room is deafening me, it's like I can feel it pressuring me, pressing down on me. Sounds mad? Well, maybe I am mad.
A bit of noise can make all the difference sometimes hun. Why not put together a feel good CD for when you feel really low - something to make your feet start tapping.
Mad? Well, you did start the Tiff club... You're not mad hun - you're just a little down and frustrated.

I spoke to my sister in law yesterday and said I was feeling a bit depressed again, she said that I hide it well. Have been thinking about that and think she is right. You people on here are the only people I really open up to. It's silly isn't it. I don't even know any of you properly, but I tell you stuff I would never tell anyone else!! I suppose it is good that I let it out somewhere.
That's why it's safe sometimes hun - no-one to judge you or critisize flis. Plus, it's wonderful to come here knowing that someone isn't going to tell you to get a grip.;) It is good that you let it out hun. And you're always here for so many people.

Anyway, I hope someone is around today, could use some comfort / support / company / a friend *any of the above!
I'm a lonely ol' Tiffster - my address is ...No, I can't put you through that cruelty.:rolleyes: We - well I do - have days like this angel so you're not alone in how you feel. No-one's life is perfect and we can make ourselves miserable trying to accomplish that.

I have to go now hun, but I'll be back today/tomorrow.
(You too ltd and cc and family members!:o :A ) Enjoy tonight with OH and try and relax angel. Hope this helped a little bit. Thinking of you hun.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Sugar_Coated_Owl

to all you lovely people.

CCStar, YAY! :T Great news about the house. I'm so happy for you. It must feel like a huge weight has been lifted.

How are you feeling today?

Good luck with looking for a new house.

Rose, :hello: No, I never made it to the GP before the Easter weekend. I will try to make an appointment next week sometime.

I'm glad you managed to get an appointment with your GP hun. Make sure he gets you the support you need.

I'm not too familiar with benefits but I would imagine that it's incapacity benefit. I think that's given to people who are unable to work or look for work because of ill health. I hope you're getting the right rate of pay hun.

The hospitals really need to improve the activities that they provide people. It all seems so limited.

Hun, I know exactly what you mean. When I was in hospital it was so good to be around people that actually understood how you felt for a change. That's one thing I really miss. The nurses were friendly enough but they didn't really understand. Most of the time they sat there reading the newspaper or watching TV!

You can never have too many people around hun. Make the most of it.

You seem to have a really busy day planned for today. I hope you enjoy yourself

The operation does sound pretty scary but it's going to be worth it. You'll be able to do so many more things afterwards relatively pain free.

BIG

learning_to_drive, Well done on posting about your life and depression e.t.c. It must have been a really hard thing to do. You've written so openly about it all as well. Do you feel better now that it's all written down and you've told people?

You've been through a lot and overcome so much. You should feel really proud of yourself :T Your story is a real inspiration to others.

I have a question for you actually. From what I've read, I guess at some points you could have just easily given up and thought !!!! it. My question is, what made you keep going and how did you find it within yourself to do so?

flis21, I'm in the same kind of situation as you. I have no friends. No-one whom I can just call to say 'fancy going into town' or 'do you want to go for a drink' It sucks big time. I see my brothers calling their friends and their friends calling them all the time. I kind of envy them for that. It's something I would like but I just can't seem to have it.

Most people you ask 'what are you doing this weekend' usually have nights out with friends planned e.t.c Whenever anyone asks me it's just 'nothing'

At least you have your OH flis. Do you have anything planned for this weekend?

I think you can do with one of these flis

xXx

Horasio

I knew things couldn't last my OH has really upset me:(

Every time he speaks to me be it online or at home, it is work or a job to do - I have felt really stressed by him today, yet he has been at work. I told him this then he starts getting nasty about not wanting tea and generally not caring about how I feel. I know things are stressful but he didn't care a jot about how I felt. I feel really hurt:(

I feel really sad, on the verge of tears and he has spoilt Easter for me and I feel like cancelling everything and look for a house of my own. The woman wants another viewing on Monday before she goes back Tuesday and it is busier here because it is Easter, so hope she isn't put off.

I feel I am in hell - I'm sure the feeling will pass but right now I feel really low.

I am not sure how to deal with this, should I have it out with him, which could result in a full blown row or should I get over it, keep quiet, give him the silent treatment, and leave him if he isn't caring enough for me?

Even if he is nice, I am depressed and I blame him for firstly stressing me, then being uncaring about it and caring only about his stress.

I don't know how to handle this feeling and everything I have done has been based on us getting on recently.

learning_to_drive

learning_to_drive, Well done on posting about your life and depression e.t.c. It must have been a really hard thing to do. You've written so openly about it all as well. Do you feel better now that it's all written down and you've told people?

You've been through a lot and overcome so much. You should feel really proud of yourself Your story is a real inspiration to others.

I have a question for you actually. From what I've read, I guess at some points you could have just easily given up and thought !!!! it. My question is, what made you keep going and how did you find it within yourself to do so?

A tough one really, Erm, looking back, just surviving was hard enough, i guess I just had to keep going for my parents more than anything else, but because I didnt know what was up with me, i guess tahts what i wanted to get across, at dewsbury, i didnt know what was wrong.

Sugar_Coated_Owl

Not having meds is beginning to take effect.

I'm really dizzy and feel sick

geminilady

razorbladekisses wrote: »

Not having meds is beginning to take effect.

I'm really dizzy and feel sick

Hi Rbk,It's been very quiet on here tonight.Sorry you are not fealing very well but it might not be your lack of meds you could be coming down with some sort of virus.How long have you been without the meds?I know they took you off them suddenly which i cannot understand when you have been fealing so low.You really need to see the doc as soon as possible and explain how bad you are fealing.

Sugar_Coated_Owl

:hello: I've felt this feeling before when I've missed the odd day or two. Been without them since Mon.

Horasio

Feel better so far today it is early and haven't seen OH yet, so hope it's a better day today, was OK yesterday but felt he was bogging me down with boredom, which I liken to a great song playing on the radio being spoken over fully by the effing DJ - it's the holidays !!!!!! - it is sunny outside:)

Let me enjoy the feeling of selling the house and getting the car - tho not got yet.