Depression

queensway_boy

CCStar wrote:

Hi to my REAL mates - you know who you are:)

One's that stand by you when you feel scared and not acting so sweet and nice.

Been a mixed week. Felt good at the beginning, the house looked tidy and felt ready for viewers - we have had a couple yesterday. But that is not to last, the feeling good feeling, there is always something(s) and some people to chip away at it.

Why can't they leave me alone?

Hey come on STOP all that:o

queensway_boy

Horasio

queensway_boy wrote:

Hey come on STOP all that:o

Why

I build myself up and attacked constantly till I can't take any more, then slagged off for saying 'enough' but everyone else has the right to say 'enough' but not me - I have to keep going, acting sweet and taking it.

I am basically a nice, caring person but I have limits and I'm no doormat but women must be a doormat, we must cook, clean and endure grumpy boring people with a smile and no complaint. We must run on empty and no-one will be there when you really need that boost to cope, yet I have to be and do it right, else I am the villain. No they turn on you when you really need them.

It lies in wait to get me when I feel good.

learning_to_drive

Hi to my REAL mates - you know who you are

One's that stand by you when you feel scared and not acting so sweet and nice.

Been a mixed week. Felt good at the beginning, the house looked tidy and felt ready for viewers - we have had a couple yesterday. But that is not to last, the feeling good feeling, there is always something(s) and some people to chip away at it.

Why can't they leave me alone?

Are you ok CCStar? I'm sure this is all a misunderstanding!

queensway_boy

CCStar wrote:

Why

I build myself up and attacked constantly till I can't take any more, then slagged off for saying 'enough' but everyone else has the right to say 'enough' but not me - I have to keep going, acting sweet and taking it.

It lies in wait to get me when I feel good.

In this thread?

Horasio

learning_to_drive wrote:

Are you ok CCStar? I'm sure this is all a misunderstanding!

This is nothing to do with anything here - it is life in general, I am destined to have anything nice destroyed.

I'm stupid for believing people are mates and life will get better.

It's all a load of BS.

queensway_boy

CCStar wrote:

This is nothing to do with anything here - it is life in general, I am destined to have anything nice destroyed.

I'm stupid for believing people are mates and life will get better.

It's all a load of BS.

I'm sorry i thought something had happened in the thread:o

learning_to_drive

Hugs CC, we are all here for you, recovery will happen, its a hell of a nightmare riding the storm until that happens though.

Tiff_2

CCStar wrote:

Hi to my REAL mates - you know who you are:)
One's that stand by you when you feel scared and not acting so sweet and nice.
Been a mixed week. Felt good at the beginning, the house looked tidy and felt ready for viewers - we have had a couple yesterday. But that is not to last, the feeling good feeling, there is always something(s) and some people to chip away at it.
I want to live my life and mind my business but no, they have to attack me til I snap, then blame me for being angry, yet if I offend them, I am the bad guy too. Always wrong - I can't be arksed tbh.
It is our son's birthday tomorrow and I have to be happy for that, and I want to be but, no they keep pushing me till I snap, yet I have to keep smiling despite the sh*te I have to endure. Yes, they say, don't let them get to you, and to a point I don't but everyone has limits and I reach mine and I'm the bad guy for saying 'enough'. I'm told I say things badly, yet I have to take other peoples badly worded comments without complaint. double standards or what? I'm sick of taking it! Why can't they leave me alone?

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Originally Posted by queensway_boy
Hey come on STOP all that:o

_CCstar wrote:

Why
I build myself up and attacked constantly till I can't take any more, then slagged off for saying 'enough' but everyone else has the right to say 'enough' but not me - I have to keep going, acting sweet and taking it.

It lies in wait to get me when I feel good.[quote/]

Hi cc!:wave:
I hope your son has a lovely birthday.:T
I believe you may be alluding to me and to your posts earlier in the week. It wasn't the way you make it sound hun. I'm sorry you feel bad about the response you got. Anyway hun, I'm not posting a post mortem - or talking about caps fitting or clumsy words.
Please don't have a go at qb or anyone else cc - they just want a place to post where they can feel comfortable, without having to worry about anything else. No-one is attacking you hun. I really am concerned about you, to hear you in this state angel. Have you spoken to your gp about how you're feeling angel? Is there anyway I can help hun? Please talk to someone cc - I worry about you too you know.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

blinky

CCStar wrote:

This is nothing to do with anything here - it is life in general, I am destined to have anything nice destroyed.

I'm stupid for believing people are mates and life will get better.

It's all a load of BS.

Some people are mates

Sorry to hear you are having a rough time.