The cutting out/cutting down alcohol thread (part 7)

budget_babe

115K wrote: »

Thank you BB. :A I know I have been all over the place lately. I think it might be the counselling triggering things in my mind. Also my psychiatrist hasn't been helpful as well. She said I could call her anytime if I needed help and then she wasn't there when I called her from 9-5 the other day and I ended up in A&E with self harm. I felt really guilty taking time away from people with real physical problems. I know I have a mental illness but I feel like it isn't really recognised by people.:(

(Thank you to Jo with your lovely message too.:A)

Sweetheart that is so awful, I have no experience of self harm or indeed know anyone that has done it either. So I feel I cannot really advise you on this?

You obviously need much more support than you are getting right now, I wonder if there are any other posters/lurkers who have experienced this and could explain how they were able to get the help that they needed?

I have experience of a friend who went through counselling, (they had an abusive childhood). They likened it to as they said: "opening an can of worms".

Some of our feelings are deep rooted and it seems that once they surface there is much pain before a way forward is reached.

I have in the past dabbled in holistic therapies, (you either agree or disagree with these). However when I did Reiki there was much self healing to do and I felt that I benefitted from this greatly.

Mr Budgie is realising alot about himself at the moment, he visited an old friend whose father is dying, the fathers room was such a mess with no care etc taken in it. Mr Budgie says that this is how the old man is feeling at the moment, the room is just a reflection of himself. Very sad.

So sweetheart I really am at a loss, and feel that it is hard to advise on something so serious. I am asking any other posters/lurkers that could help you that have experienced this to please post. It is always the case that if you have yourself suffered from something that you have the insight to help others.

I really do hope that you can find your own way forward? I am sorry for rambling on, I just wanted you to know that people do care, and you are suffering from a very serious illness. As is life people can shy away from things they know nothing about, for instance if your leg is broken. People will automatically give you sympathy.

But the more serious of illness of course are hidden from the human eye.

Please do try and stay strong.
Big hugs sweetheart and sorry for the dislodged post.
Budgie (()) xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

115K

Thanks BB. You are so incredibly sweet.

I don't really know what to do at the moment. I feel like going to A&E again but it is the bank holiday weekend and it will be packed. I think maybe I should listen to a relaxation CD and try and sleep.

budget_babe

115K wrote: »

Thanks BB. You are so incredibly sweet.

I don't really know what to do at the moment. I feel like going to A&E again but it is the bank holiday weekend and it will be packed. I think maybe I should listen to a relaxation CD and try and sleep.

Hi 115k, perhaps try that firstly. (Though as you have already been drinking, would you be able to relax to a cd)?

I know A and E will be extremely busy, they always are. But if you do need to see someone then the wait will be worth it.

It is so quiet on here, I wish someone would come along and help with the situation. Btw have you stopped drinking now? I hope you have, as this will only lower your mood further.

I hope you don't mind me asking but how is your OH helping you at the moment. (I know you had an arguement last night, but surely this has only made you feel more depressed).

Depression is such a serious illness and I know from personal experience how ill Mr Budgie made me feel. (But that was only the case because I care about him so much).

Perhaps try and have a bath and listen to your cd, it may help?

Whatever you do, please do not harm yourself further.

Please take care and perhaps going to bed will help and give you some peace?

Big hugs
Budgie (()) xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

115K

Sorry, I didn't mean to kill the thread with my nonsense.

Just carry on the AF stuff now.:o

115K

budget_babe wrote: »

It is so quiet on here, I wish someone would come along and help with the situation. Btw have you stopped drinking now? I hope you have, as this will only lower your mood further.
I hope you don't mind me asking but how is your OH helping you at the moment. (I know you had an arguement last night, but surely this has only made you feel more depressed)

Aww BB.:A I am still drinking right now. But I think I may have to ask my DH to take me to A&E later. Either that or pass out drunk.

I know I sound like such a loser.:(

budget_babe

115K wrote: »

Sorry, I didn't mean to kill the thread with my nonsense.

Just carry on the AF stuff now.:o

115k it is not nonesense and we are here to help in anyway we can. Sorry I cannot help more.

It is a thread where people do care and sometimes it is lighthearted and sometimes not. The real point is to help others in their good and bad times.

We have all had a mixture of each ourselves.

I post on here and say much more than I would to my friends, no-one judges anyone and that I think is why we all benefit from this thread.

No-one has to feel totally alone or that no-one cares, as this of course is not the case.

You are valued on here very much :A

Budgie just hates to see anyone suffer so much. (As you know I can be a bit emotional at times)
Big hugs
Budgie xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

ETA sorry you posted as I typed, you are definitely not a loser, but you should really not drink anymore. Perhaps go to A and E with you OH. But drinking is not the answer sweetheart. Please take care (()) xxxxxxxxxxxxx

Miss_Piggy_2

115k...what can I say? Just want to send loads of hugs. Budgie is talking lots of sense here. You sound like you need help asap. Please please try and make that drink you have right now the last one for today. We are all "virtual" friends on here and I hate to think that one of us is in such a bad place.:(

Miss P
xx

fedupandskint

115k - please don't get into the habit of opening a can in the morning - it will harm you in the long run.

I can't really comment on the SH aspect, don't worry about how busy A+E is - if you need to go you need to

I hope things pick up for you soon, emotions take time to settle and work through, I hope you get the support you need to do

RecoveringAlcoholic

115K wrote: »

Thanks BB. You are so incredibly sweet.

I don't really know what to do at the moment. I feel like going to A&E again but it is the bank holiday weekend and it will be packed. I think maybe I should listen to a relaxation CD and try and sleep.

Friends of mine man the telephone helplines for both AA and Samaritans 24/7.

jo1972

115k, we are very similar people, I do know a lot about self harm (think that's a confession for another thread!). It doesn't matter how many people are in A&E, you have a genuine illness and the professionals will be able to help you through this. If you're around later stick your head round the door cos I'm gonna need a lot of hand holding to get me through day 2, we can help each other.

xx