Life after bankruptcy?

ani_26

That was a stupid thing to do. I can't settle now, so maybe i should rid myself of the thoughts in my head.

I been feeling so much more, dare i say positive, with the onset of 2011, i was glad to see the back of 2009 and 2010, and with the definite news i'm not receiving an ipa or bro, theres everything to move on for. Is there? Its still a stark reminder of everything i've been through. I might be coming out the other end of bankruptcy, but theres been a high price to pay. Few people lose there homes as well. Or maybe they do. Theres plenty of properties on the site with vacant possession, which as the site says, means they are under repossession or in possession of the OR. Well the agents were always after my home. They've got it now. I should'nt look again, but i should track the progress, i suppose, of when it sells. Why? To end the final chapter?


Its my fault. I've been avoiding reading the threads on repossession. I should'nt have replied. I'm not ready to talk about it. I realise that now. Its alright for people to say move on now, forget about it, put it behind you. But they have'nt walked in my shoes. It really hits hard when you see photos of a house thats no longer your home.The ultimate sacrifice. I've still got an uncertain future. Will i ever live somewhere i belong, that i will call home, again? Here is ok for as long as it lasts, and who knows how long that will be?

I've taken lots of steps forward, even i can see that. I've just temporarily taken some steps backwards, again. Tomorrow is another day. I'm fast approaching ad. I even promised myself today, that i'd stay up all night, to watch my name disappear off the register. Will that really happen? Its almost tomorrow. Just keep telling yourself tomorrow is another day. Day by day

ani_26

Tomorrow is here. I've slept badly. I'm still upset, and feel worse than i have in a while. I should stay away from anything to do with my house and repossession. I thought i'd managed to blank it out. I should return to blanking it out, but its no easier than blanking the death of a loved one. I've had too many reminders this week. I should stay away from things that remind me.

crumbling

boo - told you i'd be back.

i'm so sorry you're having such a rotten time at the moment. what can i do to help? not a lot i know but here to talk if you want to xxx

ps sorry about the tomato dilemma - my fault for pondering (again)

ani_26

crumbling wrote: »

boo - told you i'd be back.


ps sorry about the tomato dilemma - my fault for pondering (again)

I'll blame it all on you then.................


Thanks crumbling xx


Its been a while since i've felt like this, i just feel very weepy. I suppose it will pass. 2011 had been a good year so far, but i suppose i'm bound to have relapses.I suppose it will hit me when someone actually moves into my home, as well.

startagain_2

Nohope wrote: »

Has anyone ever tried running a car on tomato juice? now theres a thought........................................

I am sure I saw one of those weird and wacky news items where a car was running on gas made from rotted vegetables .... not too far away.
The way fuel prices are rising I think we may be seeing Flintstones cars where people use their feet to move the car along....

I used to love that cartoon. Showing my age now.

Morning everyone

SA

ani_26

Hmmm, try andy pandy and bill and ben the flowerpot men, not forgetting muffin the mule

I'll stop there.........................

crumbling

course you're going to have rotten weepy days - totally expected. hmmmm didn't i say in the beginning that they would get fewer tho.....not totally stop, just diminish. honest:)

startagain_2

I remember them all - Watch with Mother every day at 1.45pm. I loved The Woodentops, Spotty the dog was my fave.

I must apologise I didn't see the sad stuff last night regarding your house. I wont drag it all up again, suffice to say I feel for you. I know it is hard but as each day passes it will slowly slip into a memory and not a thought. Experience tells me that. I have grieved for many things in my life... Deaths, Losing homes, my child leaving home at 16 because they couldn't cope with the situation, Loves, and so on and I know how hard it is. But it doesn't mean that you wont ever be happy, comfortable and settled again. You are on the first rung of a ladder... just keep climbing one rung at a time and before you know it you will be looking down and realising just how high you have gone.

Hugs
SA

Aesop

Was it on this thread Nohope, that someone said you have to go through the grieving process? It is completely understandable that you are upset, and you will have bad days as well as good days.

It is not as easy as saying the words " forget about it, put it behind you and move on". Even though anyone who says them I am sure mean them in the nicest possible way and don't mean any offence or hardship.

ani_26

crumbling wrote: »

course you're going to have rotten weepy days - totally expected. hmmmm didn't i say in the beginning that they would get fewer tho.....not totally stop, just diminish. honest:)

Ahh, silly me, i thought they would totally stop....................

Yes, they have diminished, you're right x


But what about you? still got car problems too, though! that seems to be a major issue when you are ahermm, poor...........