DreamerHelen's New Diary - "Ad Astra per Aspera"

DreamerHelen

Morning Everyone...

I had to re-jig, again....last night was just sooooo dead it was unbelievable!! But I made what I absolutely HAD to make in order to survive next Week...so I'm pleased with that...

Thank you Hovel Lady....and The Dragon....I certainly do NOT feel like I'm worthy...I feel like I keep on messing up over and over again....But maybe that's just Life....people mess up...and if it were anyone else I would simply tell them to start again and that they can do it...So why am I so hard on myself?

I'm desperately trying to be my own Hero....My Therapist said that my Journey is a "Hero's Journey"...And I think that's true for what is going on in my Life...

I had THE most wonderful Dream last night which felt almost prophetic....like a little snapshot of the future I could have if I actually Work hard and achieve everything that I want to achieve and that I KNOW I can achieve...So I woke up feeling really really peaceful and relaxed and happy....

Went to see my Mum and Grandparents this Morning alongside doing some Shopping...So I'm now all set for Food for pretty much the rest of the Week....Also treated myself to some Ice Cream and Chocolate Sauce (you know that stuff that goes hard )...Yum Yum!!

This Afternoon is a MAJOR Cleaning Afternoon....I have realised that although this Flat isn't actually mine (in the sense that it's rented) it IS where I live and where I hope to live until I've Graduated from my Course in 3 and a half years time...So I need to treat it with respect and therefore treat myself with respect....I need to make this place feel safe for me....Especially since I spend the majority of my time in here...

Sooooo....Here's my List for today:

1) Washing Up
2) Sorting out big Shelves including Dusting/Polishing
3) Hoovering
4) Clean Bathroom
5) Put labels on my mini and large sets of shelves
6) Sort out my mini and large sets of shelves
7) Sort out my "Working Space"
8) Polish whole Flat
9) Begin Essay (due in fairly soon :eek:)
10) Change Bed

So that's a pretty big list but I have just under 12 hours before I have to start Work again so I'm optimistic!! :T :j :T

I've also managed to put a little bit of extra money in my Budweiser Bottle....Up to a VERY nice amount now...

I've also started to think that maybe when I've Finished my Course I'd love to Travel for 6-9 months around the World....And I've tried to put together a List of places that I'd love to go to, but I think I'll just add them to here everytime I think of a Place. Here's what I have so far:

1) The Northern Lights (Iceland I think???)
2) Niagara Falls
3) Macchu Piccu (Peru, but I want to WALK up :eek:)
4) Mt Everest (Would love to get to Base Camp)
5) Auschwitz (been but want to go back), Dachau (again, been but want to go back) and belsen belsen
6) The Yangtze River (if we're still allowed to go on it since there is talk about them closing it)
7) Patrick Swayze's Final Resting Place (he was one of my hero's and I'd love to pay my respects)
8) Russia
9) Trans-Siberian Railway
10) Tibet

Soooo there's lots of places already but whether I can see all of that (and more) in 6-9 months, who knows??? But I'd sure as hell love to try....I plan to start to save every Week from January next Year as it is going to take several thousand to be able to afford it....(Not very MSE I guess, but maybe if I SAVE for it then it can be considered MSE )

So that's where I'm at right now....Feeling positive...This coming Week I WILL hit my Target!!!

Love and Hugs, Helen xxx

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The Stuff of Dreams

Save £4100 Before the End of 2011 Challenge
I'm currently Studying. My College Fees are already taken care of for the rest of 2011 but next Year I have to pay £4100 - I'll be paying it from Ebay Sales and extra Wages.

Currently £0/£4100 (Slow Start But I'll Get There, Aiming For at least £250 Per Week From Next Week!!)

Terramundi Pot Challenge (To Open Saturday 19th November 2011)
I'm going to an Exhibition at Olympia (not sure if I'm allowed to post the name of it since it's a bit, ummm, risque LoL). I'm going to buy a Terramundi soon...and then start Saving with extra's from Wages (I can do as much Overtime as I like).

Currently £65/£565 (I've Finally Got My Terramundi, Have Started With The Saving Already!! :j)

Budweiser Bottle Challenge (To Open 31st December 2011)
I have a great big massive Plastic Budweiser Bottle (appropriate since I used to work for the people that own Budweiser!!) and I'm going to fill that up with the odd pennies and coppers and 5p's and spare change.

This is for my Flight/Hotel/Food/Spends/Excursions on my Trip to Morocco in January/February 2012!! - A Big Ask But I'd Love To Get There!!

Currently £65.32 (I'm Gonna Do It!! :cool: :cool:)

£144 in 144 Days Pt 1
This is all going to be from earning an extra pound every day from Overtime at Work, starting Wednesday 9th August. This first part is going to be for a set of the Beauty and the Beast DVD's (remember the old Series with Linda Hamilton and Ron Perlman?) and also a new MP3 Player.

Currently £20/£144 (Finally Made A Start!! :j)

£144 in 144 Days Pt 2
This second part will be for what I call my "Soho Fund"....And that's for some fun things from Soho (I think I might leave that one for all your imaginations!! LoL :rotfl:)

Currently £20/£144 (Roll On Christmas To Spend It!! :j)

£144 in 144 Days Pt 3
This third part will be for a Table for Two (haven't decided who with yet!!) and a Meal and the Show for the Wam Bam Burlesque Club in London for February of next Year. It looks amazing there but the Tickets for a Meal combined with the Show is £70 each..so that should work out nicely then!! :T

Currently £20/£144 (Gonna Try And Go In February 2012!! :j)

Writing A Book Challenge
So, I've been meaning to write a Book for ABSOLUTELY AGES!!! But never actually gotten around to it. So now I'm going to write one...Even if it never gets Published, so what, I'll still have written a Book. First step is to find out about practical stuff - ie: How many chapters should there be, how many words per chapter, etc. Then a Synopsis of the Book. Then start writing it....Oooooooh scary!!! - Nothing done so far, MUST get started!!

Losing The Weight For ME!!
So, I'm currently MASSIVELY overweight..by about 10 stones (and no, I'm NOT exaggerating). I'm currently Ummmm'ing and Aaaaaaah'ing over Joining Slimming World and I'm not sure right now. So at least for this Week my Plans for Weight-Loss are on Hold until I decide what to do.

Start Weight: To Be Confirmed
Weight Lost: 0 pounds so far

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The_Dragon

Those sound like some good plans, both the here and now ones AND the long term ones!

After November (and maybe Yule!) why not put your Terramundi money into a savings account? something like a 90 day so you can't touch it (like a Terramundi!) and that way you start saving for 4 years time.

DreamerHelen

The_Dragon wrote: »

Those sound like some good plans, both the here and now ones AND the long term ones!

After November (and maybe Yule!) why not put your Terramundi money into a savings account? something like a 90 day so you can't touch it (like a Terramundi!) and that way you start saving for 4 years time.

Well I could do that but I'll be spending my Terramundi Money in November so I don't plan on having much of it left...

But I will be doing some more Challenges next Year so I have to have a think about that....But thank you for the advice hun....Once I've saved up a major amount for "The Trip" then I'll be putting it somewhere that I can't touch it...

Started feeling ill so I'm taking it easy for an hour to see if my Stomach will settle....Hopefully it will and then I can start Cleaning...

The_Dragon

Sorry DreamerHelen, I meant that at the moment a certain amount of your money is being kept safe, and that is being used for a very good thing mid November! Once that weekend is done and dusted (and hopefully enjoyed) keep putting aside the money but instead of getting another Terramundi set up a savings account and stash a certain amount away, same with your Budweiser bottle, once the holiday is done if you are not missing that money then save it for the future holiday plans!

DreamerHelen

Hey Everyone...

So this morning I was really not very well at all....I stupidly ate Macaroni Cheese followed by Chicken Kiev....It was stupid cause I know that greasy food has a really bad effect on me...So I should never have eaten either of those things!!

Consequently I was really really sick...

And spent the afternoon in bed....when I really wanted to Work!!

Still, on the Plus Side I managed to do the GREAT BIG LOAD of Washing Up and I sorted out what I call my Mini Trofast (cause that's what Ikea called it!!)...it's a little set of Shelves and I sorted that out, which feels really great....so at least I've made a start on the cleaning...

I got up this Morning and managed to Work...So I'm ahead of myself...

Have logged into the Phones already and have a Target tonight of £105 hopefully to be made by morning...

Still really really encouraged by going on "The Trip 2015"....That's what I'm calling it

The Dragon hun....I may well do that....thank you for the suggestion...It sounds like a good one

The_Dragon

Sorry to hear you were not well again but well done on being positive now!

DreamerHelen

Hey Everyone...

Well it's now just after 3am and I've had some sleep....So I'm up to Work (again)...sometimes I just feel like it's all Work, Work, Work...but I need to remember that I DO have some really good things to look forward to...

This Saturday I'm off to see Les Miserables at the Theatre....I saw it earlier this Year but re-booked to see it months ago after I saw that both Matt Lucas (of Little Britain Fame) and Alfie Boe (gorgeous gorgeous gorgeous Opera/Theatre Performer) are going to be in it....So I'm soooo looking forward to that...I'll make sure I take the Tissues!! LoL

I'm making sure that I have Sundays off at the moment...I decided that if I have to Work ridiculous hours during the Week then I deserve to have at least one full day off and I am really loving that one day where I can do what I want.

Thank you The Dragon for the sympathy....But I didn't really deserve it....I ate the wrong things and paid the price...so that's fair enough!! But now I know better and I hope I can learn from it!!

So, I only have a small Target left to earn which is £20...So that shouldn't be too dififcult!! I'm hoping that I can stay awake and do some cleaning in the morning....But we'll see....I'm not going to hold myself to that one.

Had to take a little bit of money out of my Budweiser Bottle so that I can survive this Week....But am still left with £50 so that's not too bad and I still feel good that I got to £50 of just extra money that was in my Purse.

So that's my Update...Just about to have a Bowl of Cereal and then I'll start Work...again....LoL

Love and Hugs, Helen xxx

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The Stuff of Dreams

Save £4100 Before the End of 2011 Challenge
I'm currently Studying. My College Fees are already taken care of for the rest of 2011 but next Year I have to pay £4100 - I'll be paying it from Ebay Sales and extra Wages.

Currently £0/£4100 (Slow Start But I'll Get There, Aiming For at least £250 Per Week From Next Week!!)

Terramundi Pot Challenge (To Open Saturday 19th November 2011)
I'm going to an Exhibition at Olympia (not sure if I'm allowed to post the name of it since it's a bit, ummm, risque LoL). I'm going to buy a Terramundi soon...and then start Saving with extra's from Wages (I can do as much Overtime as I like).

Currently £65/£750 (I've Finally Got My Terramundi, Have Started With The Saving Already!! :j)

Budweiser Bottle Challenge (To Open 31st December 2011)
I have a great big massive Plastic Budweiser Bottle (appropriate since I used to work for the people that own Budweiser!!) and I'm going to fill that up with the odd pennies and coppers and 5p's and spare change.

This is for my Flight/Hotel/Food/Spends/Excursions on my Trip to Morocco in January/February 2012!! - A Big Ask But I'd Love To Get There!!

Currently £50 (I'm Gonna Do It!! :cool: :cool:)

£144 in 144 Days Pt 1
This is all going to be from earning an extra pound every day from Overtime at Work, starting Wednesday 9th August. This first part is going to be for a set of the Beauty and the Beast DVD's (remember the old Series with Linda Hamilton and Ron Perlman?) and also a new MP3 Player.

Currently £20/£144 (Finally Made A Start!! :j)

£144 in 144 Days Pt 2
This second part will be for what I call my "Soho Fund"....And that's for some fun things from Soho (I think I might leave that one for all your imaginations!! LoL :rotfl:)

Currently £20/£144 (Roll On Christmas To Spend It!! :j)

£144 in 144 Days Pt 3
This third part will be for a Table for Two (haven't decided who with yet!!) and a Meal and the Show for the Wam Bam Burlesque Club in London for February of next Year. It looks amazing there but the Tickets for a Meal combined with the Show is £70 each..so that should work out nicely then!! :T

Currently £20/£144 (Gonna Try And Go In February 2012!! :j)

Writing A Book Challenge
So, I've been meaning to write a Book for ABSOLUTELY AGES!!! But never actually gotten around to it. So now I'm going to write one...Even if it never gets Published, so what, I'll still have written a Book. First step is to find out about practical stuff - ie: How many chapters should there be, how many words per chapter, etc. Then a Synopsis of the Book. Then start writing it....Oooooooh scary!!! - Nothing done so far, MUST get started!!

Losing The Weight For ME!!
So, I'm currently MASSIVELY overweight..by about 10 stones (and no, I'm NOT exaggerating). I'm currently Ummmm'ing and Aaaaaaah'ing over Joining Slimming World and I'm not sure right now. So at least for this Week my Plans for Weight-Loss are on Hold until I decide what to do.

Start Weight: To Be Confirmed
Weight Lost: 0 pounds so far

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Hovel_lady

Good morning

Do hope you made your target.
I was thinking - maybe I need to go to that exhibition that you're going to

Having at least day off is a very good idea. No-one can work all the time. You need some fun as well.

Catch up with you later xx

DreamerHelen

Hey Everyone

Well it's 6.30am and I'm up to Work....going to Work only until 9am and then I have to Call Mum cause my Sink in my Bathroom is blocked and she has one of those sink-unblocky-plug thingys...LoL...So only a couple of hours Work...but then I'll be logging back on for the rest of the day as well...

Have been feeling awfully sick over the past few days...Everytime I do something that isn't my "normal behavour" I end up feeling sick....So when I did some cleaning yesterday I ended up lying in bed feeling horribly sick...Not sure what's going on there but it's annoying me!! :mad:

Other than that I'm not sure what to report.

Hovel Lady...You're welcome to come along to the Exhibition in November if you like It's going to be a whole heap of fun!!

Right...going to have a quick bite to eat and then I'm starting Work...

Love and Hugs, Helen xxx

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The Stuff of Dreams

Save £4100 Before the End of 2011 Challenge
I'm currently Studying. My College Fees are already taken care of for the rest of 2011 but next Year I have to pay £4100 - I'll be paying it from Ebay Sales and extra Wages.

Currently £0/£4100 (Slow Start But I'll Get There, Aiming For at least £250 Per Week From Next Week!!)

Terramundi Pot Challenge (To Open Saturday 19th November 2011)
I'm going to an Exhibition at Olympia (not sure if I'm allowed to post the name of it since it's a bit, ummm, risque LoL). I'm going to buy a Terramundi soon...and then start Saving with extra's from Wages (I can do as much Overtime as I like).

Currently £65/£680 (I've Finally Got My Terramundi, Have Started With The Saving Already!! :j)

Budweiser Bottle Challenge (To Open 31st December 2011)
I have a great big massive Plastic Budweiser Bottle (appropriate since I used to work for the people that own Budweiser!!) and I'm going to fill that up with the odd pennies and coppers and 5p's and spare change.

This is for my Flight/Hotel/Food/Spends/Excursions on my Trip to Morocco in January/February 2012!! - A Big Ask But I'd Love To Get There!!

Currently £50 (Getting There!! :cool: :cool:)

£144 in 144 Days Pt 1
This is all going to be from earning an extra pound every day from Overtime at Work, starting Wednesday 9th August. This first part is going to be for a set of the Beauty and the Beast DVD's (remember the old Series with Linda Hamilton and Ron Perlman?) and also a new MP3 Player.

Currently £20/£144 (Finally Made A Start!! :j)

£144 in 144 Days Pt 2
This second part will be for what I call my "Soho Fund"....And that's for some fun things from Soho (I think I might leave that one for all your imaginations!! LoL :rotfl:)

Currently £20/£144 (Roll On Christmas To Spend It!! :j)

£144 in 144 Days Pt 3
This third part will be for a Table for Two (haven't decided who with yet!!) and a Meal and the Show for the Wam Bam Burlesque Club in London for February of next Year. It looks amazing there but the Tickets for a Meal combined with the Show is £70 each..so that should work out nicely then!! :T

Currently £20/£144 (Gonna Try And Go In February 2012!! :j)

Writing A Book Challenge
So, I've been meaning to write a Book for ABSOLUTELY AGES!!! But never actually gotten around to it. So now I'm going to write one...Even if it never gets Published, so what, I'll still have written a Book. First step is to find out about practical stuff - ie: How many chapters should there be, how many words per chapter, etc. Then a Synopsis of the Book. Then start writing it....Oooooooh scary!!! - Nothing done so far, MUST get started!!

Losing The Weight For ME!!
So, I'm currently MASSIVELY overweight..by about 10 stones (and no, I'm NOT exaggerating). I'm currently Ummmm'ing and Aaaaaaah'ing over Joining Slimming World and I'm not sure right now. So at least for this Month my Plans for Weight-Loss are on Hold until I decide what to do.

Start Weight: To Be Confirmed
Weight Lost: 0 pounds so far

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Hovel_lady

Good morning

Hope you get your sink sorted out. Do you have a target for today?

Doing something that isn't "normal" behaviour can have strange effects on you so I wouldn't worry too much. Is your sub-consious trying to tell you something?
xx