DreamerHelen's New Diary - "Ad Astra per Aspera"

DreamerHelen

PestoPasta wrote: »

Hi Helen, how are things? I guess you had a very very busy weekend. Hope you enjoyed the course and managed to fit in the work that you wanted to.

Did you manage to get hold of a mini deoderant spray to keep with you (I know that you discussed it ealier in your blog)?

Hey Hun....I DID have a VERY VERY busy and draining Weekend that brought up all sorts of emotional issues for me....but it was a good Weekend as well...and I really enjoyed it....even if it was hard work as well....

Did SOME work but not as much as I wanted....was just too drained to Work....but am working really hard this Week to clear this bloody Council Tax Bill!! So we'll see what happens with that....

Haven't got my Mini Deoderant yet...but will do....just got to get to a Shop...

Mara_uk7 wrote: »

Just home from a couple of lovely days on Skye.

So, im back to nagging mode , budgets ? Diets ? Update me ! Were not talking about my diet, ok ?

Aww, really glad you had a good time on Skye...that's great news....It helps to relax....

Not much to update you with....Haven't started my Diet yet...but will do in the next few Weeks hopefully....I'm just too stressed to do it right now....

I'm trying to Work on my Budget today....and hopefully have something that is doable and realistic...

Am back at the Course tonight....I could really do with a Break myself but I don't think I'm going to get one anytime soon!!

Anyway...that's me....I'm doing okay...starting to very slowly feel safe again....

DreamerHelen

Morning Everyone....And how are we all today?

I'm doing okay....absolutely and completely EXHAUSTED!!!! I went to the Course last night and it was BRILLIANT...but just felt like I might as well have got a bed at College since we have been there for the past 4 days continuously....But it was funny, I actually felt quite sad about leaving last night knowing that I wouldn't be back there until next Tuesday Evening....strange...

Only one more Week and then we are on our Summer Holidays from the Course....which will be nice in a way....

I'm off out for a Day Out next Wednesday which will be REALLY nice I think.....I'm going out with my Ex that I'm still good Friends with...think he wants to be more than that but I'm not interested so I might have to have a rather delicate and difficult converation with him...We'll see...but we're going for a loooooong wander down the Thames and chilling out and relaxing (depending on the weather!!)....going out for Lunch and Evening Meal....and just generally giving me some Time Out...which is much needed right now....So I'm really really looking forward to that....

Today I have 2 lots of Supervision....one this morning and I'm leaving in about 20 minutes....and one tonight from 7pm....and I have to Work this Afternoon....so today looks like it's gonna be a busy one....

Was VERY nervous about coming home so late last night but so far nothing has happened....I've not been approached by "him" in any way shape or form....so I'm starting to feel a bit safer again....and I think the longer that goes on for the better because eventually I will realise that he's not coming after me and will feel completely safe again....

So that's me....Must get on and get ready....Chat to you all later on xXx

The_Dragon

Oooh once the course is over for the Summer you can do some more work and throw more money at your debts!

DreamerHelen

The_Dragon wrote: »

Oooh once the course is over for the Summer you can do some more work and throw more money at your debts!

Yep I know And it will be nice to have a break from going across London every Tuesday during Rush Hour!! :eek:

Went to Supervision this morning and I have another Supervision tonight at 7pm....So I'm debating whether to get some sleep this Afternoon so I can do an All-Nighter tonight....

Am very very tired right now....even though I had a good night's sleep....not sure what's going on....

I'll get there though....slowly but surely....

DreamerHelen

Good Morning....

I'm at my Placement this Afternoon....have to start getting ready at 11am and leave by about Midday....I won't be back until around 7pm....

Got a Tesco Delivery coming between 9pm and 10pm, then speaking to Mum and then Working all night....And I'm looking forward to really smashing my Target tonight....I AM going to get my Target for the Week!!

Feeling really really positive today....Not sure why but I'm not going to question it....I'm just going to accept it and use it to help me along today....If that makes any sense whatsoever!!

This Week has been soooooooo busy with 4 days at College followed by 2 lots of Supervision yesterday followed by my Placement today....But after this Afternoon I will be smashing Work over the next few days....I'll get there!! :T :T :T

Also starting to feel a bit safer...."he" hasn't come anywhere near me so I'm starting to feel like I might be safe again....Which feels good...

So that's me....Chat to you all later on xXx

Mara_uk7

Feel safe, he wouldnt dare come near you again, Hes not so stupid !

So how is the target going towards the Council tax deadline ? Are you going to have £500 to give them this week ?

Glad youre having a positive day, and why shouldnt you ? Youre a unique person, no-one is better or worse than you, as some clever advertising person said, "youre worth it " , So come on, get this bl006y debt killed and start living your life, this is no dress rehearsal !

We're all rooting for you here in this little virtual world !
xx

DreamerHelen

Mara_uk7 wrote: »

Feel safe, he wouldnt dare come near you again, Hes not so stupid !

So how is the target going towards the Council tax deadline ? Are you going to have £500 to give them this week ?

Glad youre having a positive day, and why shouldnt you ? Youre a unique person, no-one is better or worse than you, as some clever advertising person said, "youre worth it " , So come on, get this bl006y debt killed and start living your life, this is no dress rehearsal !

We're all rooting for you here in this little virtual world !
xx

Aww thanks hun....It really IS nice to know that there are people rooting for me....

No, I won't have £500 by next Week but WILL by the end of the month so that will have to be sufficient for them....I'll just do the best I can...that's all I can ask of myself....

I am starting to realise that I AM worth it....Just have to keep on believing that and start living my Life...

PestoPasta

Glad you are feeling more positive Helen - just wait until the sunshine comes back and there will be no stopping you!

DreamerHelen

PestoPasta wrote: »

Glad you are feeling more positive Helen - just wait until the sunshine comes back and there will be no stopping you!

Thanks hun....I agree with you...and I hope the Sunshine comes back soon....

It's nice to be able to relax this morning but I will be Working the all-nighter tonight after Placement...

See you all later on xXx

Mara_uk7

Well ? How did the all -nighter go ? did you manage to stay awake and be scintillating as usual ? How about an update on your extra council tax money ? like "£450 of £500 made". Can you tell Im worrying for you ?
Cant be easy working & trying to do college stuff as well, I know when I had to do a qualification for work a few years back, I really struggled to put in a 8-9 hour day in the office then settle to studying after cooking dinner etc at home. Was wayyyyyyyy to easy to hit the internet and waste time ! lol Didnt think Id forget how to study, but I had !! Jeez this old age aint easy ! lol Happy Friday ! x