lilmissmup - the 2011 saga - staying debt free whilst starting a new life!

lilmissmup

Decided against going into town, instead brought some knickers and bras from La Senza online as that was one of the things I was going into town for, spent £44 but get 14% cashback on TCB.

I need to dig out the sewing kit in a bit and attempt to sew up some trousers I brought that are too long, was going to buy another pair but the MSE'r in me can't justify getting another pair just to delay the sewing....

Not sure why I am stressing about money so much, £200ish pound left to get me through the month and thats plenty really, compared to a lot of people on here most have nowhere near that.

Think being in the house on my own is quite stressful to me for some reason, there isnt even 1 shop in our village so it makes me feel quite trapped although I could have gone out, just seems silly to spend £4 on a train to wander round town, prob find nothing I want and then come home again when the journey back and forth takes 1.5hrs.

Luckily Simon is off for four days again from tomorrow although I am working tomorrow so won't be lonely for too much longer.

Dont like being on my own, get bored, will have to find some games to play.....or do some more housework.....:cool:

lilmissmup

Been meaning to update again for a few days!

Had a nice few days after my couple boring days although I did work 4 hours on Royal Wedding Day but I got Nandos for dinner which cheered me up.

Saturday I saw my nieces again which was nice, scares me how quickly kids grow, one is nearly 5 and the other is now nearly 3, they had a great time playing WWF wrestling with me as the mat!

Yesterday we took the kids to Legoland, I got passes from Clubcard a while back so entry was free, we took a packed lunch so only spent £11 and that included a souvenir photo of me looking terrified on the water ride as it went over the edge, kids look scared, Simon looks like he is enjoying himself!

If we had gone without passes it would have been £146 just for entry :eek::eek::eek:

My driving is playing on my mind again, infact its made me quite depressed as my instructor told me she thinks I should push my test back as I need to get my manovures better esp my reverse round the corner and I need to get more confident on the roads still.

I have only pushed it back by 3 weeks *otherwise I won't be doing it until after holiday although thats still a possibilty* but its not helped my confidence.

I know shes only doing it as there is no point me doing it if I am defo gonna fail but it still makes me feel bad. She seemed pretty frustrated at the end of the lesson, not sure if it was for me or at me! :o:o

I wish I didnt take everything to heart, but it also sucks as now means defo gonna have to spend more of next months wages on lessons.

If it wasn't my fourth test and only my first it would be ok.

One of my friends friends passed on her 10th test but I really don't want it to be like that, trying to think positively as otherwise I will fail but am thinking 6th or 7th test for me and thats gonna be embarrasing....:o

lilmissmup

Just googled most test attempts before a Pass in the UK.....I have 45 more goes before I break the record!!! :rotfl:

http://www.dailyrecord.co.uk/news/weird-news/2011/03/17/britain-s-worst-learner-driver-woman-fails-thoery-test-90-times-86908-22995508/

lilmissmup

Starting to hate this month......am really skint already £80 to last 20 days with two nights out at least and two birthdays to buy for and that needs to get me to work and back using public transport too......

Also things are really !!!!!!^ at home again. Stressed out about work, driving and fallen out with Simon and not really talking to him and kids are here all weekend so I am having to put on a front when all I wanna do is sit on my own.

Am actually glad I am working tomorrow, not sure what to do for the rest of the day afterwards, need an escape plan as not really up for coming home.

jenjade

hey hun i found your thread! I just posted on the old thread go and read it !

Sorry to hear you are not happy at the moment. It sounds like it is mainly the driving that is getting you done. do you have any mates that can let you practice in there car. just to get the manovers sorted.

lilmissmup

I have my own car its just finding time to practice them, but it is a good idea!

jenjade

I have read your thread from the start now and can see that in some ways are situations are very simular when it comes to our blokes.

My bloke has 2 kids that live with him full time and thier mum picks and chooses when she has them at a drop of a hat so it is impossible to arrange anything. I have been with him a year and he can only come over to sleep when the kids are sleeping at thier mums as there is not room for his 2 kids and my daughter in my house or at his. so she controls when we see each other which is a nightmare. i have somehow come to terms with it but it does still get to me sometimes. i think when i realise he loves me and is with me not her things suddenly clicked and i was okay with everything although he likes to keep her happy so she will have the kids.

I would love for him to put his foot done and set some stiff arrangements so that everyone knows where they stand but he wont!

as for Simons ex having a job crisis etc and threatening to give you the kids i would pretend that you are happy with it and she will soon decided that she doesnt want to do that. How old are his kids? she may be able to claim something if she ends up out of a job people dont tend to give there kids away if they lose thier job! I think she is playing games

wendz86

Sorry to hear you are feeling a bit down. Hope you and Simon are talking again and the weekend got a bit better for you.

lilmissmup

We are talking now but I dont have the nerve to tell him how I really feel at the moment, tempted to write him a letter but that feels cowardly.....just worried I will be stuck in a relationship which isnt controlled by us but by him and his ex......just feeling very trapped.

I love him loads but feel like there is no future at the moment for us, his exes dad is really ill and might actually die so we are having to take kids at the drop of a hat and have them Friday night now so not sure when we can have a talk....mind you we had this talk before and not much has changed, I think we want different things or more I want the things he has already done but I am not 100% certain I do want that either.....

On the money front I am skint.

Souk08

Lilmissmup, so sorry to hear this. I hope you can talk to Simon/feel better soon. Im here if you want to talk X