DreamerHelen's New Diary - "Ad Astra per Aspera"

Kepp

Nice to hear you sounding a lot more upbeat

If it needs to be work from home have you considered AQA? I think there are times that they are busier too, but that's more like Friday and Saturday evenings rather than the dead of night. You know better than anyone if this job suits you best but just wanted to make another suggestion.

Could you also consider switching to texts in the same line of work you do now to vary things up a bit? It may be badly paid I don't know, I looked at it but didn't get very far!

Hope college goes well today

DreamerHelen

Hey Everyone....

Hiya Robsmum :kisses3: How are you doing? Thank you for your Comments...I'm hoping that's how it will go otherwise what's the point in re-training??

Hey Beccie :wave: I've not heard of AQA...what is it? I tried Googling it but it came up with all sorts....so some help would be appreciated And yes, have tried Texting but the Phones are much much better paid....

Sooooo I've had a very interesting 24 hours. College was really great yesterday....Had a Tutorial and my Tutor basically helped me work out a Plan to finish my Essay which needs doing ASAP :eek:

And then I came home and went to bed as I desperately needed some sleep.

And then this morning I get a Knock on the Door to open it to a very nice Man who gave me enforced bankruptcy papers as I haven't been paying my Debts I've basically been putting my head in the sand and ignoring them...

So I took the bull by the horns and phoned up ALL of my Debtors and arranged to pay all of them a small amount each month....I also found out exactly how much I owe them so I know where I'm starting from and I'm going to sort out an Excel Spreadsheet so that I can see the money going down when I pay it.

I'm also completely up to date and even ahead of myself slightly with regards to bills...so that's good...I just need to phone up Scottish Power to arrange to pay by Direct Debit so that they will stop chasing me.

So I feel much much better having sorted all of that out....Just need to sort out my Flat now and I'll be happy.....It DOES need cleaning but I always get slightly out of control with it and it soon becomes a tip as I live in a VERY VERY small Studio Flat.

This afternoon I'm waiting for a Phone Call from the Doctor with my Test Results, my ordinary Doctor is away this Week with it being Half-Term so I've got the On-Call Doctor that I hope can still interpret the Test Results properly!!

So while I'm waiting for his Phone Call I'm going to re-do my Budget....I have been desperately trying to earn waaaaaaaaaay too much and it's too stressful...So I'm going to sort out something that is REALISTIC - That's my Buzz Word for today!!

Anyway...enough of my Rambling....Chat to you all soon.

Love and Hugs, Helen (Feeling Hopeful at Last :T) xxx

Kepp

Hi Helen,

Link here Sorry that must have been confusing, it was about 4 years ago I worked for them and they have since changed their name from AQA (Any Question Answered) to 63336, I didn't realise

They aren't currently recruiting but I remember that always being the case, just keep checking back and soon enough they will be.

It's basically a text service that people can ask any question by text (train times, lottery numbers to just weird and wonderful) you answer from your computer using their database and Google.

Have you considered going on a DMP with CCCS to make the debt more manageable?

Hope the test results come back ok

DreamerHelen

Hey Everyone....It's a bright new shiny day!!

Beccie, thanks for the Information, I'll have a look at AQA and see what happens....

I'm already on really low repayments with all my Debtors and the Interest is Frozen on everything except my Capital One Card. So I don't see how CCCS could help I'm afraid as I'm sure they couldn't get it below what I'm paying now....I just have to remember that paying my Debts is ESSENTIAL, not Optional!!

I sat down last night and worked out a proper decent REALISTIC Budget and I'm excited about it....It means that I might have a little extra each Week if I work how I'm supposed to!!

I got my Test Results...not much to Report. I don't have an Auto-Immune Disease so that rules out things like Lupus, which is good news. The Doctor says that the Marker for Coeliac Disease is up but that could mean I either have it or don't so they need to do extra Tests for that....My Inflammatory Markers are waaaaaaaaaay up!! Which means I have a MAJOR infection...but we've known that for months and there is nothing they can do about it until they find out what's wrong....

So not much news there really....I now have to wait until I've seen the Gasterenterologist at the Hospital which is in Mid-November....and he'll probably refer me for a Colonoscopy which I'm hoping will be in December, I just want to know what's wrong at this point.

But it does mean that December could be a rather nasty month because I already have two lots of Sedation planned for Dental Work and then I might be having a Colonoscopy so that's more Sedation....But hey, once it's over and done with then it will be done...

I spoke to a Friend last night that I haven't spoken to in Weeks and Weeks...and we're meeting for Breakfast next Wednesday so I'm really really looking forward to that...

I'm just waiting for my Tesco Delivery to arrive (which could be any minute now) and then I'm going to have some Lunch and then get on with some Work...I'm going to really go for it tonight!! I'm DETERMINED to hit my Target...I'm gonna do it!! :T

So things are finally looking up...So I'm really pleased with that....

Chat to you all later...Love and Hugs, Helen xxx

DreamerHelen

So today I'm struggling a little....I've had to borrow some money from a Friend...and why? Because I haven't worked the way I should have....

I feel so ashamed of myself....Why can't I just get it together the way I need to!!!! :mad:

All I can do is start AFRESH....and really really go for it for the rest of this Year....I can do it, I know I can...

So I have a decent REALISTIC Budget at last...and I just need to stick to it...and NOT be lazy...and just do the Work that I know I need to do!!

Anyway...that's where I'm at today...but at least things are a little easier with my New Budget....and I've sorted out my Debts so I know they won't be chasing me....

I'll get there...And I'll be my own Hero eventually...Just have to keep working at it!!

Love and Hugs, Helen xxx

robsmum_2

Hi Helen,
Am pleased that you are beginning to get results from your doctor and although not finding out what's wrong with you, at least they are ruling out some of the real nasties.
Am also really pleased that you have sorted out a REALISTIC budget and sorted out your debts.
It is so hard to do this, but with a heafty dose of realisim and determination it can be done.
Keep up the good wqork,

DreamerHelen

Thanks Robsmum....It's always lovely to have encouragement...

I'm doing okay....

It's "That Exhibtion" in two Weeks at Olympia and I can't wait!! Okay, so I'm not going to be able to take a huge amount of money but I'll be able to take enough to buy one or two really nice things...and that's going to have to be enough for this Year.

Next Year I plan on saving £25 per week to be able to take plenty with me to next Year's exhibition....

Still no further news from the Doctor, but I've got an Appointment on Tuesday so hopefully I can be told what the next Step is and hopefully they can do something for me....

Abcess has finally gone....thank goodness!! I think people underestimate how painful they really are....And I don't bother telling many people when I've got one these days as there isn't anything that people can do....

So tonight I'm Working of course...and I have to make £75....that's not too bad...and is realistic for a Night's Work....so I'm feeling positive.

I have a Weekend on the Course this Weekend....It's always good but always exhausting!! But should be great and always a learning experience...

Catch you all later...Love and Hugs, Helen xxx

robsmum_2

Hi Helen,
Hope your weekend on the course was really good but not to tiring,
Sorry to hear you have had an abcess, my son suffers very badly from them. He's been suffering with them for about 6 years now and constantly on antibiotics:eek:They are a dreadful complaint and very debilitating.
Catch up soon

DreamerHelen

Well, things are very very difficult here right now...

Robsmum....I used to suffer with them an awful lot but not so much anymore....And they used to be so severe that I would have to go into Hospital every Weekend to have an Operation to remove at least one or more....So I really feel for your Son...they really are horrible!!

I'm so depressed right now....I really am. I have so many horrible symptoms and they don't know what's wrong with me, they can discount lots of things but they don't know what is actually wrong with me. The two worst things are the exhaustion and the nausea...In fact it's gotten so bad that as I wait for a Train to arrive when I go out, I wonder if it wouldn't just be easier to throw myself under it

Please don't worry, I would NEVER NEVER NEVER do it....but I have those feelings....and I Hate them....because it just makes me feel horrible and useless and helpless and pathetic....

The Doctor has put me back on Antibiotics because what we DO know is that I have a Chronic Infection...and the Antibiotics seem to make me feel a little better.....so I AM starting to feel a little better today....

In other news...this time good....I went to see John Barrowman in Concert on Monday night which was WONDERFUL!!!! He is just sooooooo amazing and he inspires me.....I look at what he's done with his Life...and I don't have any desires to be famous but I DO have desires to be successful and to live out my Dreams....whatever they may be.

I only have one more Tuesday on the Course until I've officially finished for the Year....so that's good news....Especially with all my health problems....I've still made it through the First Year of my Course...so I'm really really proud of myself for that.

Finances are still very very difficult but I'm getting there...and I WILL get there....Just have to be disciplined....just that I'm not very good at that...but I am getting there...and maybe that's all I can ask for right now...

Anyway....sorry about the depressing Post....but I just have to be honest about where I'm at right now...It will get better....It simply HAS to...

Take Care Everyone and I'll take care of me....

Love and Hugs, Helen xxx

DreamerHelen

So, rough Weekend again....but I am doing better today....

Today I feel like I've finally got my head on straight...and tomorrow is the last day of the Course for this Year so I'm looking forward to being able to say "Goodbye" for a couple of months, should take the pressure off a bit...although I still have a couple of Essays to write :eek:

I also did a MAJOR thing today....I cut up my Capital One Credit Card.... :T :T :T

It didn't have any Credit left on it anyway....and whenever it DOES have any Credit all I do is take it right to it's spending limit again...it's silly.

So my Aim is to get that paid off ASAP...It's got about £250 on it, so shouldn't take too long to get paid off...

But I feel really really proud of myself that I cut it up...that way I can't rely on it when I have paid it off...

For me it's about learning to be okay by myself....rely on ME for MY money...and NOT NOT NOT borrow any Money from anyone else!!

So today I have a Timetable for my timings for Work. This is what I'm doing today:

3pm - 7pm - Work
7pm - 9pm - Relax, Eat, Make some Calls
9pm - 1am - Work
1am - 2am - Grab a bite to eat
2am - 8am - Work some more and ACHIEVE TARGET!!
8am Onwards - SLEEP!! LoL

Might sound like hard Work but I got a really good Night's sleep last night so I feel like I can make it through the Night without too many problems...

I'll let you know how it all goes!!

I've also got "That Exhibition" at Olympia this Weekend and I'm Soooooooooooooooo excited!!!!!!! :j :j :j :j :j :j

Even though I don't have much money to take with me...that doesn't matter...the fact is that I'm going...and I'm going with a GREAT Friend who I love spending time with...so it should be a right giggle...

Anyway....It's nearly 3pm so I'd better log on to the Phones and start earning some money!!

Love and Hugs, Helen xxx