DreamerHelen's New Diary - "Ad Astra per Aspera"

DreamerHelen

kittycatfan wrote: »

Ta for replying you never answered about the zoo lol , well have a good weekend whatever you end up doing im going to try not to spend anything as like you i do so well then save abit then something comes along and ruins it and then my savings are gone its such a struggle im fed up being in debt but i owe loads so unless i win lotto itll take me years to sort but hey its my fault anyway nighty night

Hello Again.....You're right, I didn't reply about the Zoo....I completely forgot!! Apologies!!

I can't wait to go to the Zoo...I've never been to the one at Colchester....and in particular I want to see the Elephants and the Lions....I'm hoping to get some good Pictures from the day and hoping it's going to be a nice day as well....

I've managed to get some sleep after a minor Panic Attack...Spent some time crying....which made me feel worse instead of better....But I'll get there slowly...

Another £45 needed before I hit my Target and I'm hoping to do that by morning...but we'll see...Right now I just feel tired even though I have slept....But I'm going to watch "Pointless Celebrities" and "The Voice" and hope that keeps me going throughout the Night...

I'll catch you all in the morning xXx

Upsidedown_Bear

Hope you met your target

DreamerHelen

Upsidedown_Bear wrote: »

Hope you met your target

Morning Hun....

No, not met Target as of yet....Had a VERY difficult Call last night which made me feel physically sick so I logged off after 90 minutes and went to bed....

Been Working this morning and racked up another £10....Got another £20 to go....Going to log on at 2pm and see how far I can get before I have to eat again....

I just can't shake this feeling of dread....Like something really bad is going to happen or has happened.....It's so hard to explain....I just feel like something isn't quite right...

It could be that things have been very difficult over the past few Weeks....and things didn't turn out as I had planned....But it's a hard feeling to shake....

Still, all I can do is move forwards....I keep saying that - Maybe it's time to actually DO something about it....and that's what I'm going to do....start paying off my Debts, lose weight and start exercising...and I'll get there slowly....inch by inch if I have to...

I think the Flu has mostly gone now....I still have a bit of a sore throat but that is also going slowly....So at least I'm feeling better physically....now just gotta work on the Mental/Emotional stuff....

Upsidedown_Bear

"Maybe it's time to actually DO something about it"

This ^^^ is the key. Start today, now, this minute
Go on - you can do it :T

DreamerHelen

Upsidedown_Bear wrote: »

"Maybe it's time to actually DO something about it"

This ^^^ is the key. Start today, now, this minute
Go on - you can do it :T

You are completely right hun...Thank You....

Next Week, when the Pay Period starts at Midnight tonight, I'm GOING to hit my Target for the WHOLE Week without changing anything or re-jigging my Budget!! That's my Commitment to myself...

That's my start.....

Upsidedown_Bear

DreamerHelen wrote: »

You are completely right hun...Thank You....

Next Week, when the Pay Period starts at Midnight tonight, I'm GOING to hit my Target for the WHOLE Week without changing anything or re-jigging my Budget!! That's my Commitment to myself...

That's my start.....

:T:T:T

I'm going to be stalking you to see how you get on...:D:p

DreamerHelen

LoL Upsidedown Bear.....You are welcome to stalk me....

I logged on at 2pm.....And it's going okay so far....I really did NOT want to log on, but did it anyway.....I HAVE to get that last £20....and so far I'm up to about £3....but I'll get there....

The good thing about this Job is that you can see the money going up and up because there is an Online Checker thing that updates with each Call that I do....so I can check my Money any time during the Shift....although sometimes that can de-motivate me if I check it too often and it hasn't gone up as much as I'd like....

Anyway....I AM being much more Positive....and I'm going to continue that way....

Upsidedown_Bear

DreamerHelen wrote: »

LoL Upsidedown Bear.....You are welcome to stalk me....

I logged on at 2pm.....And it's going okay so far....I really did NOT want to log on, but did it anyway.....I HAVE to get that last £20....and so far I'm up to about £3....but I'll get there....

The good thing about this Job is that you can see the money going up and up because there is an Online Checker thing that updates with each Call that I do....so I can check my Money any time during the Shift....although sometimes that can de-motivate me if I check it too often and it hasn't gone up as much as I'd like....

Anyway....I AM being much more Positive....and I'm going to continue that way....

:T:T:T

DreamerHelen

Wow thank you Upsidedown Bear.....That Picture is AMAZING....And I've put it as my Screensaver....Just to remember to be POSITIVE!!!

I'm nearly halfway to my Target....not far to go now....

Upsidedown_Bear

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