Trying for a Baby part 5....

fantafan

sleepytiger wrote: »

Hey guys. OH and I have decided to give TTC a break until we can find a new house and have moved out of the city, so this month is probably our last try. EWCM last night, but OH was out and I was asleep. Too hungover this morning to BD (him, not me). Hopefully will manage later on but not holding out too much hope for a last gap BFP.

My heart is breaking.

Keep your pukka up Tiger. I reckon loads of people get pg when they're not trying as we'd be more relaxed. Remember your OH is with you and some people don't even have that. I always try and focus on people who are in a worse situation than me rather than those better off... may not be the best thing to do but am sure a night of Sport Relief makes for a good reality check.

I'm on CD6 and our attempt last night looked like something from hammer house of horrors!:rotfl:

Metranil_Vavin

(((Hugs))) Tiger

M it 3 - hope cycle 14 is the lucky one for you

Afternoon all. CD6 for today too. OH and our neighbour are out in the rain erecting (fnar) a new fence. I'm quite impressed actually as they have been out there for over 3 hours now ripping up the old one, and the weather reall is foul.

I should be doing something productive myself really, but cant be ar5ed!

Going out for a friends birthday this evening. The friend of mine who announced her pregnancy the other week will be there too. I know its mean, but I really dont want to hear about it at the moment.

twinklie

sleepytiger wrote: »

Hey guys. OH and I have decided to give TTC a break until we can find a new house and have moved out of the city, so this month is probably our last try. EWCM last night, but OH was out and I was asleep. Too hungover this morning to BD (him, not me). Hopefully will manage later on but not holding out too much hope for a last gap BFP.

My heart is breaking.

(((Hugs))) if you ever need a chat about putting it on hold then pm me. I've on a 2.5 year countdown and can TOTALLY understand the heartbreak feeling. I'm ok most of the time now, just occasionally I get VERY jealous and a bit weepy.

Fingers crossed you catch when least expecting it. xx

sleepytiger

Thanks guys and especially twinklie. its nice to know that there's someone to talk to who's going through the same thing. I know its not the end of the world - still got my OH, still relatively healthy, nobody is dead. It's just that I've wanted a child so badly for the last few years that now it physically hurts to look at at a child. I had to wait until I met the right man, and I have. Then I had to wait until we were both ready, and I did. And now I have to wait again. I'm in my 30s.. I'm conscious that my body isn't going to be able to do this forever, that my fertility has gone into freefall, and that my PCOS makes things more complicated. I know I can get pregnant, but as my last (and only) pregnancy ended in very early miscarriage that was probably down to hormone imbalance, I'm not sure that I can even carry to term. It just feels like its never going to happen and there will always be this child shaped hole in my life. And before anyone mentions adoption, I know. I just need to rant, and feel sad about this, and then I'll get on with my life and do what needs to be done.

fantafan

We are here with you Tiger. I had the right man from 18...just took him 12 years to propose! I didn't want to have a child out of marriage (I know old fashioned but I've the Catholic guilt bred in to me) and thought I'd have a year in wed then try thinking it'd be like booking an appointment at the hairdressers. If I'd have know it was so technical and emotionally demanding, I'd have got to know my body years ago.

I'm 3 years wed in August and am hopeful but being in my 30's and never been checked out other than a smear, I don't know if either of us our capable.

I wish we all get to realise our dreams. xxx

twinklie

Awww...sleepytiger rant away. You're entitled to have irrational moments (although I think your reaction is totally normal...it was pretty much the same one I had). I'll be in my early 30s before we start again, I've never even been pregnant, so I have no idea if I will catch. But I've decided to assume I'm ok.

We have talked about adoption if we can't have kids and have agreed we'd like to try. But I can't help but want to have my own. I think it's natural to want to do it (unless you never want kids - thats ok too).

I'm babbling now I realise, but I'm watching my boys playing Italy and I can't string a full thought together. I'm a tad worried that we are going to get beat and it's got my full attention. Sorry.

Metranil_Vavin

Yep I echo what everyone is saying. I was talking to my mum about it the other night, and before I met current OH, none of the guys I'd been involved with were the right one's to have kids with.

OH was married before he met me and I was in a 4 year live-in r'ship with my last b/f (who was 5 years younger than me)..so when we got together in 2006, it really was the earliest it could have happened due to our circumstances, but at that time I wasnt interested in kids.

Its only been since mid last year I'd say that I've wanted them. OH has always wanted kids, his ex had an abortion very early on in their r'ship when they were very young, which I think upset him greatly.

So..what I'm trying to say..in a very non-coherient way is dont beat yourself up about waiting. Fate plays a large hand in all this, I believe anyway.

And on age, I'm 37 in a few weeks so dont you young un's in your barely 30's be worrying!

Teenie_D

Hi everyone

Sorry a TMI question coming up

Last week when my DH and I DTD I was pretty sure I was either about to or was already ovulating. After a couple of days there was no cm and it was a bit dry down there but in the past couple of days there is loads of cm again! I have never taken notice of things like this before so don't know if this is normal or not. Anyone help?

sleepytiger

Thanks you lot. I dated so many disasterous men before I met OH, that when we got together I needed to wait a bit to make sure he was't suddenly going to turn into one :rotfl: He talks about when we get married all the time and calls me his betrothed, but he's never proposed. :rotfl:anyway, having your support and a shower has helped and feeling a bit better. its only a short break hopefully.

Dont worry about the tmi Teeny. Its my understanding that its normal to have a bit of cm as you get close to the time AF would be due. no harm in dtd again though, just to be sure

Metranil_Vavin

hahaha Tiger...some of the guys I've been out with..well...the least said the better!!! :rotfl:

I'm not feeling too bad today (a novelty)..going to go out tonight and have a few cheeky ones..make the most of not being preg! :beer: