Grow old disgracefully.

gentlepurr

Edinburghlass wrote:

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the rock festival dreadlock guide

http://forums.downloadfestival.co.uk/tm.aspx?m=224965

and hey, whats so scary about dreadlocks??? lol! if im gonna grow old disgracefully, im gonna do it in the most disgraceful style

xx

SkyBlue_2

Hello all - I am new here, and not sure if I really want to be a "silver surfer" but at 52 must accept that I am!

I have always been a "slight" rebel - mostly in my head. I have rarely been brave enough to challenge the status quo or behave in outrageous ways, but now, early retired (health grounds) and a single (divorced) mother with children at University I am feelingly strangely lost.

I don't work any longer (will have to find something soon as I can't make ends meet - and I miss the social interaction terribly) and have grown children who don't need me any longer and are turning into this strange young adult mode - different from adolescence but still incorporating the " I know everything" attitude. (Not sure if, although I love them dearly, that I really like them right now either - is it OK to feel that way?) I believe they'll come out of this phase and become pleasant and thoughtful again when they are mature adults.

I feel rather redundant and at a loss as to who I am these days.

Identity crisis? ( Surely I am too old for one of those? ) It isn't empty nest syndrome, because mine still inhabit the nest.....and take it for granted. They have lives of their own now though, which don't include me, and I feel rather lost and hurt. It's the way it is when our children become independent.

So....what do I do during the day to make life interesting, fun and meaningful again? (I have a partner who I see some evenings and most weekends.) I feel guilty if I am not busying myself with chores. (I have never really found house work interesting or fulfilling, to be honest, but being home alone most days is very strange.)

I suspect I'll have to tour the museums and galleries alone to get me out of the house, or stroll alone around the park in deep contemplation...or go to the library to read.....or sit and type at my PC....as cash is limited.

I want to make these years interesting - but not sure if their is company to be had for a woman in her early fifties. People are still working.

Any ideas (legal ones!) as to how I can become outrageous and grow old disgracefully? There is still plenty of life in this old dog! :j

Savvy_Sue

Well hello SkyBlue and may I just say that it is perfectly acceptable not to like your children very much at ANY age! :rotfl: I always wondered if I'd like a 2 year old better if I didn't have a baby at the same time, but I didn't ...