Depression

Sazbo

rose07 wrote:

Hi sazziewazzie (a new name)

yeah me shattered too, didnt sleep tuesday and wednesday night, so boy im tierd.

hope you ok saz ?

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sazziewazzie:):) Hiya rosie :wave: Beautiful poem, I was touched. Bless your heart. I didn't sleep last two nights either. Apart from that nothing much to report. Nice to see you though hunnie. Big hugs.

Luv sazzie(wazzie)xxxxxxx

EthelBloggs

razorbladekisses wrote:

Wow Rose, what a lovely thoughtful post that was on the previous page. You are so caring (((HUGS))).

If I had been successful when I OD there would have been people that would have been upset/hurt but not that many and they would have got over it. However, when you want to die it hurts that person who has to carrying on living when it isn't what they want.

I want to die because I don't feel that I have anything worthwhile living for. I don't exactly have a life. I just exist. I don't have any real friends whom I can go out with or anything like that. Basically I've had enough of this !!!!!! life and want out.

My Nan died back in October. I was extremely close to her. However hard I try I cannot seem to deal with her death. I dream about her 2-3 times a week. Sometimes I wake up and forget that she's no longer here. I want to tell her things but then I realize that I can't.

There are other things that have happened but I won't go into them now.

Do I really want to die? Yes.

Sorry RBK, I didn't mean to pry, just I was asking daughter what might be good to help you and those are what she asked.. I was even thinking of letting her loose on here to talk with you for a bit :eek: (maybe not, no one would ever talk to me again!)

Are you having any medication or treatment at all? How would you like your life to be? maybe you can take baby steps towards the changes that you want. No one can fix your life but you.. people can help but the real work has to come from you and I know it's hard to find the strength to do it, sometimes I look at my life and think what's the bloody point! but something makes me keep going.

You can still talk to your grandma.. I had a great uncle who died when I was 11 but we were really close, and even now.. 20 odd years on, I still talk to him sometimes Sometimes when I do, the pages of a book will flutter or a curtain will move in the breeze.. I dunno if its a sign or just wishful thinking but I reckon he listens and your nan will too

beer2006

What Rose said ^ because she has a way with words I am jealous of

EthelBloggs

Sazbo wrote:

lol sadly only shattered in the I'm-married-to-my-job sense. Up at 6am, didn't leave work till 7pm:rolleyes: Ho hum. Don't let anyone tell you I don't lead an exciting life...........

How you doing sweetheart? B/f away now?

Sazxxxx

Gawd you almost sound like a nun, lol.. and hey.. your life is more exciting than mine

I'm ok.. tired and wanting to go to bed but darent.. son and daughter are bickering and i've to be around to stop it escalating.. b/f went straight from work, he'll come back on sunday night sometime

its weird.. I'm feeling much better moodwise and a lot more positive but I'm sooo bloody sleepy.. as soon as I sit down somewhere comfy I doze off even at me mums, its wierd too cos I've been sleeping really well at night lately so I shoulldnt be tired at all

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EthelBloggs

and yes.. it was a lovely poem rosie.. really sweet

Sazbo

EthelBloggs wrote:

Gawd you almost sound like a nun, lol.. and hey.. your life is more exciting than mine

I'm ok.. tired and wanting to go to bed but darent.. son and daughter are bickering and i've to be around to stop it escalating.. b/f went straight from work, he'll come back on sunday night sometime

its weird.. I'm feeling much better moodwise and a lot more positive but I'm sooo bloody sleepy.. as soon as I sit down somewhere comfy I doze off even at me mums, its wierd too cos I've been sleeping really well at night lately so I shoulldnt be tired at all

xxxx

I think emotional stress does that tho, makes you feel tired all the time, even if you've been sleeping ok. It all catches up with you sooner or later y'know? Just hope you're weekend is reasonably quiet.......

Sxxxx

geminilady

razorbladekisses wrote:

Wow Rose, what a lovely thoughtful post that was on the previous page. You are so caring (((HUGS))).

If I had been successful when I OD there would have been people that would have been upset/hurt but not that many and they would have got over it. However, when you want to die it hurts that person who has to carrying on living when it isn't what they want.

I want to die because I don't feel that I have anything worthwhile living for. I don't exactly have a life. I just exist. I don't have any real friends whom I can go out with or anything like that. Basically I've had enough of this !!!!!! life and want out.

My Nan died back in October. I was extremely close to her. However hard I try I cannot seem to deal with her death. I dream about her 2-3 times a week. Sometimes I wake up and forget that she's no longer here. I want to tell her things but then I realize that I can't.

There are other things that have happened but I won't go into them now.

Do I really want to die? Yes.

I feal so sad that you feal you do not have anything to live for.As you are new to the thread i don't know much about you so forgive me if i put my foot in it.I have a son the same age as you and would be devastated if he even tried to kill himself.You have parents i presume? Also you have a bf,he must care about you.I can understand your grief over your Nan and it is very early days but it will get easier.As Rose says she will always live on in your memory and your dreams(hope they are nice ones)I can understand what you mean by not having a life,i think we can all feal like that at times.I don't really have any friends myself,i have workmates ect but nobody really close.
The big differance is that you have all your life in front of you,oh to be 22 again!! You do not know what the future holds for you it could be full of happiness but if you end your life you will never know.

learning_to_drive

Lovely poem rose, really really lovely

Im always on here, even though I think Im getting better and things, Its like therapy for me is this thread, how is PP? Havent heard from her in a while.

EthelBloggs

Sazbo wrote:

I think emotional stress does that tho, makes you feel tired all the time, even if you've been sleeping ok. It all catches up with you sooner or later y'know? Just hope you're weekend is reasonably quiet.......

Sxxxx

You n me both :eek: xxxxxxxxxxxxx

EthelBloggs

hiya Gem... hows you? xx