Depression

Tiff_2

Hi guys!
Hope we all made it safely through the night.

I started even earlier today but I've got to go now and it's frustrating because there are things I really want to say in reply, (Tiff Chronicles Warning!:D :rolleyes: ), but I can't right now.:o

Also want to say to barcode. The guys on here have given you fantastic advice and their usual warm welcome.:T
I will reply to your posts later hun.

And to the rest of the family, you'll get yours too!:D :rolleyes: :rotfl:
Have a good weekend guys and be kind to yourselves ok?
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

beer2006

Tiff wrote:

Sorry beer, Tiff went off on a bit of a tangent there!:rolleyes:
Yes angel - I think everyone, ill or not, gets this - not just you. You never know (Thank God!;) ) what's coming.
Imho, the difference is, that if we have mental ill health, that it's harder to deal with and recover from those ups and downs. And of course, there are some illnesses that have this problem as part of their symptoms.

Hi tiffy

That makes a great deal of sense thankyou. You're right of course, when I have been bad, I just cannot get over something bad happening. I think I must be better than before, or have built up a hard shell or something. No thats not right, I don't have a shell, not for some people anyway. I think its when you let someone in under your shell, thats when you have the ups and downs, well I do anyway.
I'm not sure this is actually making any sense this morning

CarolnMalky

Just a quick good morning from a friendly fairy!! Another good nights sleep...yeehaaaa :T:T:T It helps me cope a wee bitty better with whatever the day throws my way :rolleyes:

Hope everyone has made it through the night and is going to enjoy Saturday.

Love, hugs and fairy dust to everyone x x x x x
Carol xx

EthelBloggs

Barcode wrote:

Hi Ethel,

In a strange way, it's reassuring to hear your post (not that I wish any of it had happened, please don't misinterpret me).

Sometimes, I think having fewer memories may be a positive thing.

O.k, I'm going on now ....

It's ok, I know what you meant, lol

In some ways, it is a good thing not remembering properly, but the problem is, I struggle to remember what has happened in meetings I've attended, classes, lectures, conversations etc.. I have to write everything down otherwise it just doesn't stick in my head.

Go on as much or as little as you want.. the people in this thread are all wonderful and I've found now that I have a great support network, even if all I do is come here and whine about stuff, you'll find the same too

Tiff_2

Hi barcode!:hello:

Barcode wrote:

I wonder if it's o.k to join this thread (no, I can't read through a hundred pages!).
Of course you can hun - if they let me in, you've got no problem!;)
You are most welcome here bc. Well done for having the courage to open up and share with us.:T

I'm feeling more emotionally drained than usual of late. I am tired of having to take anti-depressants just to function and get through the day. I am tired of having the same dreams over and over, causing me to wake up several times a night upset, I am tired of feeling isolated from everybody else, and I think I'm just tired of being me.
Well angel, you're certainly in Tiff territory here! The feeling of being a hamster in a wheel is awful. And yes, to have to get up every day and swallow the same tablets can be depressing in itself. Some types of diabetes and other illnesses need daily medication and I'm sure they get sick of it like us, but it's the lesser of two evils.

I don't know what care package you have. It seems obvious from this post that you could use some more support angel. Your lack of sleep and your disturbed sleep is going to make you feel more distressed bc. It's completely understandable to feel the way you do. It sounds like a huge vent would do a power of good to let the pain out.

Isn't it strange, that the further we are, from our problems, the more they seem to affect us? Things that happened years ago seem to affect me on a daily basis, and I can't help thinking it's silly. But then, I have no sense of what is normal anymore.
If you have been through traumas hun, the pain is still there in your mind. I think this is because it's not been dealt with but also because, in a warped kind of way bc, it's the body's way of protecting you by keeping you alert - 'Hey, do you remember this? Keep your eyes open!'
It goes wrong though, when it affects being able to live every day life. It can't be something 'silly' hun, if it's affecting you now - it must be something big. But there are different agencies/approaches to take angel, that can make a difference.

And if you try looking for Normal hun, you'll find he's always out with his best friend Perfect!
It sounds a glib answer hun but it's not meant to be. We aspire to our own ideas of what normal is, and they're usually so high, that they're impossible to reach. And when we fall, it hurts and we blame ourselves even more. Now that really is a hamster wheel hun!

I really feel for you hun - if things are so very much worse for you, I think it's time to go and see the dr for an assessment hun. Meanwhile, the guys on here are great bc, and we'll support you all we can. Take care hun.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

EthelBloggs

Tiff wrote:

Hi ethel!:hello:
How are you angel?

EthelBloggs wrote:

Awww I'm glad he found his wallet.. saves you a bit of hassle, unless you already applied for the replacement things
No, I'd just downloaded the form hun. I'm still gonna sell him though!:D

Stennys ok, aint his fault, and he aint getting his either soo...... I won't shoot him yet, lol
Don't listen stenny - it's a trap!:p

No plans for the weekend, I daren't with that daughter of mine! b/f is due home which i'm really looking forward to, I've missed him lots and somehow the bed seems too big for me on my own,
:eek:
It'll be good for you not to be the only adult in the house hun.;)

but at the same time I'm dreading it cos I know there'll be trouble with daughter. I'm thinking about asking my mum to have her for a couple of nights, just to give me n him a chance to relax and spend some time together.
That's a really good idea hun. It sounds like you all need some respite.:T

I went to bed last night around 11.30.. was woken up at half 2 by madam harassing her brother in his room, so they were fighting.. I'm gonna hve the neighbours on my door at some point today :mad: cos she was making a lot of noise, screaming and shouting.
And if they come hun, you say "I'm sorry about the noise but unfortunately my child is disabled." Or even go first and tell them if they're the approachable sort.
Angel, are you getting DLA for DD?

I'm seriously at the end of my tether with her.
Well hun, hang in there - we're here for you and the weekend will pass just like any other. Next week is full of promises and ol' Tiff's been down in the archives again.;)
Sorry I didn't get chance to post back last night hun, but I was exhausted. And the dog ate it! I haven't got a dog - but he still ate it!!!:D :rolleyes:
Hope you're all ok hun.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Mornin Tiffster

I seriously do need a break.. I'm exhausted.. the neighbour knows all the circumstances.. we've been neighbours and friends for 13 years, but just lately she's getting awful moany.

I don't get dla, just child tax credit and child benefit. I did have appointment with a CAB worker, we filled half the form in and made another appointment which i wasn't able to keep and i've just left it since then.

Don't worry tiffy.. I appreciate everything you do for me and I know you post when you can

Me mum's doing some washng for me, this should be the last lot, cos I bought an old fashioned spin dryer from ebay which hopefully will arrive next week, so I can wash it by hand after that, til the washing machine is sorted She's had to take her cat to the vet this morning cos he's sneezing blood.. I reckon it's cos he's been harassing the budgie and got a feather up his nose or sommat, lol

Have a good weekend everyone and bigg hugggs xxxxxxxxxxxxx

Tiff_2

Hi Sazzy!:hello:
How are you feeling saz?
I'm guilty of neglecting you aren't I hun? I read your post earlier in the week angel, saying you were needing to slow down a bit so I didn't want to impose. You're an angel saz and you know would share her last bag of catnip with you, don't you?!;)

Sazbo wrote:

Hi Barcode, ...
It may seem strange, but really, difficulties that we experienced a long time ago often do affect us in the present because 'strategies' we devised at the time to deal with a problem can often outlive the original problem and they stay with us even though they are no longer useful. Am I making any sense at all here?! So we just feel like we're going round and round in circles - and believe me I've got the T-shirt on that one!:D ...

Yes, you're making perfect sense saz - I completely agree with you hun!:T
The coping techniques we use at the time get us through the crisis, but because they've worked, the brain tends to keep them around and that's when they can become a bad habit.

I got the same T-shirt saz and I'm selling it on ebay!:rolleyes: Plus, as I said earlier, I'm still selling DS so I'm hoping for a grand total of £1.34 to add to the hat fund!;)
I hope all is well with you hun - have been thinking about you and wishing you well.
I'm on page 114 - so I'm not far behind now guys!:D :rolleyes:
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

learning_to_drive

Cheers Tiff, I've calmed down Had another 12 hour sleep, lovely!

Sazbo

Tiff wrote:

Hi Sazzy!:hello:
How are you feeling saz?
I'm guilty of neglecting you aren't I hun? I read your post earlier in the week angel, saying you were needing to slow down a bit so I didn't want to impose. You're an angel saz and you know would share her last bag of catnip with you, don't you?!;)


Yes, you're making perfect sense saz - I completely agree with you hun!:T
The coping techniques we use at the time get us through the crisis, but because they've worked, the brain tends to keep them around and that's when they can become a bad habit.

I got the same T-shirt saz and I'm selling it on ebay!:rolleyes: Plus, as I said earlier, I'm still selling DS so I'm hoping for a grand total of £1.34 to add to the hat fund!;)
I hope all is well with you hun - have been thinking about you and wishing you well.
I'm on page 114 - so I'm not far behind now guys!:D :rolleyes:
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Hiya tiffy hun! :hello:

Thanks for thinking of me hun, bless you heart. How have you been this week sweetheart? Are you doing ok yourself? Can't help worrying about my little tiffy pal... I'll never be able to get those hats without your help;) Have you sold DS yet? Maybe he's a bit overpriced hun?:D

Much love as always,
Sazzyxxx

Sazbo

Hiya everyone :hello:

Yep, sat here with me cuppa:) Bit of a slow start this morning, as I was sazzy out on the razzy last night:D Someone else at work [STRIKE]deserting the sinking ship[/STRIKE] having a leaving do. I didn't feel like going but guess it was good to let my hair down after a mentally taxing week. Hope we've all got nice things planned for the weekend. LTD and Carol - doesn't it make a world of difference when the sleep's good? I know it does for me. Ethel babe - when's b/f due back? Hope you do get to spend some time together. Beer - go easy on the kinky fringes;) Big hugs to Gilly, Rosie, Miro (we miss you), Gemini, PP, Elona, Barcode, Blinky, CC, Stenny, QB, anyone my leaky brain has forgotten and all our friends here.

Love you all,
Sazzyxxxxx