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Keeping_Motivated

scottishlass wrote: »

I hope those awaiting pm's get their replies talking of which Keeping Motivated can you clear your inbox please - I can't reply

Sorry, its clear now

clairewop

Good Evening

Well what a day , I have spent the majority of it in the drs with the boys, ds1 has a sprained back and ds2 has a viral infection in his labarynth or something So now I'm sitting down apart from the sit down I had up my mums inbetween apps. Am absolutly shattered.

So having a quick catch up before I start cooking tea and getting the house tidied and sandwiches for the morning (although I think I may need to go to Asda as I need a few things and my feet are killing )

Bitsy_Beans

Sorry to hear the boys are poorly Claire, hope they're feeling better soon x

Had a play with my new-to-me sewing machine (it used to be my mums). It's nearly as old as me Haven't touched it since I was about 9-10 years old and my mum tried to give me some sewing lessons. Oh how I wish I'd paid more attention but I loathed it. Can't wait to get cracking now. Birmingham Rag Market here I come, hope they've got lots of lovely fabric to make some crafts with

clairewop

Bitsy_Beans wrote: »

Sorry to hear the boys are poorly Claire, hope they're feeling better soon x

Had a play with my new-to-me sewing machine (it used to be my mums). It's nearly as old as me Haven't touched it since I was about 9-10 years old and my mum tried to give me some sewing lessons. Oh how I wish I'd paid more attention but I loathed it. Can't wait to get cracking now. Birmingham Rag Market here I come, hope they've got lots of lovely fabric to make some crafts with

oohh nice once you get the hang of it can you design me a roll type holder to keep my pliers together?

Bitsy_Beans

clairewop wrote: »

oohh nice once you get the hang of it can you design me a roll type holder to keep my pliers together?

Sure can, I have the very thing in one of my new fabric/sewing/craft books Mind you it's for paint brushes but should translate for pliers.

clairewop

Bitsy_Beans wrote: »

Sure can, I have the very thing in one of my new fabric/sewing/craft books Mind you it's for paint brushes but should translate for pliers.

:D:D:D:D:D:D Thankyou :D:D:D:D:D

susan946

clairewop wrote: »

Good Evening

Well what a day , I have spent the majority of it in the drs with the boys, ds1 has a sprained back and ds2 has a viral infection in his labarynth or something So now I'm sitting down apart from the sit down I had up my mums inbetween apps. Am absolutly shattered.

So having a quick catch up before I start cooking tea and getting the house tidied and sandwiches for the morning (although I think I may need to go to Asda as I need a few things and my feet are killing )

Ooooh Claire - you seem to be having a difficult time at the moment. One thing after another! Think there must be a cosmic whirlwind out there in the universe as quite a few of us have had a tough few weeks. Firewalker's wise words put me back on the straight and narrow when it all seemed to get on top of me........it a short while it will just seem like a minor blip - or words to that effect - she put it much better.

Sue

RubySewSew

Memory Girl, so glad you're yoghurt experiment worked. I've tried the Hugh Fearnley Whittingstall way but couldn't get over the fact that it was gone off milk warmed up on the radiator!

BTW told DS1 about your home schooling/ebay project - he is deadly jealous!!

Memory_Girl

Sorrythis is so late - and so long

I've just been on the phone with Mr B ( to throw in the towel I thought)- so I thought I'd pop on here and spill.

First - Mum is still v poorly so she and the boys are being my priority at the moment. We still don't know what is wrong and that is more stressfull than anything.

The kindi teacher has decided that DS2 is too small to go five mornings (gets too tired) and has suggested three instead. A round trip to the school is about 1 hr 15 minutes so taking DS1 there five mornings and collecting at lunchtime would still mean having DS2 in the car for 2.5 hours a day on the days he doesn't attend. My heart says that this is not very fair for the wee one - so I am torn and completely out of energy to make any kind of sane and rational decision. What I do know is that I can't afford the petrol to do all those round trips so thats a consideration.

I have been really struggling working with the Mentors over the freezing weather - me and the boys have been hunkered down in one room to keep cosy ,and I have to accept that although I have done lots of writing I have also worked my way into quite a down state (I'm not sure I'm depressed, but definitely down)

Trying to build a business with a toddler in the house is proving so much harder than I ever though - factoring into that spending several hours a day driving here and there on icy roads over the last while has used up the last of my energy, and tonight I reached the point of no return.

.............. so I called Mr B to say, sorry, can't do it. You need to find someone else to work with......

................ he refused. He then got Mrs B on the phone and we talked around and around where the issues are. I also went through about half a box of tissues because it felt like a big dam bursting (Not very DFW I know, I should have used the washable hankies)

I think he finally gets that I can't go on the road to do this the "good ole fashioned way" - have no safety net, no-one to catch the kids if my Mum is sick .............. and even then, she can't do the running around that needs to happen. I can't be out on the road running seminars - I love my boys too much, and much as I love what I do, I can't be that selfish. I also can't rely on a job that means if we get snowed in again for 6 weeks I can't be earning.

Its the wrong kind of business for a Single Mum, and thats what I am. However much I would love to be Supermom, I'm not, I'm just a Mum. The catch 22 situation of needing to create a certain income in order to have someone help with the admin is driving me nuts - too many calls on my time, meaning nothing gets done well............ and when a spanner gets thrown in the works it all comes crashing down.

I think I had to come clean and say I can't cope .............. and I'm sorry if you are following this hoping that there is going to be a "Cinderella ending" to my story. But theres no Fairy Godmother - just lots of Ugly Sisters (the Mentors) .....................

............... instead there has to be a "realistic" way forward, a different way of earning a living that means that I can continue caring for my boys in the best way I can.

So, GULP!!! I've managed to get them to agree to postpone the seminars booked into this year. I'm not saying I won't speak, but instead will only do events where I am invited to come and speak to a pre-arranged group. When home life becomes more certain I would love to come out and meet you all, so hope you all understand.

I will be arranging to refund any monies paid by you lovely ladies in the morning (those of you who have paid by paypal I will simply do a reversal, but those who have paid by Bank Transfer and cheque I will need to make other arrangements, so please feel free to pre-empt me by mailing me how you would like the booking fee returned to you if you are reading this.

Plan B is to create a series of short video and audio training programmes and deliver these via internet. These are for peeps wanting to learn for themselves - or hopefully to show their kids how to do it. I have negotiated with Mr B that this should go live to the "outside world" at the beginning of Easter.

I would love it if you lovelies would grant me one last favour and agree to be guinea pigs for this programme - taking 10 - 15 minutes per week dong the one-day seminar in bite sized chunks instead. Of course this is also for those who have been on the course too.

I'm sorry that it seems that this will not be the steller success story that we all hoped - instead it will have to be a much more gentle simmering process. I have to learn to accept that I can only do what I can do - and when I can do more I shall.

I am grateful for all the support that you and Mr B and the Mentors have given me over the last few months .............. I hope to make you proud of me still.

Internet is difficult at the mo - the library has decided that MSE is a "restricted site" this week for some reason .................. but I'm hoping to find another way of being in touch whilst I am out of the house all day............ at least I'm saving on the gas bills.

Hope you will all still be speaking to me in the morning because I will need your help getting back to basics on the budgetting front cos things are going to be tight, tight, tight,

Memorygirl

Karmacat

MG, I don't often post at the moment .... can I just say, tho, that I think you've made the right decision? Like you say, there's no backup, no "give" in things at all, its really not the right way of working for someone in your situation - even on here, there are people trying to contact you and not being able to ... you sound really overwhelmed, maybe as well as a bit depressed, but certainly overwhelmed ... so cutting back is the right thing to do, before it segues seriously into a deep depression.