Depression

flis21

Morning everyone - Tiff, CC, RBK, LTD, Rosie, Winky, Ethel, Sazzy and all.

I am doing ok at the moment. Not feeling suicidal anymore, which is nice. Feeling like I am getting things a bit more under control. Have phoned up the court and got the paperwork for my bankruptcy, so I know the process is underway now, although there is a 3 month waiting list at the court, so it is not actually going to happen until June, but at least I am not putting it off anymore.

Also started to clean and tidy up the flat. Living room and bedroom are tidy now and have cleaned bathroom. Just got dining room, kitchen and spare room to go. Have sold a couple of things on ebay, which is a good way or getting rid of junk and getting some money at the same time. Although am having trouble getting payment from a couple of people :mad:

My Mum is not working today, so we are going to the cinema to see that new Sandra Bullock film, which I'm looking forward to.

My ankle is still very stiff and achy, but at least with the cast off I feel like I am on the road to recovery now. Am doing all my exercises once an hour and waiting for my physio sessions.

Well, I hope you all have good days and sending hugs and kisses to you all.

Flis

Let_Robinson_Sing

flis21 wrote: »

Although am having trouble getting payment from a couple of people :mad:

Threaten to send the bailiffs round

EthelBloggs

razorbladekisses wrote: »

:hello: all,




:hello: Ethel, How's things with you? What did you end up doing with your day?



I didn't wake up until late today and never bothered getting showered or dressed. Even the simplest of tasks seem to require too much effort atm. I haven't left the house since the start of the week. I feel so worthless. I'm 23 years old and I feel like my life's already well and truly over. The only thing in my life is my job (if they allow me to return that is). Other than that there isn't anything. No friends, no-one to go out with or anything. I don't seem able to maintain friendships or relationships. What the hell is wrong with me!? I punish myself for being me. So pathetic and useless.

I've seen my CPN twice for about 30 mins since I left hospital. He was an agency CPN and was leaving on 16th March. I haven't heard from him or anyone from the hospital since about 12th March. They pretend to care but in reality they don't. Ugh it would have been better to have died from the overdose than be here now.

Sorry guys.

xXx

Hiya RBK :hello:

Would you believe I conked out on me chair here for the whole afternoon? did absolutely nothing

I have days like that.. where it's just too much effort to get dressed or showered or anything.. and I have them more often than I like to admit. It's part of the depression I think.. cos when I'm fine, it's all very easy to make an effort to look halfway decent each day. I can also go for days and days without leaving the house.. the record was 13 days one time :eek: I think part of my trouble is that I don't have a job or have to go to uni anymore, so there's no real pattern or focus to my days other than when I have to go to meetings..if I don't get dressed, no one will notice or be bothered so it doesn't matter.. and I know thats a real bad way to think. Trouble is, I've got no hope of holding down a job at the moment, no employer is gonna tolerate the amount of time I would have to have off so I'm stuck. But maybe you'll find when you go back to work, you'll start to feel a little bit better.

I don't have many friends left either, maybe they weren't real friends to start off with if they got scared off by my depression, although in fairness my daughter is quite scary to be around :eek: I've got two or 3 left and I've been really horrible to one of them this week.. he was trying to be helpful but I took as him trying to boss me about and told him to go and f*** himself!! I've apologised but not heard from him since soo......

I know nothing about CPNs and all that stuff, cos we've not had one, but i do know their resources are stretched a lot and they have a huge workload so maybe that's why. If you want more from them then let them know, cos I think the more vocal people tend to get more if that makes sense?

And lastly.. I for one am very glad that you're still around.. you're such a sweet caring person and your posts are always so supportive, what would we do without you? *megahuggs*

EthelBloggs

Winky,_The_House_Elf wrote: »

Hi Guys!

Just thought I would pop on and say that I am having a good day. Small things seem to be going well and i can cope with the things that aren't.

My ex left this morning. I didn't realise it but he is going home (He's Dutch) to see his Mum. He was prepared to stop here longer and skip it, which was why he hadn't told me about it. When I found out, it was a natural break from him being here. I've decided to go and see my folks in Majorca on Sunday. Dad has paid for the flight. Earlier in the week when he suggested it I felt all pathetic, I mean I am in my 30s and can't afford a budet plane flight now that I am on my own! Today though I can see it for the sweet gesture that it is!

My brother is going to have my darling doggies, which means they will be fat and un-exercised when I get them back! One time he called me 3 days into a trip and asked where the rest of the dog food was? The rest of it? That bag was enough for 10 days! Yes he had fed them the lot because they seemed hungary! Got to love him though.

Razorblades, hope you've had a better day today hun, although you might not realise it you, Tiff, Ethel, etc are helping me through one of the darkest periods of my life. So when you think you have nothing to say, by just being here you make all the difference- so big hugs in your direction!

That was a long post considering I only popped on to say hello!

Love and hugs to all

Winky x x x

Hiya winky (that is such a cool name )

I'm glad things seem to be on the mend for you a bit.. and probably much better now that the ex is gone.
The break will do you heaps of good..all that lovely sunshine and some tlc from the family.. there's nothing to beat it.. have you got a big suitcase with room for me in it?

Let us know how you get on won't you.

Have a lovely time xxxxxxxx

elona

Just about to get in the shower when DD said she wanted to go!!!!

Half an hour later I may eventually get showered and dressed.

We are going to a funeral this afternoon so not exactly a fun day.

Hugs to everybody.

Hope things get better. Lets just "keep on keeping on " IYKWIM!

EthelBloggs

geminilady wrote: »

Morning Ethel,I am still reading the thread even though i have not posted for a while.Teenagers! got one myself he will be fifteen next month but so far he hasn't given me a minutes worry,his brother however is another story lol.If you have not already washed up i would leave the dishes until he comes home from school he has to learn you mission in life is not to clean up after him all the time.As to the bf i would be more than grumpy if i was woke up at 5.30 every morning!I would hit him with the blumming clock .You are stressed out with all you have been through so pamper yourself! you deserve it.It does not have to cost much,an hour with a good book and a bar of chocolate(or a bunch of grapes if you are still watching your weight),give yourself a makeover,anything really that relaxes you and makes you feal good.

Hiya GL :wave:

You've been quiet lately, I hope that you're ok.

My son's gonna be 15 next month too!
B/f has been better since I complained bout the alarm.. he sets it for 6.30 now, under protest tho, lol He's away this weekend, I won't see him til sunday evening now which is kinda nice but kinda not.. he always gets me breakfast on the weekends, now I'm gona have to do it meself hehehehe
We were talking last night and I was saying how lovely it had been last saturday where he just let me sleep and lie in bed all day with the telly and he took care of all the meals etc.. and he said he would do it more often but I make him feel like he's in the way when he tries to help which is why he doesn't! So I told him to feel free.. anytime he likes

I've got quite a few pampery bits since I've discovered bootsing and lots of new make up n stuff.. I've got a packet of hair dye sitting there too waiting to cover up my greys.. just havent had the ooomph to do it, lol
Son's g/f will be here at the weekend, maybe she'll join in, hehe

EthelBloggs

elona wrote: »

Just about to get in the shower when DD said she wanted to go!!!!

Half an hour later I may eventually get showered and dressed.

We are going to a funeral this afternoon so not exactly a fun day.

Hugs to everybody.

Hope things get better. Lets just "keep on keeping on " IYKWIM!

Big huggs Elona

I hope today goes smoothly.

Take care xx

beer2006

EthelBloggs wrote: »

Hiya RBK :hello:
And lastly.. I for one am very glad that you're still around.. you're such a sweet caring person and your posts are always so supportive, what would we do without you? *megahuggs*

Absolutely, some people we can't be without, you are one of them rbk. :kisses3:

Horasio

elona wrote: »

Just about to get in the shower when DD said she wanted to go!!!!

Half an hour later I may eventually get showered and dressed.

We are going to a funeral this afternoon so not exactly a fun day.

Hugs to everybody.

Hope things get better. Lets just "keep on keeping on " IYKWIM!

(((Big hugs)))

queensway_boy

sorry i've not been visiting lately:o






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