Life after bankruptcy?

ani_26

Blimey, i should rename it to, the early birds thread.

Thanks guys x

I should'nt worry. I don't know what to say myself, right now.

ani_26

Geebee wrote: »

Woowoo... sometimes that's all that someone needs to hear.

Thats entirely true, gb

Geebee

Nohope wrote: »

Blimey, i should rename it to, the early birds thread.

Thanks guys x

I should'nt worry. I don't know what to say myself, right now.

Just keep telling yourself that things will get better, because they certainly will!.
I have to go to work shortly, so take care and be well.

ani_26

Many yearn for better things but shrink from sudden change - because they lack the courage for adventures new and strange..... Grasp your opportunities in faith and not in fear. Nothing worth the having can be won without a tear.

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When things turn against you and theres nothing left but dreams. When unlucky circumstances cut across your schemes. Turn it to advantage. Snatch a pearl out of the dust. Make misfortune teach you how to wait and hope and trust.

savingwannabe

Welcome back. good to see you.

ani_26

Its been a week since my house was repossessed. Has it really been a week? I don't feel anything at all. Numb. I still don't feel human. Its almost like it has'nt happened, now. I went back to the house yesterday. I forgot another * . Its surprising how many i found. The locks have'nt been changed yet. It does'nt look like anyone has been in. But maybe its not surprising the locks have'nt been changed. They have'nt been in touch with me about the keys. Do i care? Not one iota. But its surprising, after how desperarate they were to possess my home. Its just a shell now, like me. I did'nt feel anything at all. A walking zombie.

Life, has, got to go on. God knows how. I'm going back to work, next week. After all, work, was the one thing that made me feel normal, before all of this. Contact with other human beings. I'VE got to be a human being now. Its been two months of the culmination of hell. It still is hell. Who could have predicted i would lose my home and my car within two days of each other. A cruel blow of fate. No,a cruel blow of someones negligence and insensitivity. They still can't decide what is going to happen to my car. Its now up to £1500 worth of damage, and rising. The insurance company wants yet another opinion, thats three assessors now, so now i've got to wait to have my car looked at more extensively. Shoukd i just let go? Some think i should. Just accept i've lost everything i've got. But i will find it difficult to give up without a fight. That car means everything to me. No one can understand my affinity with it. Its part of my soul and my true personality. Is it really worth more grief? But i've had a look on the internet today, and i can't find one for love nor money.But talking of money. Does'nt an insurance payout go to the or anyway. Its a no win situation, and the frustrating thing is, none of it was my fault. No, i'm not going to give up my car without a fight, they'll have to have a bloody good reason to write it off. When will it ever end?

savingwannabe

I am sorry No Hope.

Woowoo

Hello NH

Work will be good as it means routine.

Keep fighting for your car, it obviously means a great deal to you x

ani_26

GMT - The time is now 3.15 am. Right.No chance of sleeping tonight now. No one to speak to now. No one to speak to, full stop. No one truly cares. What did i ever do wrong? I don't understand. I can't live like this. I've lost all my dignity and self respect. I'm no one. I don't have any feelings. I need my own independence, but how am i ever going to get it again. Its a long time since these thoughts have crossed my mind, but i'm seriously considering them again now. Maybe thats my fate. Maybe that was always my destiny. I've never belonged, and i never will belong. But maybe that was what i was programmed to believe. No matter. I can't live like this. A piece of worthless s***. It should'nt be like this. But it need'nt be like this. I wonder if you can ever find peace? Does such a thing exist? I listened to music today for the first time in ages. Just played what was in the cd player. Shine on you crazy diamond. Oh well, at least i have'nt lost the cd, even if i've lost its case. Gosh, its probably been the best part of a year, since i've listened to it. I was having those thoughts then, too. There really is no purpose, anymore. I've lost it all. I've lost my inner being. It will be light soon. Another day. What is life?

savingwannabe

I hope you feel better today. When i am down i try to think it will pass. Please talk to someone. Go to your doctor too. I will pray for you as i am going to work. I hope today is a better day for you dear No Hope.