depression

EthelBloggs

Evenin all...... I'm knackered!!!!!!!

daughter is back in the clinic after another night in A & E. She decided to play butcher on her arms about 30 mins after the support worker left yesterday.

Friday night she decided to do a runner while i was sleeping and the police found her at nearly 4am at the start of the M1.. !!!! knows how she got there she had on pyjamas in the pouring rain.. it was freezing too

sooo.. im looking like a leaky panda - can barely keep my eyes open but i've got to produce a newsletter by tomorrow morning soo.. gonna try n do that before i go sleep.

Sorry i've not replied to everyone again.. I'llm ake up for it in the week.. promise

Tiffy.. she's got no official diagnosis, but she's anorexic, bulimic, psychotic, social phobic, paranoid, possibly schizophrenic (not confirmed yet) possibly depressed, and a whole list of other stuff i can't rmemeber, lol

mclaren_2

stenny wrote:

I thought the game was utter fish!
Celtic played crap and rangers played really good, thats why we could only hold down a draw:p
Remember Lennon also should have got a penalty as much as i hate the guy!!:mad:

I must admit (although it's left a bit late)
You can now see Rangers coming together after a slow start!

Hope you enjoyed yur day! :T

LOL - i do agree tho that we are starting to get ourself together but i feel it is a bit late. 16 points - too big a gap imo. I think we can do atleast the TC cup and i think we have a really good chance with UEFA cup - but we cant do league and were already out of the IC cup.

Loved the game tho - tho i felt like smacking gordon strachen cos he just wouldnt sit down lol

Horasio

Why did I see my husband just now?

I was enjoying the play and it showed some lovely scenes of Edinburgh. Got all relaxed. I went to see my husband to get his dirty crockery for the dishwasher after it finished.

I feel all jangly again. I feel attacked by him all the time and that he is trying to belittle me. He says !!!!!! comments about things I do and quite frankly I find it irritating. He can be witty but sometime he so gets it wrong!

We had a discussion with our son but I didn't feel it went very well. I told my husband we hadn't get anywhere. He took it as 'everything you do is total crap' and gave me a hard time due his thoughts and interpretations over what I said. I meant that that session wasn't as effective as it could have been and should try again. He certainly does a lot of things well. Men talk about women being touchy and seeing things in black and white, men are worse than women for overreacting over their own interpretation, yet they are quick to attack women for doing what they do!

He did get it right when he went and had a man to man/one to one. I was able to talk to him and say that I have been stressed by this house etc but his aggro didn't help. My husband kept interrupting us when I felt I was connecting with our son, which was annoying. It would have been better if I was floundering or when we had finished.

We need more respect in this house. OK we can feel crap but consideration and respect goes a long way, not just here but in the outside world.

I did get an apology for being pushed but it took some doing. He has to know whatever I did, got very angry at an attitude, I did not deserve being shoved, which broke the item I was carrying and left me with a big bruise on my arm. Men are unaware of their strength and that is why I abhor males hitting women. The other way round isn't good either.

I feel so stressed, it is not relaxing. I feel I am on eggshells when I am with them both. That is why I don't sleep well. I try to get the evening over pdq to get MY time.

I feel I am living with two immature kids. I feel so depressed and heavy now, and not in a nice way to get off to sleep either, no I feel too tense.

I am concerned about my son for his own sake but hate it when anything outside comes between me and my husband. He aggressively attacks me verbally and it brings me down.

Horasio

Sazbo wrote:

No bad thing CC hun, in my book:)

Yes felt better than normal this weekend and got loads of peace.

Felt quite silly today and laughed at things, such as the Tate Gallery image of the Queen, as shown on Jonathan Ross the other week. She looks like a Cabbage Patch Doll.

And misheards lyrics on songs:D

Miroslav

stenny wrote:

I agree with geminilady,
This does show some signs of schizophrenia with her laughing and talking to herself and signing her mum's names on card's etc.
I think it would be in the her best interest if someone could go alongside her to the doctors and telling them what's been happening.
I'm not a GP either, but if she was diagnosed schizophrenic then she can carry on leading a full happy life with having the proper medication.

She doesn't accept help and certainly would not accept someone going with her to the doctor.

As it is, when I try and help her, I have to do it in such a way, she thinks she is doing me a favour.

It's really scary though, I can't do much to help her, as she'll see me the way she sees everyone else if I 'tell her what to do'

She stamps her feet like a kid if you dare disagree with her

Horasio

stenny wrote:

Hi CCstar,

This is down to a T, i keep panicking knowing i cannot stop and have to carry on (motorway), If it's an A road you can pull over any time and jump out the car.
I think it may be due to the seat-belt as i am VERY claustrophobic although i'm the same on buses and aeroplanes, god help me as i have a 16 hour flight next month!! :eek: :eek:

How's the packing going hun?

My OH and I were having this discussion on the way down to Wakefield. He was OK on the A roads but hated the motorways.

Do you prefer to sit by the window or aisle on the plane?

The packing, slow but sure. Son is starting tomorrow

Miroslav

Sazbo wrote:

It's tricky, but I guess you'll have to play Thursday by ear? I mean, if S is expecting to see you that day, then if you cancel, even if it's in her best interests, then she might not take well to it? It might well be that come Thursday she might find it all too much anyway. So I know this isn't helpful, but all you can do is see how it goes...

Re local remembrance tree area - I'm not sure how that works, but sounds a lovely idea. I know you have a significant anniversary in January. Perhaps you could check out your local council's website and see if there's any info about it on there? Or else give them a call? They may have some alternative suggestions also. Sx

I will have to play it by ear, although i'm expecting her to cancel, almost certainly. However, I don't want to cancel her, as I want to be there for her if she needs me.

When she asked to borrow some money last week, that was a massive breakthrough. I may not get another for a while, but for someone who doesn't accept help, to ask for it, albeit money, is a massive breakthrough.

I may have to check the website........i'll probably not be able to afford it, but i'd like to do it for her, as i'm okay at the moment, whereas she is really bad.

It would give her a place to go, to remember her mother, so she didn't have to go on the bus to somewhere she hates, on her own, in fear. I'm hoping it would help her also, so she wouldn't talk to nothing

I do have a massive anniversary in January, sadly it lasts 4 days - from accident to hospital to death, and i'll be totally messed up then, then February is tough, with birthday and valentines day, then March is my mothers death.....tough 3 months ahead

Miroslav

CCStar wrote:

How did you survive at that age?

A lot of luck I suppose.

My girlfriend had just passed, my daughter was taken away, my English wasn't that good.............alot of luck.

But i'm still here.......just.

Miroslav

CCStar wrote:

Why did I see my husband just now?

I was enjoying the play and it showed some lovely scenes of Edinburgh. Got all relaxed. I went to see my husband to get his dirty crockery for the dishwasher after it finished.

I feel all jangly again. I feel attacked by him all the time and that he is trying to belittle me. He says !!!!!! comments about things I do and quite frankly I find it irritating. He can be witty but sometime he so gets it wrong!

We had a discussion with our son but I didn't feel it went very well. I told my husband we hadn't get anywhere. He took it as 'everything you do is total crap' and gave me a hard time due his thoughts and interpretations over what I said. I meant that that session wasn't as effective as it could have been and should try again. He certainly does a lot of things well. Men talk about women being touchy and seeing things in black and white, men are worse than women for overreacting over their own interpretation, yet they are quick to attack women for doing what they do!

He did get it right when he went and had a man to man/one to one. I was able to talk to him and say that I have been stressed by this house etc but his aggro didn't help. My husband kept interrupting us when I felt I was connecting with our son, which was annoying. It would have been better if I was floundering or when we had finished.

We need more respect in this house. OK we can feel crap but consideration and respect goes a long way, not just here but in the outside world.

I did get an apology for being pushed but it took some doing. He has to know whatever I did, got very angry at an attitude, I did not deserve being shoved, which broke the item I was carrying and left me with a big bruise on my arm. Men are unaware of their strength and that is why I abhor males hitting women. The other way round isn't good either.

I feel so stressed, it is not relaxing. I feel I am on eggshells when I am with them both. That is why I don't sleep well. I try to get the evening over pdq to get MY time.

I feel I am living with two immature kids. I feel so depressed and heavy now, and not in a nice way to get off to sleep either, no I feel too tense.

I am concerned about my son for his own sake but hate it when anything outside comes between me and my husband. He aggressively attacks me verbally and it brings me down.

Does your son do things deliberately knowing your husband will back him up?

And I don't like men hitting women either, in fact, I don't like anyone hitting anyone, and with my frame, I could do alot of damage, so people tend not to hit me.

All the more frustrating, when a girl I like is sometimes fearful of me because of some people who have hit her about in the past

Miroslav

Hopeless....

Tried looking on district and town council sites.....nothing

It's probably a poor idea for 'S', I just want to make things better for her