MSE Pregnancy Club 22

jcr16

Well i'm an emotional wreck today. i'm holding back the tears yet i know if i start i won't stop. no idea why it is so unlike me. i've not even done any cleaning. i've just been sat on sofa with my little boy folding ribbon and sorting out my sewing box. Well i think i do know the reason but i can't say. For me who looks forward to the weekend and time undevided time with hubby and children i can quite honestly say i can't wait for weekend to be over ( family issues ) all i want this weekend is to shut our front door and be undistured and just be with hubby and kids but that not gonna happen. i've got chance to chnage my phone number tomoz when my upgrade comes and i'm so tempted to change it and not tell anyone.

i wish i could explain the situation , but i can't .

on plus side hubby finishes early on a friday and kids home soon. and i'm gonna enjoy this evenign to the full with them.

getting lots of braxton hicks today and they have changed the pain is very sharpe down below with them and making it very painful to walk. so i'm hopeing they ease soon as got to do school run and at the mo i can't walk very well.

Breast_Cancer_Survivor

jcr16 wrote: »

Well i'm an emotional wreck today. i'm holding back the tears yet i know if i start i won't stop. no idea why it is so unlike me. i've not even done any cleaning. i've just been sat on sofa with my little boy folding ribbon and sorting out my sewing box. Well i think i do know the reason but i can't say. For me who looks forward to the weekend and time undevided time with hubby and children i can quite honestly say i can't wait for weekend to be over ( family issues ) all i want this weekend is to shut our front door and be undistured and just be with hubby and kids but that not gonna happen. i've got chance to chnage my phone number tomoz when my upgrade comes and i'm so tempted to change it and not tell anyone.

i wish i could explain the situation , but i can't .

on plus side hubby finishes early on a friday and kids home soon. and i'm gonna enjoy this evenign to the full with them.

getting lots of braxton hicks today and they have changed the pain is very sharpe down below with them and making it very painful to walk. so i'm hopeing they ease soon as got to do school run and at the mo i can't walk very well.

(Hugs) hun, don't hold it in just have a good cry, sometimes it makes me feel better to get it all out.

mrsspendalot

Breast_Cancer_Survivor wrote: »

OMG, I had the best nights sleep i've had since becoming pregnant & absoloutely no heartburn. :j

Thanks so much Mrs S for recomemding the Ranitidine :A they are amazing & fingers crossed you get to meet bubs really soon.

Labour vibes to everyone who needs them.

Excellent news!!!! So glad they're working already for you :j

Breast_Cancer_Survivor

pigpen wrote: »

I was wrong the baby's top 2 teeth are through.. 4 down.. 16 to go.. The chest problems will clear up like magic now you watch!

I am in a right state today... lack of sleep, pain, plasterer, OH, MIL threatening to visit next week, DD1 issues, DS2 issues and DD3 issues.... the pressure is mounting to have a full scale meltdown... and it won't be pretty.

BCS .. great news you had a better night.. bet you feel SOOOO much better for it too

I really do, I think lack of sleep has alot to answer for.

Sorry to hear you are having such a stressfull time (hugs).

jcr16

Breast_Cancer_Survivor wrote: »

(Hugs) hun, don't hold it in just have a good cry, sometimes it makes me feel better to get it all out.

thankyou hun, i would if my little boy was asleep , but it really upset him seeing me cry. although the way i'm feeling i won't be able to stop it in a bit. i'm trying to just laugh instead.

pigpen

jcr16 wrote: »

thankyou hun, i would if my little boy was asleep , but it really upset him seeing me cry. although the way i'm feeling i won't be able to stop it in a bit. i'm trying to just laugh instead.

I am very much the same today.. must be something in the water!

I just want it to be tomorrow so today is over.. I might feel better tomorrow.

I'm trying to keep myself busy to stop myself from even thinking but it is very difficult when OH is sitting there texting repeatedly so I am playing in the kitchen.

I am away to do some flinging in DD1's room now so in about 15 seconds I will be blubbing like a moron.. with no control whatsoever...

I am trying to force it to anger.. even if it does lead to the dark side...

the weekend will be over before you know it.. ((hugs))

sparkle76

Hi everyone,

BCS glad you got some sleep, bet you feel like a new person!

jcr [hugs] hun, try to not think abou tit too much, weekend will go better than you think I am sure and hopefully you will feel better.

Apricot hope today goes quick for you! Loving the baby brain, that was funny... Have a lovely day and celebrate when you finish!

My last day was yest and was treated with cake, flowers and the knowledge of no alarm today. Sadly I have had a lot of freelance work but it will minimise early next week for proper relaxation...

PigPen hopefully it's nothing with OH texting, but as others have said maybe bringing it to the fore could help...? Re: cleaning, I am supposed to be doing more today but won't as intensive morning of work means I am now knackered...

As to feeling guilty re: bubs I can totally relate - lately haven't eaten as well as I would like, and am not taking supplements as they are so pricey. We eat relatively well at dinner and lunches are homemade, it's my sweet tooth I worry about and lack of exercise. However as of next week hoping to be able to swim, and only keep healthy snacks at home... good luck to me!

delain

jcr I am right with you. I will hopefully be getting a contract in the next week or so and will be keeping my PAYG rubbish phpne and not sharing the new number with my mum or nan, so I have something I can turn off when my mum goes off on one, because apprarently OH and I are horribly mistreating the children because we expect them to tidy their rooms and remind them not to shout in people's faces. And my mum will text and tell me how awful I am when she has been drinking, which given some of the things she put me and my brother through as kids is a bit sodding rich (we were almost put in care as kids).

Pigpen I hope the texting etc dies down soon. you could always stop paying his phone bill, or Squeak could 'accidentally' drop the phone in some hot tea

jcr16

sparkle, no trust me it will go worse than expected. everyone has buried there head in the sand just hoping something will work out and left it so late now there is no choice. i'm so bloody annoyed. Social services (not children realted old peopel related ) could of been phoned and then there would be no stress, no worry. i just get annoyed wiht how my family handles things then just assumes i'll step in and even when i'm doing more than i can handle i'm still expected or assumed to do more. It mainly about lack of communcition and assumptions being made. i so wish i could explain but i can't . it is a huge complicated situation and is getting worse and worse and i'm just told you don't understand. it makes me sound uncaring and selfish, but i'm not. i've just had these sorts of prob for my whole life with my family.
i could go on , but i guess you just try your best.

on plus note, my midwife is fab she phoned to ask if i was ok and said she coming to see me. Now i must not cry or breakdown. brave face needed.

pigpen

delain wrote: »

Pigpen I hope the texting etc dies down soon. you could always stop paying his phone bill, or Squeak could 'accidentally' drop the phone in some hot tea

it is an iphone and I don't pay the bill.... so not an option... I'll take so much then go into meltdown..