No buying toiletries in June challenge!

Kaz2904

I have another UU! The kids UU TBS cocoa butter shower gel tonight. The one I had to water down because it was so thick! WIBA?: Not at the moment because I have plenty of shower gels in stock, I find TBS very expensive unless there's a mega glitch like when I got this and even then, may not because DH didn't like it. He told me last night after he'd used it for nearly a month! Despite all of the above, I liked it. It smelled to me like babies and was very moisturising but it was very thick too and the bottle resents you trying to squeeze which can be a struggle to get the product out again. On balance, there are others I would buy first.

Alanis

I'm afraid this post starts sadly, but ends (kind of) happily, so if you're having a good day please skip forward abit...

So I was on my way home on Friday and just as I stepped off the central line and the train rolled away, I head this loud horn so turned around just in time to see a mother and child go under a train.... The mother was just laying there whilst the child was crawling about yelling for his mother, he could have only been about 3/4 ='[ since then I've been waking in the middle of the night with a start and/or screaming. I just cant get the sight out of my head.... Everybody wants me to talk about it with them but I just want to move on and forget, my partner says I will need to talk to police as I saw what happened, but I didnt really, I just saw them there... And I really dont want to be questioned intensely when I dont actually know anything!
I've heard since that apparently the mother survived but it hasnt helped any with my night-time issues
I'm worried that I wont be able to shake this, and if people keep talking to me about it that it's just going to keep reminding me....

Then, to make things all that much better...
I was told today apparently a guy I used to hang out with in senior school died last night from a drug overdose... I use the word hang out in the most liberal form... He was more a friend of a friend...
Although... I just dont care... I know I should, but I dont, my head is screaming "you barely knew him, and it was drugs" (I'm a harsh ***** I know, but I cant seem to find any sympathy for drink/drug ODs)
Is this wrong of me?? Should I care more??

I'm finding this apathy in quite afew areas of my life lately...
I went out with a friend the other night who was apalled at some of the stories I told him about me and my partner. He told me I should stand up for myself, that life is too short to be made to feel the way I do and to move on.

Ever since then, I've been noticing things more and more about my partner... We took out his godson the other day, and he I did practically all the work... It was "Tanya, stop him making a mess of his food" "Tanya, do his shoe laces up" "Tanya, make him eat his food properly" "Tanya, stop him running around"
or... my personal favourite...
"Tanya, go and get him out of the play area, I dont want to be the bad guy that's a mommy's job... Daddy's job is being the fun one..."

And that was just the kid!!

When he talks about the future, he talks about "me" and "I"... "I'm going to own my house"... I used to this of it as "us" and "we"

I cant tell him when I'm tired because of the CFS because he doesnt understand it... To him I'm just "lazy". Among other issues I have/had that he finds some negative personality trait to account for...

Today he spilt his drink and guess who cleared it up? Yours truly
He unmade the bed and guess who got blamed and had to re-make it? Yes, me again (he's a perfectionist with his bed, it has to be made at all times, even in the morning when we are still sleeping in it!! I have been woken up more times than I'd like to recall to be told to make the bed...)

We were messing around with a wet towel, trying to get it in eachothers faces, and he caught my thumb nail between the towel and my eye and I've now got a massive scratch between my nose and my tearduct. I wouldnt mind, but when I told him he'd hurt me he looked at me and said "it's not bleeding, man up"
Besides the fact that it did bleed (even if it was only a little) a sorry might have been nice...? I know it cant be helped if you're playing around, but if I hurt him he goes on, and on, and on, and on..... Despite me apologising 7 billion times!!!

I've reached the point where I just dont care anymore... I want to make it work, obviously, we've been together 3 years. But I'm tired of telling him how I feel and being told to "man up" (its one of his favourite phrases). I cant help but feel my friend is right, I dont have high self-esteem by any stretch of the imagination, but I dont DESERVE this, surely??
I appreciate I probably have a fair few niggles that he "puts up" with, but when he does tell me about them, I do try and change atleast...

I'm sorry for the essay guys, and for the rant, I just really dont know whats going on anymore. Want to sleep and never wake up again at this point....

Anyways... trying to be abit happier....

Happy birthday Sarah!!

sarah*a wrote: »

This months Marie Claire has a Free Inika Mineral Eyeshadow or Eyeliner.

I bought this, imprssed like someone else mentioned about the in-lid pencil sharperner, however not overly impressed with the liner itself =s

paula74 wrote: »

2 ins
biggish tin with four vaseline lip balms in (didnt really need lip balms but love the big tin there in:o

I got this at xmas in Wilko's as I thought it was a HUGE vaseline, I'm easily amused. I was disappointed when I opened it and 4 separate tins in there =[

Dr_Roberto wrote: »

Proud of my self , walked away from the new sleek collection , I DO NOT NEED!! I do want tho :P

New Sleek collection??? Of eyeshadows?? What's it called? And what sort of colours??
I have all of the previous ones =]
My favourite by far is Graphite =p

Slightly happier note there
I'm so sorry again, half tempted to delete the first part of this message, but I'll only rant about it to someone I shouldnt, hope you can understand =[

xxx

Carolyn12

vivh wrote: »

Budge up on the naughty step guys I will be parking my butt there for the forseeable. Have been to the shops today and decided that for the first time ever i would take advantage of the Clinique bonus time. My HG mascara is clinique naturally glossy but I was convinced they had stopped doing it but it was there today so I got one of those and a bottle of take the day off, which I have been wanting to try for a while. The bonus items came in a lovely silver case and consist of:

30 ml moisture surge (love this stuff)
75ml 7 day scrub
30ml deep comfort hand cream
7ml all about eyes rich
50ml take the day off
and mini high impact mascara
total value of the gift is over £60.

Ohh dear.. I really do not need this, but most of the time I CANNOT resist Clinique, I don't know what it is about these lovely bonus time sets.
A quite nice selection, decent size of 7 day scrub!
Now I will ponder if I should make a trip to get this...*Must stop myself*

Kaz2904

Alanis my lovely, you rant away. When you see something truly horrifying like you've seen, your mind will go over and over it trying to make sense of it. When you have to speak to the police, they will probably be able to refer you for some counselling or may even have a counsellor there. There isn't anything any of us can say to be able to take that image away from you but if you do need to vent or rant or just ramble and you don't want to do it on here, feel free to pm me. I can do listening fairly well . I'm a bit like you wrt to drink and drugs, I find it hard to be sympathetic and yet it is still a shock when someone young is no longer around. If you went to school with this person it can rock your world because, let's face it, young people aren't supposed to die are they, it's against what we expect form the world.
If your OH is really making you feel so down about yourself, what are you actually getting positively from your relationship? Surely at this time of your life, when you are about to embark on a new career and later, further study, you should be directing your energies into enjoying your achievements and looking forward to your future not by trying to satisfy someone who sounds like a miserable toad (imho ). Who knows who you might meet in the future anyway? You might meet someone like minded in a similar profession to you and you know you are entering a caring profession. Don't be the one doing all the caring, you'll get burn out.
Have a big squishy hug from me and do try to sleep well tonight. Night hun

mcculloch29

Massive hugs to you, Alanis, and wishing you lots of strength.
I'm glad you didn't delete it, what a privilege that you trust us lot enough to share your burden - and what a burden to share!
Re the lady under the train. You didn't know at the time that she had survived and watching what you believe to be someone's last moments is an horrific experience. I hope you get the counselling you need.
Regarding the reaction to the death from drugs, your system is just protecting you, I reckon. There's only so much horror one can take.
I think 'miserable toad' is quite restrained Kaz... This isn't a nice person we are dealing with here, is it?
You deserve better than this... You will have better.

ma-ri-ella

hey every1 first of all some uu
boots trial mascara- would get again but dont know what it is...prob natural collection?
avon lipstick in pink pop - nice shade but nothing special wnba
bath and bodyworks hand gel in fresh market apple - amazing!!!!

now for ins(all free)
high beam,benetint and posietint- only bought 2 of the 3 and got discount so was 3.60 for the 3 not bad.
2x rimmel nailpolish-shade 500 which is a glittery one and 180 which is purple got free from work as it is a deleted line
too faced shadow insurance . i had emailed the company as the bottom of the tube had unsealed on mine.they very kindly sent me out another



oooooo i want the new sleek palettes too

vivh

Crikey Alanis what a day, hope you are feeling more upbeat today, Kaz and mcculloch, fab advice as usual guys, nothing more to add really, but very glad the lady has survived, hope she is OK, that little one needs his mummy.

Back OT, have a uu to report, SD Swiss apple serum, I have 3 more of these in the stash and after I have used them I may not buy again, not really sure what it did for me but I have replaced it with Sanctuary's therapist secret facial oil, so if I see a change maybe that will tell me what the swiss apple was doing for me.

minerva_windsong

Third OUT for June this morning - my Body Shop DeoDry Dry Effect Deodorant Cool & Zesty Roll On has finally given up the ghost. WNBA as I started using the Mitchum one when I was on holiday and it is so much better - no nasty sweat patches or dubious smells, so that's now my Holy Grail and I'm sticking with it. Thanks to everyone who recommended that one

mrs.butler

Alanis, I am so sorry that you had to witness that, I cant even begin to comprehend how difficult it must be to deal with....

Have two UU's from the weekend:

Benefit Her Glossiness Lipgloss - WIBA? Probably not, it was nice enough but nothing special.

Johnson's Dreamy Skin Body Cream - WIBA? Yes really like it, lovely scent, and is affordable.

Thats all for now, hope evryone is having a lovely day. xxx

flutterbyuk25

(((((alanis)))))) - you should look into counselling for what you saw. And re your OH, he doesn't sound like he deserves you TBH xx

2 UU's today:

- 1 x Montagne Jeunnesse Aromatherapy facemask
- 1 x Spa Secrets Strawberry Oil Hair Mask

WNBA, either of them, were ok but didn't do much but had 2 applications out of each sachet. Down to just 2 hair masks in the stash

Had a bit of a pampering shower today as I have day off - facemask, hairmask, body scrub, foot scrub. May to PYN tonight too.

May have an IN later, need a new concealor so will have a look at what ones are out there when I go to shops later

x