Immoral_angel's Debt Diary

earwig

you are brave going out on your own with two little ones i rember the first trip out with my two dd was 5 ds 4days it was a night mare dd keept wanting to push the buggy and ds just cryed all the way there and back time i got home i forgeten to get the stuff i went out for

earwig

forget to add it also took so long as all the old dears keppt wanting to have a peek at the new baby :mad: even though the could see he was screaming

immoral_angeluk

Well we did it. We ventured into the big bad world all alone. Just the 3 of us... ok so I cheated and took the car but the fact is we made it to the post office, posted 18 ebay items and came back and no-one died, went insane or got lost so I claim a small victory!!! Wooo! lol.

Today's going rather smoothly! Don't want to tempt fate though...

Snaggles

Where DO you get your energy....I feel tired just reading your diary lol

Well done on the eBay totals, fantastic result!

I'm soooo tired today, SPD playing up something shocking, all I got last night was clicks, cracks and shooting pains....grrrrr. And the baby trampolined on my bladder for most of the night, so I kept having to hobble to the bathroom. I'm sure it will be all worth it when she pops out in about 11 weeks, bang on time, after 30 minutes of labour......:D

hmmmmm....

immoral_angeluk

Snaggles wrote:

Where DO you get your energy....I feel tired just reading your diary lol

Well done on the eBay totals, fantastic result!

I'm soooo tired today, SPD playing up something shocking, all I got last night was clicks, cracks and shooting pains....grrrrr. And the baby trampolined on my bladder for most of the night, so I kept having to hobble to the bathroom. I'm sure it will be all worth it when she pops out in about 11 weeks, bang on time, after 30 minutes of labour......:D

hmmmmm....

Sorry you're suffering. The SPD is the one thing I was so happy to be rid of. I still get the odd twinge not and then but I can honestly say its a good 95% better now so you should heal fairly quickly after the birth.
Will keep my fingers (and everything else) crossed for you that you get your super quick painless and on time labour

Snaggles

immoral_angeluk wrote:

Will keep my fingers (and everything else) crossed for you that you get your super quick painless and on time labour

Lol, thanks....I'm putting my bet on 2 weeks late and 9 hour labour though! :rolleyes:

Well done on your first trip out on your own....very brave. Be honest now, how many bags of 'stuff' did you take with you? I have memories of taking about 20 nappies, endless packs of wipes and nappy sacks and about 4 changes of clothing the first time I ventured out of the house lol.

earwig

was your trip out on your own ok or did you wish you hadnt botherd like i did with mine:rotfl:

immoral_angeluk

My trip out wasn't as bad as I expected! Luckily the post office is literally 5 mins down the road so the only bag I needed to take was full of ebay stuff!
Haven't braved going far yet though... going to have to build some courage for that one!

immoral_angeluk

Feeling so low today. I hate to admit it but I don't think I'm coping very well with 2 kids emotionally. I'm finding it really hard to deal with K's crying (not that it's excessive at all) and find myself willing her to sleep all day so I don't have to deal with her. God how awful does that sound. Don't get me wrong I love her to pieces but part of me keeps wanting things to go back to how they were. I'm exhausted, fed up and just generally finding having 2 really hard. I feel like I'm being pulled in 5 different directions! It doesn't help that K's feeding every 2 hours which with a toddler is a nightmare in itself. I've tried talking to Steve because he has 0 patience and loses his rag really easily, which puts me under so much pressure to deal with K when she's crying or Ashli when she's playing up just so Steve doesn't go mental and start shouting/hitting things (He'd never hit us, he just hits things not us.). All he says is that he's tired and that he never means what he says or does, but that really doesn't help in the heat of the moment. If I ever need him to do anything I've always got to ask and he rarely does things off his own back which again puts me under more pressure as I end up doing everything myself out of sheer frustration. I also feel like it's totally down to me to do housework because I'm here all day and he goes out to work. But at the moment I'd give anything to be away from these 4 walls for a day!!

I feel so bad and feel like a bad mum (although I know I'm not.. my children are generally happy, healthy, clothed and fed.) but I'm just finding things hard going at the moment and just want to have a really good cry and let go but I can't because I've got to be 'mum' and just soldier on regardless.

Also the money is stressing me out. Because of posting ebay stuff the debt account is all over the place waiting for the paypal money to replace what we've used to post stuff, and because of my anally over organised nature it's stressing me out. How stupid is that. I know that the ebay money is going to replace it but my brain can't make me accept that although is may mean paying my citi a little bit late compared to our target that it'll get paid and I should stop being stupid and stressing about it. Why???? What the hell is so important about paying it off by our original target date of the 28th feb! If it's paid a few days late it's not the end of the world!! Argh! Sort yourself out Sarah!!

Argh i just want to disappear into a hole and escape the world for a day.
Sorry to moan. I suppose posting this is a way of getting it off my chest. Deep down I know that today is just a one off but I hate days like this. Roll on tomorrow where hopefully I'll feel a bit better.

*zippy*

Hi Sarah

First of all sending you a (((hug))) reading your post brought back a few memories, mine are older now, but I remember what a big shock having our second one was, especially as she cried all the time. It sounds like you are exhausted, is there family you could ask to have one of them or both for a few hours? I was lucky that my dad used to come get one of mine a few times a week when he walked the dogs, it was bliss just to have an hour to myself. Or could you go out for a few hours today even if its just a trip to the park just to get a bit of fresh air.

I was only thinking yesterday how amazing you are, even after just having a baby you have been so commited to DFW so don't be too hard on yourself.

zippy x