Pippi’s pulling up her stripey-socks for the final sprint towards the Good-Life……………

Karmacat

Me too!

**waves frantically to Greying Pilgrim (feeling very empathic towards the "greying" bit)**

Lemon_Tree

my greys were covered up a couple of weekends ago but will be showing again soon. lol

MrsMoo2U

:j:j namecheck here too, how exciting! Hello Greying (also empathic but now covered mine up again finally) and please dont lurk pop out more often.

Pippi, I hope that you are not overdoing it up there. You seem to be cramming a lot into a day. Now I know that the days are getting longer but it doesn't actually mean there are more hours dont you know.

Off to blog land to see whats going on over there.

Cheery_Daff

And me <waves to greypilgrim>

Hope stripey life is good pippi! :j I've got Peedie socks on today

Lemon_Tree

envelope is in the post to you today Pippi finally!

Pippilongstocking

Hey up me ducks

Just back

Planted another 24 trees in my own 'jazz' manner and the lady wants a section of the hedge moved - thankfully its not planted yet - cos that would be funny! Telling all my little cuttings they had to move house again - lol!
I've sold a few plants on ebay (yippee) - 10 wierd - nowt for a few days then like buses - a few at once - post office for me tomorrow!
OH off being a rock star at a local village hall - getting a 'band' together for jamming sessions in pubs/halls - popped past on the way home to give him a bit of support.

Off to catch up with you guys

LT to post

Cheery yippee to socks

EH you're famous me dear!

And Greying oh how wonderfully kind and thoughtful!! Thank you I'll send you a PM

Cheri - Its not that long dark here - but I do get your point I hope you're good

KC I also have empathy with the 'greying bit'! xx Nice to see you all - now you asked me something - I must go look - I read at lunch at work but I don't post.

I must do another blog - I'm thinking of doing something on 'jazz gardening' or 'how not to garden' - I've used a dibber (meant for leeks/planting veggies) to plant trees, a lawn edging gadget to tuck plastic into the ground (not edging clearly) and various 'non' regulation garden tools to do things which I'm sure if I was a musician not a gardener I'd be called 'jazz' rather than classical.

Hugs to you all

Must get some food down me neck - I'm tired - thinking beans on toast.

Waves hello!

Pippilongstocking

Karmacat wrote: »

Morning! Pippi, can I ask, why are you scared of taking that deposit for materials? Are you scared you'd confuse it with your own money or something?

Its not that

I lack confidence in my own abilities.

I think this phd malarkay has knocked my confidence so badly I'm not sure I can do anything properly anymore. Not meeting deadlines properly, not writing up to 'spec', not performing I guess.

Therefore taking other peoples money before I've done something I'm very scared of.

I'm a bit of a silly girl - I know I can 'do' this stuff - but I'm loathe to let anyone down ever again.

And, right now in my heart I clearly feel that way about my own work.

Quite sad but true. The job is helping rebuilding that confidence as is the blog. But, I've been having panic attacks (well kind of - I think) about my ability to perform properly at all. Given the amount of ridiculus experience and bits of paper I have saying I can actually garden/love plants - its daft. But there you are.

Make any sense?

I'm clearly a lunatic who's just had a brain dump - sorry!

ZTD

Pippilongstocking wrote: »

Its not that

I lack confidence in my own abilities.

I think this phd malarkay has knocked my confidence so badly I'm not sure I can do anything properly anymore. Not meeting deadlines properly, not writing up to 'spec', not performing I guess.

Therefore taking other peoples money before I've done something I'm very scared of.

I'm a bit of a silly girl - I know I can 'do' this stuff - but I'm loathe to let anyone down ever again.

And, right now in my heart I clearly feel that way about my own work.

Quite sad but true. The job is helping rebuilding that confidence as is the blog. But, I've been having panic attacks (well kind of - I think) about my ability to perform properly at all. Given the amount of ridiculus experience and bits of paper I have saying I can actually garden/love plants - its daft. But there you are.

Make any sense?

I'm clearly a lunatic who's just had a brain dump - sorry!

Not at all - it's so common, there's even a name for it: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dunning–Kruger_effect

MrsMoo2U

Pippi, not silly at all. Mr C is the same. Just picked up some work but wont ask for money up front!. I think it is called caring about other people more than yourself as well as ^ which Z links to.

Be kind to yourself. Re the panic attacks have you tried some meditation and also look at yourself in the mirror and tell yourself how wonderful you are. Do it every day (several times) and you will eventually start believing it. Big, big hugs.

Pippilongstocking

Z - wow that makes for very interesting reading. Thank you for posting that link, I've never heard of any of that.

If you were nearer I'd give you a big hug and a kiss.