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Butti

MatyMoo wrote: »

Loved your answer to Cheri, just shows how flippin clever you are that you could manipulate things, like the survey, until you were really ready to accept help!



I'm glad that you had this chat and he Prof wants you to wait until A) After its fully marked and You have looked at the other options before throwing in the towel.

Nic,
I once sat for the last half hour of an exam planning my letter excusing my failing of that exam (basically the death of a friend a week earlier and workplace bullying). Then I passed. I don't think you ever really know.

Still don't know on the last assignment whether my supply and demand curves should have been curved or straight!

B x

Jesthar

Hey Nicca! How's things?

Cheri and butti are right - sit back and take your time over your decision. You never know, you may be able to defer the course for a year or something? A break can work wonders - I had a break from driving lessons when I started Uni, and when I restarted I had somehow mysteriously mastered things I just could NOT get right before! :rotfl:

Sometimes we're just not ready to deal with something, even though we know we need to, and even want to. It's just a matter of getting to the point where you're ready to begin.

Speaking of which, I have my filing cabinet, and it matches my bedroom furniture beautifully! Now I just need to get myself in gear, and stop shuffling papers into differently ordered piles in the living room, and start to file them away in their new home...

niccatw

MatyMoo wrote: »

Loved your answer to Cheri, just shows how flippin clever you are that you could manipulate things, like the survey, until you were really ready to accept help!



I'm glad that you had this chat and he Prof wants you to wait until A) After its fully marked and You have looked at the other options before throwing in the towel.

If time was no object would you want this qualification? If so, you have to find a way to get it even if it takes you longer than others to get it. Where there's a will there's a way and all that.

And I love that you rarely do short posts :T But your short ones are normally the killer ones :rotfl:

Time and my perception of it are what I have been letting get in the way!

My job means I know a little about a lot and I have to know where to find out more when I need to. This course is interesting, specific and will give me the knowledge and confidence in how, where and when to find out whichever "more" I need at a given point in time. So in terms of my work and career, it's a bit of a no brainer!

Cherisong pretty muchs sums it (me!) up...

niccatw

cherisong wrote: »

Thank you so much for that answer Niccattw it is really insightful. I, like Maty, am so glad of the fact that you don't often write short posts. That is what drew me in.
Maybe your psychologised you will take a step back. When I was reading your diary my thoughts were that perhaps you just needed to take a bit of time out. I know that you have already put it on hold but lots of people take longer to do these things. It is good that your professor is willing to take the time to work through things with you and he can obviously see that you have the ability if he wants you to look at options. Just a thought, and I hope that you dont mind, but are you a perfectionist? The reason that I ask this is because when I was reading your notes about the work I sensed that you are not happy with what you have written and assuming that it would fail. I have been told in the past that I am too harsh on myself and set myself too high a standard and thus, sometimes, assume things are worse than they are. It may well be that you do get a pass mark. A pass is a pass, even if it isn't top of the class. And anyway, my understanding of uni courses these days is that there is no such thing as a fail because you are given time to get these things right.
Thank you for brightening my 2 days and I look forward to hearing about your adventures. By the way, I used to spend lots on my hair. It was the one treat that I would never compromise on. Since I moved 150 miles away I cant find a good hairdresser and I look like a witch. I am convinced that is why I am feeling like carp!!!!!! So you spend whatever you like on it.
Oh, and as you were the one making tea on DIY I can say that your hair is lovely.

:rotfl::rotfl::rotfl: Spooky! It wouldn't be the first time some-one has asked me that!

Ok, so I don't think I'm a perfectionist... but I can't deny I put way more pressure on myself to do things to a standard I would never expect in others. And that, if some-one else was putting that pressure on themselves, I'd probably break down what it was they were doing into much smaller chunks and ask them how they'd feel about it if they were viewing it that way!

I give excellent advice. I just don't take it! :rotfl:... I think they call that the human condition!

Yup, I do need to learn to take a step back and be more subjective! And I was actually discussing that in supervison today. That I'm perhaps not quite there yet in doing that subjective bit early enough, but that I'm much better at catching myself when I'm falling and reflecting on it after.

(Yes. That was supervision with my supervisor. And I was quite relaxed about it and not in the slightest bit annoyed. I think I was was quite open and honest with where I am at the moment. And yes, my arms hurt from patting myself on the back! )

niccatw

Butti wrote: »

Nic,
I once sat for the last half hour of an exam planning my letter excusing my failing of that exam (basically the death of a friend a week earlier and workplace bullying). Then I passed. I don't think you ever really know.

Still don't know on the last assignment whether my supply and demand curves should have been curved or straight!

B x

Supply and demnd curves? Sounds a little bit racy!

Oh, right, I see. You're talking economics!

(On a more serious note, why were you even sitting the exam in those circumstances? But it certainly puts it into perspective in the grand scheme of things, doesn't it?)

niccatw

Jesthar wrote: »

Hey Nicca! How's things?

Cheri and butti are right - sit back and take your time over your decision. You never know, you may be able to defer the course for a year or something? A break can work wonders - I had a break from driving lessons when I started Uni, and when I restarted I had somehow mysteriously mastered things I just could NOT get right before! :rotfl:

Sometimes we're just not ready to deal with something, even though we know we need to, and even want to. It's just a matter of getting to the point where you're ready to begin.

Very true!

Speaking of which, I have my filing cabinet, and it matches my bedroom furniture beautifully! Now I just need to get myself in gear, and stop shuffling papers into differently ordered piles in the living room, and start to file them away in their new home...

Oooh! Filing things away in an organised manner! One of my favourite things to do! A perfect excuse for new stationary type products and sitting all in a guddle in the middle of the living floor with your favourite music blasting out and getting stuck right into it. It's so concrete... all the differently ordered piles in the living room suddenly begin to disappear and then you feel really clever and can stand proudly and stare at your new filing cabinet (or boxes, in my case).

And if you've been baking a cake in the oven while you've been doing all of said filing, then a cuppa, a massive chunk of freshly baked (usually banana for me) cake, singing along to your music and the sense of achievement you have just cannot be beaten!

It's like the feeling you get when you go for a walk on a cold, crisp, sunny day. Or when you wander outside and breath in the smell of a wet pavement and impending sping-time. Exhilarating!
Go on, you know you want to!

(No. It's not just me. I know it's not. I have friends who get even more excited by organising than I do! )

niccatw

Right... money stuff!

Headed off to the supermarket this evening and topped up my shopping. (By the way, isn't the price of coffee is extortionate! I've stopped drinking it so never buy it for the house but it was about time I bought some for the office as I never take cash into work so always forget to "pay my dues".) And my car. (Cue another gripe. This time the cost of deisel!) Pah!

Checked my credit card statement. The £89 for the posh hotel we cancelled has been refunded. :j Which gives me a retrospective, bonus NSD day too as it was the only "money" I spent that day. We have instead booked a day near Loch Lomand where we get a spa treatment, a three course meal, a £20 gift voucher to spend in the shop and a "free" gift of a candle or bath bomb. All for the very MSE sum of £29. :j And we have until the end of April to find a day that suits.

And I have rounded down my bank account and transferred another £7.42 to that pesky loan! It will be gone! Oh yes, it will!

Oops! I keep breaking my curfew! One day I will actually turn into a pumpkin if I don't turn off this machine before silly o'clock!

InaPickle

niccatw wrote: »

Oops! I keep breaking my curfew! One day I will actually turn into a pumpkin if I don't turn off this machine before silly o'clock!

Hehe - seen what time I'm up at?! :eek:

MrsMoo2U

niccatw wrote: »

:rotfl::rotfl::rotfl: Spooky! It wouldn't be the first time some-one has asked me that!

Ok, so I don't think I'm a perfectionist... but I can't deny I put way more pressure on myself to do things to a standard I would never expect in others. And that, if some-one else was putting that pressure on themselves, I'd probably break down what it was they were doing into much smaller chunks and ask them how they'd feel about it if they were viewing it that way!

I give excellent advice. I just don't take it! :rotfl:... I think they call that the human condition!

Yup, I do need to learn to take a step back and be more subjective! And I was actually discussing that in supervison today. That I'm perhaps not quite there yet in doing that subjective bit early enough, but that I'm much better at catching myself when I'm falling and reflecting on it after.

(Yes. That was supervision with my supervisor. And I was quite relaxed about it and not in the slightest bit annoyed. I think I was was quite open and honest with where I am at the moment. And yes, my arms hurt from patting myself on the back! )

The very reason I asked because I think that you just described me to a T. Reading your diary from start to finish (have you ever read back your own) gave me a clear indication that here was somebody who needs to listen to her own advice! It is so hard though. When you work out how to do it pass on your new found knowledge please

niccatw wrote: »

Oooh! Filing things away in an organised manner! One of my favourite things to do! A perfect excuse for new stationary type products and sitting all in a guddle in the middle of the living floor with your favourite music blasting out and getting stuck right into it. It's so concrete... all the differently ordered piles in the living room suddenly begin to disappear and then you feel really clever and can stand proudly and stare at your new filing cabinet (or boxes, in my case).
And that feeling you get when the floor is suddenly clear, the shredder is emptied and everything is in its place is great. Problem is when I do this I have a logic in my filing system. When I am later looking for something my logic has changed and I cant remember what I filed something under :rotfl:

And if you've been baking a cake in the oven while you've been doing all of said filing, then a cuppa, a massive chunk of freshly baked (usually banana for me) cake, singing along to your music and the sense of achievement you have just cannot be beaten!

It's like the feeling you get when you go for a walk on a cold, crisp, sunny day. Or when you wander outside and breath in the smell of a wet pavement and impending sping-time. Exhilarating!
Go on, you know you want to!

(No. It's not just me. I know it's not. I have friends who get even more excited by organising than I do! )

What a beautiful and lyrical description. I was walking last night through the village and the rain had heightend the smell of the pine trees so I just stood, like a wally, with my big dog in the middle of the park smelling the air.

Good to hear that the supervision was easier.

Jesthar

niccatw wrote: »

Oooh! Filing things away in an organised manner! One of my favourite things to do! A perfect excuse for new stationary type products and sitting all in a guddle in the middle of the living floor with your favourite music blasting out and getting stuck right into it. It's so concrete... all the differently ordered piles in the living room suddenly begin to disappear and then you feel really clever and can stand proudly and stare at your new filing cabinet (or boxes, in my case).

And if you've been baking a cake in the oven while you've been doing all of said filing, then a cuppa, a massive chunk of freshly baked (usually banana for me) cake, singing along to your music and the sense of achievement you have just cannot be beaten!

It's like the feeling you get when you go for a walk on a cold, crisp, sunny day. Or when you wander outside and breath in the smell of a wet pavement and impending sping-time. Exhilarating!
Go on, you know you want to!

(No. It's not just me. I know it's not. I have friends who get even more excited by organising than I do! )

Oh, I know I want to, I'm just an expert in procrastination! I'd love a sparkly clean and tidy house (although not in showhome style, those just look sterile, not lived in), but I keep thinking "I'll some cleaning tonight/tomorrow/this weekend" and then, well, guess...

I also have an awful tendancy to get distracted, or get bored and stop 3/4 of the way through - I guess I just love the thought of being organised more than the actual effort involved...

Hmm, baking a cake sounds nice, I would need a working oven first, though... Mine hasn't got up to temperature since I moved in (four years ago - it came with the house!), and as the hob works fine and I have a decent microwave and a slow cooker I haven't bothered to replace it yet as I've never really done much baking. Maybe this year or next, if the funds allow