depression

gillette147

EthelBloggs wrote:

hiya miro.. glad to see things are looking up for you

no sleep for me tonight.. d1ckhead is complaining and muttering away to himself, complaining about everything under the sun and daughter is doing her best to impersonate something out of a horror film - she's not done anything to warrant hospital treatment as yet but i'm going to have to be vigilant for the rest of the night

Ethel girlie xxx

I have been keeping my eye on you.
You are so brave dealing with your huge pile of poo.
You are in my thoughts and have my wishes.

PS
Get that arm thing sorted out (I know you've got an appointment soon).

xx

kronas

Miroslav wrote:

I won't change me

I'll take it slow. She knows i'm different, and i'm not going to do anything that will scare her away - not deliberately anyway

Hopefully we will have a good time tomorrow - "Employee of the Month"

you will be fine im sure!

confidence is key at this point, whatever happens just feel good about yourself, a wise person once told me if you dont feel good about yourself you show it to others and that can sometimes put people off from talking/approaching you, i dont mean be cocky or arrogant but smile a bit and be happy, think of things that make you happy or smile, it keeps you going through hard times and good.

:A

Miroslav

EthelBloggs wrote:

hiya miro.. glad to see things are looking up for you

no sleep for me tonight.. d1ckhead is complaining and muttering away to himself, complaining about everything under the sun and daughter is doing her best to impersonate something out of a horror film - she's not done anything to warrant hospital treatment as yet but i'm going to have to be vigilant for the rest of the night

Thanks I'm enjoying this before the inevitable disaster

Shame d!ckhead is still being a twit

Your daughter does sound a handful, very much like what 'S' used to be - a nightmare herself.

Hope you manage to get some sleep soon!

Miroslav

gillette147 wrote:

Started my ADs yesterday - they are hopefully going to reduce ear pain to stop headaches. But I did have headache most of yesterday and half of today.

4 weeks off - well i'm on the dole now so i'm just off :rotfl:

I will start my work search next week hopefully.

Thanks for asking lad.
:T

Hopefully the AD's will kick in soon and take the pain away!

Hope the Job Search goes well. Hope you find something not too stressful!

Miroslav

kronas wrote:

you will be fine im sure!

confidence is key at this point, whatever happens just feel good about yourself, a wise person once told me if you dont feel good about yourself you show it to others and that can sometimes put people off from talking/approaching you, i dont mean be cocky or arrogant but smile a bit and be happy, think of things that make you happy or smile, it keeps you going through hard times and good.

:A

We'll see. This is 'S' queen of the personality change.

The last few years, since my last g/f, who destroyed me, i've been very closed off. When I met 'S' I opened up, and found women falling at my feet everywhere I went. I was used to female attention, but this was totally different - ladies, not just unladylike females wanting a quick one around the back of Tesco (which I never gave! )

'S' likes it when I joke and be nice to her.

Everyone who knows me here, will know me as someone with low self esteem, and that is very true, but everyone who meets me, thinks I am really confident, as in real life I don't tend to share my feelings, apart from with my flatmate and counsellors etc - and they all think that my confidence is obvious, if sometimes it wanes. I can't help but be confident - I like who I am, I like my body, I like how I look - it's just 1 or 2 things I don't like - petty things like eyebrows :rotfl:

I'm damaged too, by my past, but people don't see it, because i'm big and burly and confident.

It's when I'm getting to know people properly I have trouble with - cos it's scary and I can't handle rejection when I really like someone.

Thanks to everyone for all their support with myself and 'S' - I appreciate I can be a pain at times - It's just my fears taking over my typing fingers - I let my heart do the typing rather than my head

EthelBloggs

gillette147 wrote:

Ethel girlie xxx

I have been keeping my eye on you.
You are so brave dealing with your huge pile of poo.
You are in my thoughts and have my wishes.

PS
Get that arm thing sorted out (I know you've got an appointment soon).

xx

Hey gilly

Hope that headache is gone now

I don't think im particulary brave, just I have to keep going because ppl depend on me don't they? so I've no choice.

Thank you for the thoughts n wishes... I've got the doctor on monday.. after I've been to uni and made excuses for not having my essay done even tho i've had 4 weeks off


He's leaving tomorrow, I told him that i will change the locks n get the police on him if needs be.. I can't take it anymore and somone posted a link in another thread which described him to a T and it scared the pants off me :eek: He dragged up all knds of old issues so he could make it my fault n rather than try to defend anything I just siad if it makes you feel better to blame everything on me that's fine, I really dont have the energy or the inclination to care anymore. We shall see what tomorow brings. I have to be out of the house by 7.30am so I wont be here to see if he keeps his word or not til later.

good luck with the job hunting, sorry for bad typing.. not got me specs or lenses in, lol

cya soon xx

elona

Ethel

Crossing fingers and toes that he goes and you have space to deal with issues.

Miro

Good luck with S.

Gillette

Hope the pain killers help and good luck with the job search

Tiff

((( saucer of milk?)))))):A

Miroslav

Morning everyone :wave:

Miro is not as confident as he was last night - he's very scared :eek:

'S' will likely run tonight and tell me she doesn't want to be with me, if she acts like I know she often can.

I'll try not to take it too personally - but I will and i'll see how I cope then.

Hope you all have a nice day, i'll be back and forth on here.

kronas

Miroslav wrote:

We'll see. This is 'S' queen of the personality change.

The last few years, since my last g/f, who destroyed me, i've been very closed off. When I met 'S' I opened up, and found women falling at my feet everywhere I went. I was used to female attention, but this was totally different - ladies, not just unladylike females wanting a quick one around the back of Tesco (which I never gave! )

'S' likes it when I joke and be nice to her.

Everyone who knows me here, will know me as someone with low self esteem, and that is very true, but everyone who meets me, thinks I am really confident, as in real life I don't tend to share my feelings, apart from with my flatmate and counsellors etc - and they all think that my confidence is obvious, if sometimes it wanes. I can't help but be confident - I like who I am, I like my body, I like how I look - it's just 1 or 2 things I don't like - petty things like eyebrows :rotfl:

I'm damaged too, by my past, but people don't see it, because i'm big and burly and confident.

It's when I'm getting to know people properly I have trouble with - cos it's scary and I can't handle rejection when I really like someone.

Thanks to everyone for all their support with myself and 'S' - I appreciate I can be a pain at times - It's just my fears taking over my typing fingers - I let my heart do the typing rather than my head

no problem just keep typing it sometimes can help, my self esteem is shot too so i know how that can feel, people are always saying im 'intelligent' and are suprised by my age for the way i talk, even though i can sometimes get in to conflicts because im pretty openminded, but there is no use changing who you are, i would kill to be in your position with ladies falling at my side (is that my bedside :rotfl: ) so you should consider yourself lucky, just get yourself in to a meaningful relationship, if it works out with 'S' then just give it your best shot, make sure she maintains her stability too as you noted the problems she faces, you just have to think about yourself sometimes before others, i learned that quickly and the hardway!

most of all good luck!

EthelBloggs

Well................ urggh

I've not had any sleep yet.. although i pretended i was sleeping in the armchair when he left this morning. Not sure whats gonna happen tonight yet.

Meeting at the hospital has been postponed til monday so I'm going to need rockets in my boots to get around town that day on my timetable, lol

still trying to get thru to various people, the advocacy thing, the CAB, and trying to gt the hospital to sort out some meds for my daughter for the weekend, else we'll never gt thru it