Nearly 30, in debt, lost and nervous! I need to change.

ebayqueen_2

Morning Lost

Any plans for the weekend. How is Avon going for you.

E:)

Lost_and_nervous

£20!!! thats what I've made! It feels so good and its going into a seperate debt pot!!! I am building my confidence to also so i am now talking to people and trying to get myself out there, no leads through it yet but it takes time. the beauty business is a competitive business but I will get there.

I wont tell people about 'the real me' but thats only for on here for my mse friends who dont judge!

I also feel so strange still where the bank account stands, its feels like when I get paid even though I am not going to have loads of money, I am going to be in control of my money. its not going to be taken up from the evil payday loans. I can control what I pay. I can control what to do. It feels good.

Today is a busy day for me, going to a mother and toddler group for a bit so DD gets to interact with other children. So nervous but I need to do it. Then time to get home and crack on. Some more listing, some more clearing, some housework.

I just want to be sorted, I just want to be confident, I just want to be in control. I want to be able to help others.

Thank you all for your continuous support! xxxx

Lost_and_nervous

ebayqueen wrote: »

Morning Lost

Any plans for the weekend. How is Avon going for you.

E:)

Good morning E, Saturday is going to be a whole day of staying in for me and DD, we are going to go through DD's wardrobe and sort through all the clothes shes grown out of and then try and sell them. Also found a bag the other day of old dvds and cds so going to go through that and see if can get any pennies for them.

Well I have got to pick some orders up from work, Ive decided just to stick to people I know, going round the houses - I am not there yet. I will be one day just not yet.

How are you? xxx

ebayqueen_2

You are doing well with Avon. Start small and it will grow and so will your confidence. Great to get a good clearout and hopefully make a few pounds in the process. Even better when you have the little lady to help you. They are so cute.

I have a bit of a tip for you with ebay. Take you pictures in a room with as much light as possible and if possible outside on a good day. Lay a nice crisp white towel or sheet put your item on it and you will have a far better picture. Works for me.

Have a great weekend and keep decluttering. The house will be so easy to keep clean when all the clutter is gone. I find that now.


God bless
E

girlatplay

Hi Lost

Hope you and Little L enjoyed the mother and toddler group. It is good for you to get out and chat with other mothers as well as it is good for little L to interact with other children. It does feel good being in control, doesn't it? You have come so far now and you are sounding like a stronger person each time you post. I'm so glad you are feeling so good now

Gap xxx

Lost_and_nervous

ebayqueen wrote: »

You are doing well with Avon. Start small and it will grow and so will your confidence. Great to get a good clearout and hopefully make a few pounds in the process. Even better when you have the little lady to help you. They are so cute.

I have a bit of a tip for you with ebay. Take you pictures in a room with as much light as possible and if possible outside on a good day. Lay a nice crisp white towel or sheet put your item on it and you will have a far better picture. Works for me.

Have a great weekend and keep decluttering. The house will be so easy to keep clean when all the clutter is gone. I find that now.


God bless
E

I hope so! Shes great I love her so much. Spending time with her makes me so happy!

Thank you so much for the ebay tip, that sounds such a good idea, I will do that today. Your name does say it all!! Ebayqueen!

I hope so, its hard work but I am so determined, I want to be able to fly round the house with no clutter and for it to be easy to clean. Did you have clutter? xxx

Lost_and_nervous

girlatplay wrote: »

Hi Lost

Hope you and Little L enjoyed the mother and toddler group. It is good for you to get out and chat with other mothers as well as it is good for little L to interact with other children. It does feel good being in control, doesn't it? You have come so far now and you are sounding like a stronger person each time you post. I'm so glad you are feeling so good now

Gap xxx

We really did, it was good and little l enjoyed herself.

It really does feel good, its unbelievable how good it does feel. I feel happier and even though I have this bad feeling run through me with certain things I just get on with it as I know Ive got myself in this mess. I never thought I would get to where I am now. xxx

Lost_and_nervous

I am struggling today! I really am struggling! I really need to get motivated but I am just not doing anything. I am just so down, I woke up motivated, spoke to OH on phone and has been taking the mick out of me and its really got me down, I am clearing up his mess hes made, I am looking after DD and theres so much I want to get on with myself. Its just never ending. 3 steps forward and 2 steps back. I had planned to have such a good day today busy and achieve! But its not working out like that. I am so furiated.

But anyway lets try not to let this glum weather and glum relationship bring me down! xx

ebayqueen_2

Hello Lost

Sorry to hear you had a bad start to the day. You say your OH was annoying you. What did he say that annoyed you the most. Why does he do this.

Don't think too much about it, just make a list of what you have to do and get on with it. Slowly but surely. Take a look at your little girl and you will get the motivation. Think of the life you want for her

I feel for you. Remember we are all here for you.

Don't let OH wear you down. You are a stronger person than you give yourself credit for. People who try and knock others down are not happy with themselves.

Let us know how you get on.

God bless
E

butterflylady

Lost & Nervous, I have spent this afternoon reading your diary and have found your writing very inspirational (sp). I wish you were near me in regards to your beauty work, I am the most ungirly girl ever but would like to be more girly, I would love to have someone to advise me and teach me, on things like make up and painting my nails!! God I am so sad!! I think the girly gene completley (sp) missed me and I'm too old now to expirement on my own!!

Any way good luck on the debt busting and keep up the positive thinking!!