depression

Miroslav

Sazbo wrote:

It a bit of a tough one to call when I don't know her. Maybe leave it till tomorrow - it'll be just as nice a gesture tomorrow. It does sound as though she needs a longish time in between steps for her to digest what it is she's said to you or decided. As someone else said it does require superhuman patience from you - only you can judge if that's something you want to give. Wish I could make it easier for you xx

I will leave it until tomorrow I guess

I don't know what's going on here, I will be there for her whenever, I just don't like the huge gaps

I miss her big blue eyes, her smile, her laugh, her sweetness, she's just adoreable, and horrible people have made her this way.

I just hope one day all the patience will pay off.

It would be bad for my health to have a 'romance' with her, but then we all do things bad for our health. I'd like to be given the option, but I never know where she is at. I just want to protect her, but it's almost impossible for anyone to get in.

I have come so far in such a short time, but things are getting harder now, she's getting worse and i'm scared for her

Miroslav

rose07 wrote:

thank you, i am trying

it just sooo hard, and one of the patients was talking about his mate who had rap*d a young girl, i got worse, they should have a sign saying, i dunno, dont talk bout this and that.

parents doing my head in, my dads force feeding me, which is awful, and my mum is giving me such a hard time.

i know its good to have things out in the open
and my personal nurse makes sense but its not dealing with my emotional pain, its all i have heard before, think positive do this do that. i dont wanna f**kin do it. !!!!

god im sounding soo bad, but when you been inside alll day pacing and just looking out a window its frustrating, and then i come home to a stressful environment.

sooo hard.

yeah you know i think you are all great

xxx

It would make me worse to go to a place like that.

Do you have to go there? Do you think it will be beneficial?

Miroslav

rose07 wrote:

i dont wanna take them,

Do they not cancel each other out? Interact with each other negatively?

It's alot of tablets for one person to take!

Sazbo

rose07 wrote:

thank you, i am trying

it just sooo hard, and one of the patients was talking about his mate who had rap*d a young girl, i got worse, they should have a sign saying, i dunno, dont talk bout this and that.

parents doing my head in, my dads force feeding me, which is awful, and my mum is giving me such a hard time.

i know its good to have things out in the open
and my personal nurse makes sense but its not dealing with my emotional pain, its all i have heard before, think positive do this do that. i dont wanna f**kin do it. !!!!

god im sounding soo bad, but when you been inside alll day pacing and just looking out a window its frustrating, and then i come home to a stressful environment.

sooo hard.

yeah you know i think you are all great

xxx

It's understandable you getting frustrated, unfortunately complexed emotional things don't get fixed overnight hun - LOL I wish they did!! Think how long they've taken their toll and it takes as long if not longer to undo all that, y'know hun? If it's possible, try and separate out your feelings from what you hear from other patients, it must be really hard hearing that stuff but just try to keep it at arms length, if you know what I mean? Try and be patient rosie, you're doing so well xx

Sazbo

rose07 wrote:

i dont wanna take them,

Now don't say that hun. You better keep taking them or Tiff will be on ya case!

Miroslav

Sazbo wrote:

Now don't say that hun. You better keep taking them or Tiff will be on ya case!

:shhh: :think:

rose07

Miroslav wrote:

It would make me worse to go to a place like that.

Do you have to go there? Do you think it will be beneficial?

its making me worse, but i dunno maybe thats just the way it is. wish i could bring my baby with me, i miss her.

i reckon i have to miro, its what the dr ordered as it were, so yeah, and i have signed me life away as it were so now yeah i have to go for my own safety and health more than anything, its bad, but if it helps in the long term then ok.

i hope it will be beneficial
the truth is it can depend on what nurses are in, as to whether i get help or not, as there are some at the moment that just are soo not botherd. and then the patients say things to me like, i have been here for months and i still not better, and they are not helping me, or giving me the right meds, so it gets me soo confused.

Sazbo

Miroslav wrote:

I just hope one day all the patience will pay off.

I hope so too - hate the thought of your heart being broken (as do you obviously! ) over this. But I'd still say there is much to be optimistic about - let's not forget she's decided to stay. You never know hun, it could all come good for you... xx

Miroslav

rose07 wrote:

its making me worse, but i dunno maybe thats just the way it is. wish i could bring my baby with me, i miss her.

i reckon i have to miro, its what the dr ordered as it were, so yeah, and i have signed me life away as it were so now yeah i have to go for my own safety and health more than anything, its bad, but if it helps in the long term then ok.

i hope it will be beneficial
the truth is it can depend on what nurses are in, as to whether i get help or not, as there are some at the moment that just are soo not botherd. and then the patients say things to me like, i have been here for months and i still not better, and they are not helping me, or giving me the right meds, so it gets me soo confused.

Well, keep at it, and keep posting here! Every little helps.

Any of the nurses you get on better with?

rose07

Miroslav wrote:

Do they not cancel each other out? Interact with each other negatively?

It's alot of tablets for one person to take!

its seems not i have asked the doctor and they say it should be fine
oh i forgot to say 4 of them are antibiotics for me throat so, not 10 mad manic tablets
i hate taking tablets