DreamerHelen's New Diary - "Ad Astra per Aspera"

DreamerHelen

Hey Guys

I'm back...but things haven't been going very well....Things have been difficult with Work not being great and also with my Health.

Everything is pretty much back to zero with regards to my Saving Goals....and I'm ashamed of that...but all I can do is start again....

So here I am....starting again....

Love and Hugs, Helen xxx

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The Stuff of Dreams

Pot Challenge (To Open Saturday 19th November 2011)
I'm going to an Exhibition at Olympia (not sure if I'm allowed to post the name of it since it's a bit, ummm, risque LoL). Start Saving with extra's from Wages (I can do as much Overtime as I like).

Currently £0/£700

£144 in 144 Days Pt 1
This is all going to be from earning an extra pound every day from Overtime at Work, starting Wednesday 9th August. This first part is going to be for a set of the Beauty and the Beast DVD's (remember the old Series with Linda Hamilton and Ron Perlman?) and also a new MP3 Player.

Currently £0/£144 (I'll Get There!! :j)

£144 in 144 Days Pt 2
This second part will be for what I call my "Soho Fund"....And that's for some fun things from Soho (I think I might leave that one for all your imaginations!! LoL :rotfl:)

Currently £0/£144 (Roll On Christmas To Spend It!! :j)

£144 in 144 Days Pt 3
This third part will be for a Table for Two (haven't decided who with yet!!) and a Meal and the Show for the Wam Bam Burlesque Club in London for February of next Year. It looks amazing there but the Tickets for a Meal combined with the Show is £70 each..so that should work out nicely then!! :T

Currently £0/£144 (Gonna Try And Go In February 2012!! :j)

Writing A Book Challenge
So, I've been meaning to write a Book for ABSOLUTELY AGES!!! But never actually gotten around to it. So now I'm going to write one...Even if it never gets Published, so what, I'll still have written a Book. First step is to find out about practical stuff - ie: How many chapters should there be, how many words per chapter, etc. Then a Synopsis of the Book. Then start writing it....Oooooooh scary!!! - Nothing done so far, MUST get started!!

Losing The Weight For ME!!
So, I'm currently MASSIVELY overweight..by about 10 stones (and no, I'm NOT exaggerating). So I'm going to try and do this by myself. Going to start on 1st October and get weighed that day and then weigh-in every month - I find weighing every Week is too much pressure. If I'm ever going to climb to Everest Base Camp...No hold on, WHEN I climb to Everest Base Camp I'm going to need to be slim and fit. So, will post my Start Weight on 1st October.

Start Weight: To Be Confirmed on Monday
Weight Lost: 0 pounds so far

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The_Dragon

Huggles, hun I hope you feel better soon, and this is NOT a disaster, this is a temporary set back

Hovel_lady

Sorry I've been away.
Please don't feel ashamed - no-one is here to judge you. We just want to help and support you if we can.

Big ((hugs)) and thinking of you xx

DreamerHelen

Hey Guys....Long time no write!!

I know it's not a disaster but things have been going from bad to worse!! I've not saved ANYTHING for any of my Challenges and I've not lost any Weight or anything...

My health is deteriorating....I'm currently being tested for Lupus or Coeliac Disease...either of which I could have.....but haven't gotten the Results back for those yet....But I feel tired and nauseous for most of the time...if not ALL of the time!!

Work has been going crappy...but thats my own fault...Not being disciplined...I've been earning like £70 per week which is simply NOT enough!!

I'm about 3 Weeks behind on paying for Rent....about the same for paying for my Therapy which I have to be on for the Course that I'm doing....

It just feels like everything is getting on top of me....I feel depressed quite a lot of the time...

I went for an Interview for a Placement for my Course yesterday and I don't think I did very well...in fact I'm fairly certain they aren't going to give it to me...So that makes me feel crappy as well.

It feels like I hardly ever get out of my Flat...and when I do it just feels really really hard!!

So that's me....just struggling at the moment...but all I can do is simply carry on....

Love and Hugs, Helen xxx

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The Stuff of Dreams

Pot Challenge (To Open Saturday 19th November 2011)
I'm going to an Exhibition at Olympia (not sure if I'm allowed to post the name of it since it's a bit, ummm, risque LoL). Start Saving with extra's from Wages (I can do as much Overtime as I like).

Currently £0/£750

£144 in 144 Days
I haven't been able to save for this so now there will be only one of these and it will be for the below:

This will be for a Table for Two (haven't decided who with yet!!) and a Meal and the Show for the Wam Bam Burlesque Club in London for February of next Year. It looks amazing there but the Tickets for a Meal combined with the Show is £70 each..so that should work out nicely then!! :T

Currently £0/£144 (Gonna Try And Go In February 2012!! :j)

Writing A Book Challenge
So, I've been meaning to write a Book for ABSOLUTELY AGES!!! But never actually gotten around to it. So now I'm going to write one...Even if it never gets Published, so what, I'll still have written a Book. First step is to find out about practical stuff - ie: How many chapters should there be, how many words per chapter, etc. Then a Synopsis of the Book. Then start writing it....Oooooooh scary!!! - Nothing done so far, MUST get started!!

Losing The Weight For ME!!
So I'm not doing well with this. Right now I have lost ALL motivation to lose any weight. Part of me is saying "shouldn't I be happy with my weight and who I am" and the other part of me is saying "but I'm not happy and I want to lose weight"....so it's difficult.

This is going to be on hold so that I can sort a few things out in my head and my Life...

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The_Dragon

Hold off on saving for the moment (well other than the November day out!), get your rent sorted out, apply for housing benefit, jobseekers whatever! to get you over this situation. Then concentrate on getting well!

DreamerHelen

The_Dragon wrote: »

Hold off on saving for the moment (well other than the November day out!), get your rent sorted out, apply for housing benefit, jobseekers whatever! to get you over this situation. Then concentrate on getting well!

Thank you hun....But other than Working Tax Credits I'm not entitled to anything else. I just have to get my head screwed on properly....Sometimes everything just feels entirely too hard

Hovel_lady

Big ((hugs)) for you xx

We're here for you - still believing in you.
Have a :kisses3:

DreamerHelen

Hovel_lady wrote: »

Big ((hugs)) for you xx

We're here for you - still believing in you.
Have a :kisses3:

Awwww thank you hun....I've missed being on here....missed all of you....

I'll get there...Just feels like a long hard slog right now....

Hovel_lady

We missed you too xx

Never forget you're being your own hero

Have a dodgy hug as well :grouphug:

doingitanyway

Delurking to wish you courage. When I feel like you do (and I do) I think 'this too will pass' and it will. HOLD ONTO THE DREAM x