To new beginnings. To the pursuit of...somethingness.

niccatw

I almost cried at the talk Cheri. In a good with though. Your idea in happiness is why I drew myself an actual happy hat the other day! (After looking at The Art of Brilliance website).

And I've decided I need to meet my boss again. But this time to say here's why I'm stressed. The course is a discrete stress I think. But the real stress is the way I'm being managed by my supervisor. It suddenly struck me, why am I the one being referred to occy health? Why am I the one she is thinking about the "capability" policy for. I'm bl00dy good at my job. But I don't get any recognition of competence from my supervisor and I certainly don't feel she respects me as a professional. And there you have it. All the rest won't make a jot of difference. If that situation doesn't change, then I need to change that situation.

I'm not just enough; I am brilliant!

And (one of) my beautiful imperfection(s) is always running late.... I shouldn't be here... :rotfl: Catch you all later.

Butti

The best work course I have ever been on - on stress;

2 causes;

1. Lack of control - your supervisor is trying to micro-control everything even how many files there are in the filing cabinet !!!!!!!

2. Need for approval - your perfectionism.

Your life Nic is like a perfect storm (am halfway through the garage and tackling bedroom today (once I stop eating toas t and surfing the net!)) so will find you 'dealing with difficult people'.

B

MrsMoo2U

Good on you Nic. This week has seen me realising that my moods (down) are all because I feel out of control of situations. I had a bit of revelation on the train coming home last night. I met the most interesting charming man who sat next to me (more about him when I get round to the blog idea I have) he said something which I know is true and often tell other people but him saying it to me was a lightbulb moment. He said that he had been in the foreign service and I asked if he had done that his whole working life. "Oh no dear, I loved my job beyond words when I was in far flung countries - helping people in need whilst travelling and being needed was truly satisfying. Then when they changed my job and I became a pen pusher I thought NO why do something that makes me miserable so I resigned" He went on to say that I had a kind of sadness when telling him about my job but he thought that I had a spark waiting to be lit! What a lovely thing to say.

gilligansyle

That is a lovely thing from a stranger on a train cheri - presume its given you food for thought.

MrsMoo2U

Thank Gill, he certainly has given me food for thought. To be honest the thoughts were there, I guess that I was just open enough to hear it from somebody else. There was another time that I met a stranger on a train. We shared a journey to York, she opened a bottle of wine and we got on like a house on fire. She said a few things that I was just ready to hear at that moment.

I dont believe in Angels in the original sense of the work but I do believe that complete strangers can be "angels" at just the time that you need to have some direction but will only hear it from a stranger they seem to appear.

Sorry I am waffling. Listening to the prom and drinking wine on a Saturday tea time can do that for you.

MatyMoo

cherisong wrote: »

I dont believe in Angels in the original sense of the work but I do believe that complete strangers can be "angels" at just the time that you need to have some direction but will only hear it from a stranger they seem to appear.

Sorry I am waffling. Listening to the prom and drinking wine on a Saturday tea time can do that for you.

Waffle away, I think this is very true

MrsMoo2U

Wet and Windy Wales reporting in here. It is blowing a gale, dark and grey and very very heavy rain. Shame really because as I type my agent is showing somebody the flat. I hope that the poor weather doesnt put them off, it has glorious views but is so much nicer on a hot sunny day. Fingers crossed that they like it.

niccatw

I hope the viewing went well. What are the views from it? Have just been staying down (for me) near Stranraer. We had a couple of hours of sunshine yesterday (handy for the BBQ!) but the rest of the time it has been dark and brooding - but I actually love that about the coast and I'd want to see where-ever I wanted to live when it's dark and broody to know how well I could curl up on the sofa on such a day! So it might not be a bad thing.

The coastal drive down was amazing! The sun was dancing on the waves and the sea was sparkling with mischief. I wished heartily I knew how to capture that vision to hang on my wall!

As for strangers - only they have the absolute objectivity to say what is blindingly obvious to them. Only we have the context to apply that objectivity - and we may hear it many times, but we will only listen when we're ready to hear and understand.

Those chance meetings and connections we make every single day never cease to amaze me. I love how those seemingly random conversations, or sometimes obvservations, sometimes just "fit" perfectly with where we are at that point in time.

MrsMoo2U

Thanks Nic, I havent heard anything so not sure how the viewing went. Still they may be mulling it over. The views are over a hill with a monument on the top. It is very rural with cows and sheep on it which is strange as it is in the middle of the town.

You are so right about hearing things at the right time. That is exactly what I was trying to explain in my rambling post. Today I had another random conversation with another random stranger. It was work related but something that he said was like a slap in the face with a wet fish. All that I can say is that I am being fed more and more pointers that I am on the right path as each day goes by.

The sun was dancing on the waves and the sea was sparkling with mischief. I wished heartily I knew how to capture that vision to hang on my wall!

What a truly beautiful and descriptive sentence. You have captured that vision in words and planted it right into my minds eye. Thanks for that.

Pippilongstocking

I hope you're OK, slowly catching up from the fug of my own crazy life.

I hope the viewing went well pah that you didn't get all your points raised in your review, but your unbudging plan seems a good one, look after yourself xxx

Peedie passes Moo a bonio................