The cutting out/cutting down alcohol thread (part 7)

heath480

Seems to be a lot of people really struggling at the moment with the Alcohol.

When I decided I was going to give up totally I knew it wouldnt be easy but I made it the most important thing in my life.

No Alcohol in the house and I included Alcohol free beer,think that is very dodgy as it would eventually lead me back to the real thing.

I stopped going in Pubs at all for ages,I go in nowadays but only if eating.

I have only been able to stay sober by constantly talking to other Alcoholics in recovery.

Doctors didnt help

Counselling didnt work.

Doing on my own didnt work.

All the time I was trying to stop I just got worse,took a number of years though.

Today I am free of the obsession with Alcohol,even if not actually drinking I would be planning my next drink,what to get,where from,how much etc.it was really hard work.

Love my sober life.

I wish everybody well.

Nite nite.:A:A:A

ForeverHopeful_3

Thanks Heath X

Off to bed too Work tomorrow.

SimIsOnTheUp

jo1972 wrote: »

I'm one to talk, but you really do need to find something that works, your binge drinking is dangerous and making you do things that you wouldn't normally do. Please get some help xxx





So pleased you didn't, DD1 fell asleep and didn't stir or turn my bourginon off, it burnt beyond recognision (sp? this isn't right is it??)

Thanks Jo.

God, I feel so low tonight.

Have been sleeping on and off this evening. Stuck TV on, 'cos I need to lighten up somehow.

My head feels so foggy, I can not see a way out of here.

Sim xxx

SimIsOnTheUp

RecoveringAlcoholic wrote: »

As the girls :happyhear tend to take over this thread thought I would post some feedback from my AA meeting today.

The meeting had about 40 people and was hosted by two females in their mid twenties. Both of them had in the past had their children taken into care because of their relationship with alcohol.
If you were to meet them on the street you would never in a million years guess that they now play leading roles in my local AA.


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Hi RA,

Reading this made me so sad.

Sounds very similar to the AA meetings in my area too.

Sim x

SimIsOnTheUp

Guys,

Please tell me that this gets easier?

Sim x

heath480

Keep at it Sim,there is a way out and you will get there,everybody on this thread is behind you

Sending you strength..:A

SimIsOnTheUp

Thank You Heath.

My head just feels dead tonight :-/

I might go back to AA.

Really don't know, as I'm not sure I can handle the comments x

heath480

Ignore the comments,if they are good AAers there shouldnt be any comments,only a warm welcome back.Are there any other meetings you could go too near where you live? Remember everyone is there for the same reason.with AA having so many different types of people,there is always going to be some you dont get on with .Give it another go.

graemecarter

newroadahead wrote: »

Hi

I have not been on this thread before.

After suffering 2 years of depression, seeing a physciatrist and physcologist and finally getting back to work in April after another 6 month lapse I also joined the forums on mse.
I have been on a dmp for nearly a year now and Im slowly trying to get my life back on track.

All through my depressive stages I have had issues with alcohol, culminating in me trying to kill myself 2 years ago with gin and medication. (I have always hated gin but it was the only booze in the house that night).

Like a lot of people I enjoy a drink but I know if there is a lot of alcohol in the house I will drink it. Foe example on Saturday I bought 3 bottles of wine for £12.00 thinking they would last me the weekend... needless to say they didnt and I felt rubbish till today.

Well I have decided that along with the other steps I am taking I am going to try for 10 days AF this month. It is my birthday in the middle of the month and I am going out with a friend that night. (She doesnt really drink at all, a once in a blue moon spritzer so is good for me).

I admire anyone who who never drinks again and understand those for whom it is impossible to stop. I have found this a very interesting thread to read.

Wishing everyone a good month.

NRA xxx

Depression and alcoholism are often closely linked. And they can be a deadly combination. I think some people get depressed as they drink too much, so they start alcoholic and then are depressed too.
Others have mental illnesses like depression and then often self-medicate with alcohol.

Very complicated, though I know some people that had bad depression and alcoholism, and when they put the drink down the depression cleared up to. I am no doctor but I am sure that loads of booze on top of anti-depressants somewhat negates their effect. I doubt that alcohol helps depression in any circumstance.

graemecarter

skintscottishgirl wrote: »

Feel a bit worried because her i am yet again working early shift tomorrow getting smashed on vodka. i have been on not so much a bender lately but drinking practically every night and feeling rough in the morning. As the day progresses i feel better and get that 'i can handle it; thing going on and end up buying more drink. The ironic part is i have started a DMP and now have more money to spend on drink so in a way it;s not helping. But i will be fine if i can break the habit once again. Hope that all made sense!!!! Thanks You are all great I am on my own and not one to complain Honest!!! But i am very lonely and bored at times and no-one to answer to!!

I was like this too. I would promise myself I wouldn't drink later, but then in the afternoon/evening I would find myself with a drink in my hand.
That was my alcoholism. I couldn't handle it myself, and needed to get help. I drank and behaved like that because of my alcoholism, but I know that my sobriety is my responsibility and no-one else's. If I drink again, I only have myself to blame