Depression

Sazbo

beer2006 wrote:

Hi tiffy

That makes a great deal of sense thankyou. You're right of course, when I have been bad, I just cannot get over something bad happening. I think I must be better than before, or have built up a hard shell or something. No thats not right, I don't have a shell, not for some people anyway. I think its when you let someone in under your shell, thats when you have the ups and downs, well I do anyway.
I'm not sure this is actually making any sense this morning

Well it makes sense to me anyways I think trust is a big issue at the heart of what you describe. Least it is for me....

Sx

beer2006

Sazbo wrote:

Well it makes sense to me anyways I think trust is a big issue at the heart of what you describe. Least it is for me....

Sx

Thanks, I have great difficulty trusting people. I sort of like being like that now.
I suppose I have got better by not trusting people, so I have no-one close, therefore I don't have ups and downs.........
Trouble is, life comes along sometimes, shows you such an up, you have to trust, then you wake out of your level, non up or down life. ....... and suddenly you are wide open.......... and not wanting to go back to how you were.



I'm not depressed, I feel a bit of a fraud posting here, but at least someone understands, I have been in a depressed state a year ago and I'm going to stay out of it now, if I possibly can.

EthelBloggs

Sazbo wrote:

Hiya everyone :hello:

Yep, sat here with me cuppa:) Bit of a slow start this morning, as I was sazzy out on the razzy last night:D Someone else at work [strike]deserting the sinking ship[/strike] having a leaving do. I didn't feel like going but guess it was good to let my hair down after a mentally taxing week. Hope we've all got nice things planned for the weekend. LTD and Carol - doesn't it make a world of difference when the sleep's good? I know it does for me. Ethel babe - when's b/f due back? Hope you do get to spend some time together. Beer - go easy on the kinky fringes;) Big hugs to Gilly, Rosie, Miro (we miss you), Gemini, PP, Elona, Barcode, Blinky, CC, Stenny, QB, anyone my leaky brain has forgotten and all our friends here.

Love you all,
Sazzyxxxxx

Mornn sazbomber

hope you had a few for me it does do you good to get out a bit sometimes

b/f is back tomorrow.. he's off work til wednesday.. it's a pity cos it would hve done us some good to have some peaceful time together, alas it was not to be.. and with this meeting on monday :eek: I donno if it will ever be possible again. Basically it's to decide whether its worth my daughter continuing there or not.. the PCT is questioning whether it's a valid use of their money if she's not making any progress.. I can see their point.. but it means that she could be home for good :eek: and although it's a horrible thing to say.. it really would be the end of any positives in my life, no work, no uni and more than likely it would be too much for b/f to cope with and that would come to an end too. It's easy to criticise him and stuff for finding it hard to cope with, but i can see where he's coming from and if i was in his shoes I'd probably have been off like a startled rabbit long ago.

I dunno what's planned for the weekend, support worker is coming in the next hour but they've cut her down from 4 hours to 2 so it's kind of hard to do much in that time

I daresay I'll spend a lot of time hiding in my little room and therefore be here a fair bit

Huggs sazbomber xxxxxxxxxxxxx

Sazbo

beer2006 wrote:

Thanks, I have great difficulty trusting people. I sort of like being like that now.
I suppose I have got better by not trusting people, so I have no-one close, therefore I don't have ups and downs.........
Trouble is, life comes along sometimes, shows you such an up, you have to trust, then you wake out of your level, non up or down life. ....... and suddenly you are wide open.......... and not wanting to go back to how you were.



I'm not depressed, I feel a bit of a fraud posting here, but at least someone understands, I have been in a depressed state a year ago and I'm going to stay out of it now, if I possibly can.

What you have just described - that is me to a t(r)ee. You get good at not letting people in, get to like the apparent feeling of safety and orderliness that seems to provide. But as you say, life has a neat trick of subverting our much-loved arrangements! I think this is a large part of why I'm struggling with counselling at the minute; it requires trust. Don't get me wrong, I do trust my counsellor completely, it's more a question of allowing myself to trust him, if that makes sense...

And Beer, you are not in any way fraudulent posting here. As Ethel, and you yourself, have said, the thing about this thread (and yours) is that we have a network of support going here that can be of help to whomever's in need of it at the time. One person on their own can do a certain amount, but between all of us we can do more. Everyone here, yourself included, has something to contribute to that process. And besides, you know what depression is like - you've been there. That works for me.

Love, Sazx

Sazbo

EthelBloggs wrote:

Mornn sazbomber

hope you had a few for me it does do you good to get out a bit sometimes

b/f is back tomorrow.. he's off work til wednesday.. it's a pity cos it would hve done us some good to have some peaceful time together, alas it was not to be.. and with this meeting on monday :eek: I donno if it will ever be possible again. Basically it's to decide whether its worth my daughter continuing there or not.. the PCT is questioning whether it's a valid use of their money if she's not making any progress.. I can see their point.. but it means that she could be home for good :eek: and although it's a horrible thing to say.. it really would be the end of any positives in my life, no work, no uni and more than likely it would be too much for b/f to cope with and that would come to an end too. It's easy to criticise him and stuff for finding it hard to cope with, but i can see where he's coming from and if i was in his shoes I'd probably have been off like a startled rabbit long ago.

I dunno what's planned for the weekend, support worker is coming in the next hour but they've cut her down from 4 hours to 2 so it's kind of hard to do much in that time

I daresay I'll spend a lot of time hiding in my little room and therefore be here a fair bit

Huggs sazbomber xxxxxxxxxxxxx

I'm really sorry to hear this Ethel. I appreciate I don't know all the circumstances and how the decision process works, but it always seems to me that they look for any opportunity to avoid providing the care they should be providing for your daughter? Makes me really cross actually :mad: If they say she's not making progress, well then they should sort things out so that she does. How is sending her back home helping anyone? Sorry but that just doesn't make sense to my small brain at all. And why have they cut down your support worker's hours?

Massive hugs,
Sazbomberxxxxx

EthelBloggs

beer2006 wrote:

I'm not depressed, I feel a bit of a fraud posting here, but at least someone understands, I have been in a depressed state a year ago and I'm going to stay out of it now, if I possibly can.

I think depression is not a constant.. it changes.. comes and goes.. varies it's symptoms and severity..

and most importantly - we like you being here.. fraud or not

EthelBloggs

Sazbo wrote:

I'm really sorry to hear this Ethel. I appreciate I don't know all the circumstances and how the decision process works, but it always seems to me that they look for any opportunity to avoid providing the care they should be providing for your daughter? Makes me really cross actually :mad: If they say she's not making progress, well then they should sort things out so that she does. How is sending her back home helping anyone? Sorry but that just doesn't make sense to my small brain at all. And why have they cut down your support worker's hours?

Massive hugs,
Sazbomberxxxxx

I dunno.. but they ahve to do something

I've just been punched in the chest and showered with broken glass cos she's p'ed off about something or other...

Sazbo

EthelBloggs wrote:

I dunno.. but they ahve to do something

I've just been punched in the chest and showered with broken glass cos she's p'ed off about something or other...

Hun this just doesn't sound like a safe situation, for any of you. Having her at home can't be the answer imho. You can't be expected to cope with that on your own.

Please take care of yourself
sxxx

stenny_2

ethel what an awful situation again, I hope the SW takes notes of what DD does.
I think it's about time once and for all that they get this all dealt with instead of having you running round in circles attending meetings that end up with a negative outcome!
They are the supposed professionals, so why is it taking them so long to get DD the aquired help needed?

Can't you arrange a meeting with your local MP and discuss the situation to see if he can push things along?

:A

Sazbo, whats this? a night on the tiles?
Are you drinking the red bull today? :rotfl:
Hope you had a gr8 time.

:A


Have a gr8 weekend everyone

xxx

blinky

Hi all,

Only poping in to show I'm still alive. Been with 'R' all week and will be until Monday

Big hugs to all. Will try and catchup next week.