depression

Sazbo

Tiff wrote:

I'm truly sorry if I've upset anyone with this Tiff experience. Didn't mean to be such an emotional Tiff. Forgive me.:o
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Nothing to forgive Tiff - moved, not upset. Bless your heart xxx

Sazbo

CCStar wrote:

We are having a black Christmas

No lights, no tree, nothing.

We have put the cards up tho'

Me too, but that's the usual xmas practice in Saz Towers:rolleyes::).......

Sazbo

feelinggood wrote:

Heylo again guys
I've just had a big, emotional talk with OH (could call it a row really) and he said something that I needed him to say to help me move on with my life.
One thing I've been worrying about, is that by leaving, I'll make him miserable. He told me today that I make him miserable now. So, I can't really upset him anymore, so I don't need to feel guilty about that.
I've decided to spend a week or so at my Parents house - I need space away from him to clear my head and allow myself to be a little happier.
The plan moves forward.
I am leaving him. Will get on to the IB people and sort that out.
I will carry on with my treatment even though OH doesn't want me to.
I will talk about my problems, even though he tells me not to.
I will be happy.
I've had a few very low days lately, and I'm feeling a little annoyed with the lack of help I've recieved, not only from my GP, but from other sources (Gave up waiting at A&E as I didn't get to see anyone). But, I'll carry on with it - need to go back to the doctors tomorrow to get more tablets as I'll be away over xmas.
I'm feeling okay now, I'm finally feeling 'safe' again, which is a tremendous relief, most of the thoughts and urges are past, so I feel that I can be back around you guys again.
I'm sorry for going, I hope you understand that I did it for your own sakes, and I hope no one worried - but its not a good idea for me to be posting when I'm in that danger zone.
I'm still a little unhappy, I'm still a little low, but I'm feeling hopeful. I know what needs to be done, I've just got to do it!
I'm probably heading back up north on Monday, and I'm unlikely to be online very much, but I will be thinking of you all, and happy xmas to those who are having xmas, and just have a good day on that day to all of you who aren't celebrating this year. But anyways, I'm here till I leave, so I'll say this all again.
I also want to take this opportunity to say a huge Thank You to everyone who's helped me through this time, its been a very upsetting, very stressful and very scary time, and its helped me more than I can describe knowing that I'm not alone. I'm very happy that I don't have to walk this road alone any more
Thats that, I will shut up now.
Oh, and one last thing - today is my 20th day without smoking or drinking!

Feelie hun - you're sounding positive and focused. Which is wonderful. You've come such a long way, but as you say you are not alone on your journey - we're always here for you. Have a wonderful xmas, but we'll be in touch before Monday. Much love, Sazxx

Sazbo

CCStar wrote:

I need to get rid of what is bugging me.

You're nearly there CC hun, you will get there. Hugs, saz xxx

Sazbo

mclaren wrote:

Well every1 - hi.

I went to docs, and i told him everything including the part where i couls ee myself jump out the window. Was suprised i done it.

He said that he would give me some Mirtazapine, and i have to go back in a week to see how things are, and if things are good on it, can up the dosage.

Only thing was i felt very very low when i was walking in to docs and my anxiaty was through the roof

Least i have something that can help me now i hope

Hiya mac - all sounds good, you're on the path now to getting things together, getting well. Perhaps opening up about it for the first time is the hardest part? Well done you. Love Saz xx

blinky

mclaren wrote:

Well every1 - hi.

I went to docs, and i told him everything including the part where i couls ee myself jump out the window. Was suprised i done it.

He said that he would give me some Mirtazapine, and i have to go back in a week to see how things are, and if things are good on it, can up the dosage.

Only thing was i felt very very low when i was walking in to docs and my anxiaty was through the roof

Least i have something that can help me now i hope

I'm on Mirtazapine as well. Not sure when you your GP told you to take it but I take it at night and it does help me to sleep a bit better.

blinky

Sazbo wrote:

No of course not! He never turned up. And just to cap what had been a truly nightmarish week's "holiday" for me - I realise today I mislaid a debit card in a shop on tuesday and someone found it and has been using it fraudulently. I can't take much more. Hope you're all ok. I will read back your posts later when I've calmed down a bit.

Love,
Saz x

Sorry to hear you're having a bad time, hun. Hope you get the card sorted out.

My boss dropped me in it at work. He forgot to do something so I had to run round after I was supposed to leave to sort it :mad: :mad: :mad:

Missing 'R' terribly tonight

Big hugs to all

Sazbo

blinky wrote:

Sorry to hear you're having a bad time, hun. Hope you get the card sorted out.

My boss dropped me in it at work. He forgot to do something so I had to run round after I was supposed to leave to sort it :mad: :mad: :mad:

Missing 'R' terribly tonight

Big hugs to all

Thanks blinky hunnie x Hopefully card will get sorted... Why are bosses so sh1te?! Aww can understand you missing R when things have been going so well - when are you seeing her again? Sx

blinky

Sazbo wrote:

Thanks blinky hunnie x Hopefully card will get sorted... Why are bosses so sh1te?! Aww can understand you missing R when things have been going so well - when are you seeing her again? Sx

Generally he's not bad but he's so disorganised and forgetful. It's not the first time I've had to pull him out of the sh*t. :mad: Left one thing for him to sort, I spotted a mistake in a report he's responsible for and it's given to the customer so it needs to be right. I know he hasn't reported the error. :mad:

Seeing 'R' on Sunday night and Tuesday night :j :happyhear

Horasio

blinky wrote:

Big hugs to you CCStar

Hit him where it hurts. No money, no presents for Christmas.

I have wrapped a liitle pressie already and hubby had bought the main pressie already. I wish he would send it back or give it to me.

If I could have my own way, I would cancel his Sky and make him pay for his contact lenses.

I have my family against me tho' - little by little getting them to agree with me. But this wouldn't have got so bad if they had been more supportive in the beginning.