depression

feelinggood_2

Oh rose sweetie, hope you are feeling okay.
I'm thinking about you alot, sending you lots and lots of positive vibes x x x x x

Sazbo

rose07 wrote:

im not good,

i had an 'episode' today huni, my personal nurse had to come sit with me.

how are you?

I'm sorry to hear that rose. But good you have a personal nurse and that she's looking out for you. It won't all come right straight away, I dearly wish that it would, there will be hard times hun, but you're doing so well, really you are. xxx

blinky

Tiff wrote:

Hi blinky :hello:
Absolutely. Completely. Totally.
But there again, this is Tiff you're talking to!:dance:
First things first hun - here's a Tiff hug to keep you going.....

http://images.google.co.uk/images?q=tbn:7iasWdpXoEE7aM:http://leisureguy.wordpress.com/files/2006/07/hug.jpg

Blinky, it's natural to feel the way you are as I'm sure all the brilliant people on this thread have already told you. Sometimes you dare to dream, you're lucky enough to see a spark, your approach is successful and you think ''Why would they bother with me? This can't last! It's too good to be true.'' the answer to that my friend is, ''Why not?''

Try and remember that your relationship with 'r' is not brand new - the lady knows about your situation, cares about you and wants to be with you, so you haven't got to go through the whole 'what do I tell her?' part. She already knows and wants you as you are.
That, hun, is something precious.;) :j

I suspect that maybe the low you're feeling comes because of the natural high you're experiencing with r...you have to come down a little from any kind of high & that's when you get edgy and worried. I think you've just got a little stage fright hun - again natural.:o There are bound to be low days, like any other relationship, so try not to let that frighten you. You'll also have low days because of your illness - but the trick there is to learn how to recognize them coming and learn how to manage those days and not let them manage you! They will come angel - but they'll go too!

It is wise, Tiff thinks :rolleyes: , not to put all of yourself into one relationship. Enjoy it for whatever it will be, wherever it will take you and open up other horizons, step by step, and see what you can achieve. You're building a realtionship with r successfully and you can do other things successfully. The really good news angel is that you've got time on your side.;)

I can't promise you it's going to be easy or a happy ever after hun - no-one gets that promise -but wouldn't it be a tragedy if you never tried to find out? And if r isn't ''The One'', , you'll already have a life in place to keep you going, because you'll have explored different opportunities, be it work, college or whatever. Give it time, let it grow and enjoy it hun...a day at a time. You deserve to be loved as much as anyone else.
Much Love
Tiff xxx

Thank you for your lovely post. :T I am still scared that I'll f**k things up, although I cannot believe how well things are going which I think is scaring me a bit. As I've said before it's been a long time since I've been with someone and I'd forgotten what it's like. I don't know if she's 'the one' - it's far, far, far too early for that, but she could be and I want us to continue doing well together. I just can't get over the nagging doubt that she will find someone better as I don't feel I'm good enough for her. I know her feelings for me are growing stronger though.

I know she's a bit scared too - it's been a while for her too and she's got used to her singleton life.

Sazbo wrote:

Well I wholeheartedly agree with that sentiment.... :T
More (((BIG HUGS))) for Blinky. How are you feeling? Sxxx

I'm tired. Still another 20 minutes at work Will probably need some hugs later.

Milo - good to hear from you. I find it difficult often to find the right words too

Thank you all for your support today. Will be back online later.

Sazbo

blinky wrote:

I'm tired. Still another 20 minutes at work Will probably need some hugs later.

Milo - good to hear from you. I find it difficult often to find the right words too

Thank you all for your support today. Will be back online later.

OK, hugs lined up for later x

blinky

rose07 wrote:

im not good,

i had an 'episode' today huni, my personal nurse had to come sit with me.

how are you?

rose07

feelinggood wrote:

Oh rose sweetie, hope you are feeling okay.
I'm thinking about you alot, sending you lots and lots of positive vibes x x x x x

thanks feelie

im not too ok if im honest hun, im not realli eating as much as i should, but dont tell tiff

and my moods are alot worse and today i had my episode and my personal nurse was like ok arrghhh. :rotfl:

this afternoon i spent my time curled up in a ball on the floor, coz the pain is soooo much hun, and no one can see it. the pain hurts soo much, and i got no control on what it might do, and huni it scary. very scary.

im thinking about you all alot hun, and sending hugs and love xxx

rose07

blinky wrote:

thank you blinky :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: xxx

rose07

Sazbo wrote:

Hi rosie! Good to hear from you. Inspite of what you're going through you're sounding quite positive, which is great. Sounds like you're achieving things and enjoying some things too - like the art therapy. And good on you cleaning the bath - I daren't tell you the last time I did mine properly.... any chance you... oh never mind! :D:D And good on your doctors being so proactive.

Enjoy dinner hun, wish I was having waffles and cheese for dinner! Sounds fab And ya better clean ya plate hun coz I'll be getting Tiffy to check and you don't want the tiffy eye on you, believe me!

You're doing great hun, keep it up ok?

Much love,
Sazzy xxx

hi saz huni, i always love posts from you, you know what to say, infact everyone does. . well my personal nurse is telling me to think positive im sure that a tiffy thing, hhhmmmm, so im trying soo hard at the moment. oh i love the art therapy, , but it not on till thursday again. i have OT soon tho, dunno when, and tomorrow morning my councellor that referred me is coming to see me, so yeyeyeyey a friendly face. i know i get let out at night but its only to my parents care, as they dont have beds. so its can get realli carp being there all the time.
oh the bath was horrible, and you never guess what it dirty again already, wish people would have some sense.

oh i cleaned my plate last night hun, just today i havent realli eaten, that hospital food is yuk, plus i keep being/feeling sick, and getting stomach and chest pains so it kinda puts you off

hope you ok huni xxx

Sazbo wrote:

I'm sorry to hear that rose. But good you have a personal nurse and that she's looking out for you. It won't all come right straight away, I dearly wish that it would, there will be hard times hun, but you're doing so well, really you are. xxx

yeah it good i have a personal nurse, she is mad tho saz hun, she has red hair is bout 50 and mad. she goes mwa ha ha ha, and hehehehe. today we were having a chat and she was talking about her kids and herself, but that is prob so i feel comfy and talk. but now the mad woman wants me to look in a mirror and say to myself 'im a nice person', erm hello!!! she wants me to talk to myself ???

i hope you ok saz huni xxx

rose07

Tiff wrote:

Good Morning Guys!
Hope all is well with you all.
Huge Tiff Hugs to rose, saz, flis, cc, elona, ethel, blinky, fg, welsh, gemini, beer, bunnie, mrs a, miro, betty, ruby ... and anyone who knows me. I'd like to thank... oops! wrong speech! :rotfl:

Rose - I haven't forgotten about you angel. I'll be writing an essay later on answering your qusetions about hospital hun. You should ask your nurse about getting a welcome/information pack. I'm proud of you rosie - we all are!:T

yey a tiff essay :j :j

yeah tiff i just wanna know everything bout your experience of it hun, hope that ok?

there a schizophenic on the ward, like you would expect i have got quite used to her now, she a mad thing, but she ok. i seem to mix well round them :rotfl: , ha i fit right in more like.

oh tiff i have made a friend she called kirsty, she is lovely huni, we are both the same, same kinda point, ya know? and we are the same age, she was in tears today, so i went and gave her a hug she said i was a sweet thing. so you better not eat me tiff, i know you and miro have sweet tooths

the guy is still scaring me. he keeps saying things to me!!!! lalalalalalalalala

oh hun what does levels mean, kirsty was saying she has moved to the next level what that mean?

oh it soo nice to have ya proud of me , means alot hun

for you all to be here and to know you all means alot, you are all lovely people and if anyone tells you different, they are well wrong!!!!

remember to tell me tiff, about your days in hospital, dont forget about me huni, i need my tiffy xxx

much love huni xxx

Sazbo

rose07 wrote:

yeah it good i have a personal nurse, she is mad tho saz hun, she has red hair is bout 50 and mad. she goes mwa ha ha ha, and hehehehe. today we were having a chat and she was talking about her kids and herself, but that is prob so i feel comfy and talk. but now the mad woman wants me to look in a mirror and say to myself 'im a nice person', erm hello!!! she wants me to talk to myself ???

i hope you ok saz huni xxx

Rosie you do make me laugh The mad red-headed nurse that goes "mwa ha ha ha" ! That really made me smile. But I just want to say - there ain't nuthin' wrong with talking to ya self - heck, I do it all the time! I say give it a go, will def. feel wierd at first, see how you get on. And make sure you eat something tonight or I'll tell Tiff and we'll get even more bizarre smileys - so don't say you weren't warned rosie, ok? You take care, Saz x