Depression

geminilady

Winky,_The_House_Elf wrote: »

Hi Guys!

Just thought I would pop on and say that I am having a good day. Small things seem to be going well and i can cope with the things that aren't.

My ex left this morning. I didn't realise it but he is going home (He's Dutch) to see his Mum. He was prepared to stop here longer and skip it, which was why he hadn't told me about it. When I found out, it was a natural break from him being here. I've decided to go and see my folks in Majorca on Sunday. Dad has paid for the flight. Earlier in the week when he suggested it I felt all pathetic, I mean I am in my 30s and can't afford a budet plane flight now that I am on my own! Today though I can see it for the sweet gesture that it is!

My brother is going to have my darling doggies, which means they will be fat and un-exercised when I get them back! One time he called me 3 days into a trip and asked where the rest of the dog food was? The rest of it? That bag was enough for 10 days! Yes he had fed them the lot because they seemed hungary! Got to love him though.

Razorblades, hope you've had a better day today hun, although you might not realise it you, Tiff, Ethel, etc are helping me through one of the darkest periods of my life. So when you think you have nothing to say, by just being here you make all the difference- so big hugs in your direction!

That was a long post considering I only popped on to say hello!

Love and hugs to all

Winky x x x

Hi Winky,Glad you are having a good day,you seam to be coping well with your x leaving well done it must be hard when you were together so long.The break in Majorca will do you good,hopefully some sunshine to help with the "sad" and it will be good to see your parents they must be worried about you.I had to laugh when i heard about your brother and the dog food,men lol.Anyway enjoy your break and think of us over here freezing!

Horasio

Got a note of interest from the people abroad and are coming to see it next Friday morning (30th)

The people today seemed keen but I don't take notice of words - action is the way!

Sugar_Coated_Owl

:hello: all,

Stenny, I don't think I've chatted to you before so How are you? Thank you for your kind words in your post yesterday.

Tiff, You're so caring. You say such lovely things to people on here. I hope you are OK. How did your appointment go?

learning_to_drive, It's understandable that you're feeling a little despondent about your job/career situation atm. You are young though so as they say, your whole life is ahead of you. Don't give up applying for jobs. It may take a while to get the job you want but with your determination and enthusiasm I'm sure you will get there. Keep at it. If you don't get the job you want, think to yourself OK I didn't get the job, I am disappointed but hey at the end of the day perhaps it wasn't the job for me. Pick yourself up and try again

:hello: Ethel, How's things with you? What did you end up doing with your day?

Winky, The House Elf, How do you feel about your ex leaving? It's lovely that you're going to see your parents this weekend. A break from normal day to day life will probably do you the world of good I expect your parents will spoil you rotten lol. I hope you have a lovely time.

I didn't wake up until late today and never bothered getting showered or dressed. Even the simplest of tasks seem to require too much effort atm. I haven't left the house since the start of the week. I feel so worthless. I'm 23 years old and I feel like my life's already well and truly over. The only thing in my life is my job (if they allow me to return that is). Other than that there isn't anything. No friends, no-one to go out with or anything. I don't seem able to maintain friendships or relationships. What the hell is wrong with me!? I punish myself for being me. So pathetic and useless.

I've seen my CPN twice for about 30 mins since I left hospital. He was an agency CPN and was leaving on 16th March. I haven't heard from him or anyone from the hospital since about 12th March. They pretend to care but in reality they don't. Ugh it would have been better to have died from the overdose than be here now.

Sorry guys.

xXx

Horasio

Having a quiet day today, unless someone calls to view tonight. Going out Saturday to sort money out. Rest until a viewer wants to see the place.

Still got the cars to sort out tho'

Tiff_2

Hi winky!:hello:

quote=Winky, The House Elf,
Just thought I would pop on and say that I am having a good day. Small things seem to be going well and i can cope with the things that aren't.
That's great news hun!:T I'm glad you're feeling a bit better. With mental ill health, our moods shift like the days and hours do. If we can hold onto the fact that there will be an up, somehow it'll help us through the lows.;)

My ex left this morning. I didn't realise it but he is going home (He's Dutch) to see his Mum. He was prepared to stop here longer and skip it, which was why he hadn't told me about it. When I found out, it was a natural break from him being here. I've decided to go and see my folks in Majorca on Sunday. Dad has paid for the flight. Earlier in the week when he suggested it I felt all pathetic, I mean I am in my 30s and can't afford a budet plane flight now that I am on my own! Today though I can see it for the sweet gesture that it is!
That's wonderful winky. It's saved you an uncomfortable set of goodbyes and decisions. I'm really glad you're going to see your family hun. Family are family no matter how old you are.;) Our moods can change and something that seems a carpy idea one day seems heaven sent the next. Your dad obviously loves you and just wants to give you a break.:T

My brother is going to have my darling doggies, which means they will be fat and un-exercised when I get them back! One time he called me 3 days into a trip and asked where the rest of the dog food was? The rest of it? That bag was enough for 10 days! Yes he had fed them the lot because they seemed hungary! Got to love him though.
:rotfl: Look at it like this hun - even the dogs deserve a holiday! And what do people tend to do on holidays? Eat their faces off!:D :rolleyes:

Razorblades, hope you've had a better day today hun, although you might not realise it you, Tiff, Ethel, etc are helping me through one of the darkest periods of my life. So when you think you have nothing to say, by just being here you make all the difference- so big hugs in your direction!
Told you the guys on here were amazing hun!;) Thank you for your lovely words. We've all been at the point where we're struggling alone and feeling low.

That was a long post considering I only popped on to say hello!
Love and hugs to all
Winky x x x

I hope you have a lovely time in Majorca hun - bring me back something nice please - about 5' 10'', dark hair - no moustaches/beards/women though! :eek: :rotfl: You go and get spoiled ok and make sure you say hi when you get home. Look after yourself hun.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

geminilady wrote: »

Hi Winky,Glad you are having a good day,you seam to be coping well with your x leaving well done it must be hard when you were together so long.The break in Majorca will do you good,hopefully some sunshine to help with the "sad" and it will be good to see your parents they must be worried about you.I had to laugh when i heard about your brother and the dog food,men lol.Anyway enjoy your break and think of us over here freezing!

Hi gem!:hello:
How are you hun? Haven't seen you too much recently. How's everything in your corner of the world angel?
That winky - Majorca indeed!;) She could have lied and told us she was off to Bognor!:D Not that we're jealous or anything!:D
I hope you're doing okay hun. Thinking of you.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

CCStar wrote: »

Got a note of interest from the people abroad and are coming to see it next Friday morning (30th)

The people today seemed keen but I don't take notice of words - action is the way!

Hi cc!:hello:
Good luck cc - hope it goes well for you hun.
You've seemed a bit more relaxed over the last couple of days.:T Hoping all is well with you.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

Hi rbk!:hello:
quote=razorbladekisses;:hello: all,
Tiff, You're so caring. You say such lovely things to people on here. I hope you are OK. How did your appointment go?
Awww, thank you hun. A few kind words sincerely meant, doesn't cost anything angel.;) The appointment was for the arthritis. The consultant is a funny old duck.:rolleyes: Very sweet though. It's a case of going in and the whole appointment goes like this...

hello - hello - how are you - in pain - do your knees hurt - yes - do your hips hurt - yes - do your hands, wrists and arms hurt - yes - you've got arthritis - yes and now I've got a pain from my right shoulder going into my arm - that could be arthritis - yes - it could be tendon or nerve damage - oh? - I'll send you for an ultrasound -:eek: - no, I know you're not pregnant, it's for your shoulder - ok - and an mri - ok - have you had one before - no - do you have any metal bits in your head? - no - in your arms or legs? - no - anywhere? - no - pace maker? - no - you've definately got arthritis - yes - see you in 5 months - yes - bye - bye.
:rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl:

I didn't wake up until late today and never bothered getting showered or dressed. Even the simplest of tasks seem to require too much effort atm. I haven't left the house since the start of the week. I feel so worthless. I'm 23 years old and I feel like my life's already well and truly over. The only thing in my life is my job (if they allow me to return that is). Other than that there isn't anything. No friends, no-one to go out with or anything. I don't seem able to maintain friendships or relationships. What the hell is wrong with me!? I punish myself for being me. So pathetic and useless.
Ok hun, you know that these are symptoms of your illness speaking. It's ok to feel this way as long as you follow up on it angel. Make yourself a timetable of silly things to do - 9-10am - get up, shower - get dressed. Just put one or two things on it for different days. By looking after the basics, you will be in better health to deal with the bigger things angel. When we're at our lowest, everything seems very black. It's natural that you're feeling this way because you are ill hun and there's no shame there. The good thing is that you have time for things to be different angel - and yes, we're all sick of waiting but that waiting gives us time to heal imho. By talking to and about yourself negatively rbk, that reinforces a negative message and you feel even less like doing things. When you catch yourself putting yourself down, stop. For every bad point, you must then think of a good point - and there will be some, eg, I am still trying, I cooked dinner today - it doesn't matter what it is. These little things are big things when we feel really low hun.

I've seen my CPN twice for about 30 mins since I left hospital. He was an agency CPN and was leaving on 16th March. I haven't heard from him or anyone from the hospital since about 12th March. They pretend to care but in reality they don't. Ugh it would have been better to have died from the overdose than be here now.
Sorry guys.xXx
Ok rbk, you know you need some help and support. Back to the gp hun.;) Explain the CPN situation to the dr and say you are really struggling and you need some support. I know it may seem like they don't care hun but imho, if they didn't care, then they'd be off doing some other kind of job. I mean if you think about it, with what they have to deal with, who would want to be a CPN if they didn't care?
Or you can contact your local mental health unit and tell them how bad you're feeling angel. It's very important to do this. If you can feel yourself slipping hun, then you have the responsibility of asking for more help. Don't let it get to crisis point. The Samaritans and NHS Direct are available by phone 24 hours hun too.

You wouldn't be better off dead angel. This is your frustration, anger and illness talking. Please give yourself a chance of life hun. I'm don't mean to come across patronising in any way angel - I know you're hurting - but believe me, in the grand scheme of things, life is short enough as it is.

It's hard work but the help is there angel - you just have to keep asking until they find the right way for you. There's lots the drs can do now. Please give them them the chances to help you. You won't feel like this forever. You don't know what life has got planned for you - it may seem very dark right now hun, but everything changes. You're in need of help right now and that's why everything seems so dark. Please get in touch with a professional hun and show them your post if you can't talk about how you feel. Give yourself all the chances it takes to get better hun - you deserve it. I hope this helps a little angel. Thinking of you.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

Good morning my little bush-babies!:hello:
Hope we all made it through the night guys.

Me? Stressed? Nah!



Wow, didn't this week fly by?! I'm getting a bit worried guys - either everyone is feeling a lot better and doesn't need to post:T OR sazzy left the smartie cupboard unlocked again!!!:eek: Seems a lot of us have gone awol.:rolleyes: I hope it's because of the former.;)
To all of the family on here - take care. Hopefully I'll catch you later - I'm off on the pull......pulling the duvet over my head that is!:D :rolleyes: Hate it when you can't sleep properly and for no good reason either.
I'm thinking of you all and hoping that Friday will be kind to you all. Huge Tiff hugs to all.:A
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

flis21

razorbladekisses wrote: »

:hello: all,

I didn't wake up until late today and never bothered getting showered or dressed. Even the simplest of tasks seem to require too much effort atm. I haven't left the house since the start of the week. I feel so worthless. I'm 23 years old and I feel like my life's already well and truly over. The only thing in my life is my job (if they allow me to return that is). Other than that there isn't anything. No friends, no-one to go out with or anything. I don't seem able to maintain friendships or relationships. What the hell is wrong with me!? I punish myself for being me. So pathetic and useless.

I've seen my CPN twice for about 30 mins since I left hospital. He was an agency CPN and was leaving on 16th March. I haven't heard from him or anyone from the hospital since about 12th March. They pretend to care but in reality they don't. Ugh it would have been better to have died from the overdose than be here now.

Sorry guys.

xXx

Hi RBK, Sorry to hear you are feeling so down, particularly after all that lovely advice you have given to others in your post!

You would not be better off dead, although I know how easy it is to feel that way. Do you have one person who you know cares for you? I do not have friends or a social life, but I have my Mum and my Husband. I know they both love me and they are the people that keep me going from day to day. If it wasn't for them I would have given up long ago. Maybe you have a parent or sibling or someone?

To be honest I don't have a lot of faith in psychiatric care either. I spoke to a CPN, who I was then told was going to arrange for some people to come to my flat to 'assess' me. Well that was a year ago and I never heard anything since!! Did speak to someone on the phone about a month after I spoke to the CPN and was just told I was on a waiting list. Completely pointless. I have given up with asking them for help. My gp keeps me supplied with medication and I try and help myself apart from that.

Remember that a lot of these feelings are the illness, you can't help feeling this way, but you are not worthless or pathetic. You have helped a lot of people on this forum with your advice and chat. You are just ill and that is not your fault.

I hope you feel a bit better soon, I'm sending you lots of **HUGS**:grouphug: