depression

Horasio

feelinggood wrote:

Well, its official
I am at the complete bottom, I cannot go any lower.
If it is the same as last time, this will last about 2 months, and then I can get better, yay.
I'm on my 3rd drink, its numbing things a bit. I just can't deal with all this at once you know? I'm looking forward to when I can leave OH and start afresh, be myself, be able to get better. Fingers crossed I'll be able to leave soon.
Hope you are all okay tonight.
CCstar, still manic?
Rose - are you okay sweets?

Sorry to hear you are feeling rock bottom. I don't tend to look at the alcohol thread, maybe they are having bad patches. I am no expert in alcohol issues so maybe I am wrong.

I don't hate you either and you are a valuable member of this forum. Talking to you has helped me no end.

feelinggood_2

Just let you know I'm okay.
Take care ccstar xxx

Horasio

I have sneaked a look at the alcohol thread.

I don't want to get into disputes about it with them or with anyone on here, including you.

The atmosphere is quite male and direct on there. As I say, I'm no expert about AA or anything. This thread is more feminine and understanding.

I don't take kindly to rough and harsh treatment from people (what I consider harsh to me, we are all different). I am direct though and hope I haven't hurt you with my kickass reply today.

I got into a dispute on another site when soliciting sympathy and got attacked. I don't feel they were as harsh on the other thread on this forum, as I got on the other site but understand their approach didn't suit you. I don't think they hate you, I think it is their approach. Some people give 'tough love'.

You sound similar to me - if someone seems harsh, you run away and hide. If someone appears more caring and constructive you can move on.

Don't give up

rose07

oke doke hope your all ready for a bit of a rosie essay

Firstly you guys, miro, saz, ccstar, flis, tiff feelinggood, elona, geminilady, blinky, all of ya, you know who you are.

Ok miro huni, i am glad that 'S' isnt going away now, this is a positive ok, so keep thinking that way, she obviously realised that she shouldnt leave. and i am sure you mighta had something to do with it, as hun when we are truly in love with someone, if we leave them, if we let them go, we regret it forever hun, so come on miro, get some smarties in ya, and be gald she is staying, give it time hun. xxx

Ethel, hiya, just wanna say i hope you ok hun.
i think its our hearts that tell us what to do huni, so with this b/f (hope i got that right?), of yours, i think you will find the answer in your heart, sometimes we know what we should do, but we dont always follow it through, us humans can be mighty stubborn (and im very stubborn )
oh can you Pm me whatever everyone is laughing at? , you will fingd the answer within yourself hun, way up pros and cons if you have to.
i was in a very stressful relationship hun, that was very hard emotionally, it broke me in two, but now i am realising that it was prob best thing my ex did was split up with me as the relationship was sooo intense. we went out for 2 years doesnt seem like long, but i was sooo in love with them, and wanted to be with them forever, but sometimes if when we are hurting sooo much from something or someone, the best thing to do is cut yourself off from the pain as it could get worse. but as i say its whats in your heart huni xxx

CCStar, elona, geminilady, i hope you are all ok, you all contribute alot to this board so keep it up. and keep yourselfs going xxx

Blinky, hi hun, i have something for you :grouphug: , hehe, thought i would give you a taste of your own medicine, now can i ave one?
and how are you doing at the moment? hows work? xxx

Feelinggood, hi hun, sounds like you are pretty bad at the moment, and i want you to know i understand, drinking helps dont it hun?:rolleyes: , it numbs the pain, and makes things go away for a little, but i dunno if you get what i get but when i get sobre everything hits me twice as hard, then you fall to your knees. its like shooting yourself in the foot hun. you have gotta fight this hun, i know it easier said than done trust me i am going through it all right now but i am here for you huni, i am not going anywhere, and i do love ya, so your not hated ok? it is normal to feel how you are feeling, it is ok, and we are all here urging you on, you can do it hun, i have faith in you huni xxx

Saz ok hun, how are you doing? been reading you having a tough time of it lately, i hope you not too bad, and i hope your pain is ok tonight, saz you are a strong wise thing, and you will get through this we are all here for you, you put soo much in here, but dont forget to talk about yourself hun or i might have to get the tiffster or me wellies xxx

Ok tiff i got something for you too
:grouphug::grouphug::grouphug:BIG HUG ALERT :grouphug: :grouphug::grouphug:

thinking of you


ok so prob time for me to tell you about me :rolleyes:
ok i have had a manic 2 days, yesterday i seen a central referral team (thanks tiff :kisses3: ), i seen a psychiatrist, have been put on antidepressants, sleeping tablets, and i have to go up to the hospital each day for day care and to be monitored. i go all day between 10 and 6, and tomorrow i get to do relaxation.
my personal nurse is soo harsh, yeah harded than tiff x, when i said i havent eaten in a while she was practically forcing food down me throat, :rotfl: , god she is a hard woman, till she pointed out she only has my best interests at heart, hhhmmm ok i believe you.

the ward is pretty scary tho, there are some absolutely mad people, mad, mad, mad. but they are alright, i just keep thinking one of them is going to stab me or something :eek: :rotfl:

i have lost me job though, i got a phone call yesterday saying it wasnt working out, they havent given me a proper reason, and i am very angry at the moment. i am wondering if i can fight them, but i dont really have the energy, its even a struggle just to get up in the morning.

My parents now know about whats going on and all i can hear them doing is shouting so nothings changed

I was wanna say to you all tho that i hope you all realise just how much you have helped me, as you all know i am not in a good place at the moment, and i come here for support, well if this support wasnt here i may not be here right now, seems quite dramatic that dont it, but i just wanna get across to you all how much this board does help and does keep us going, you have given me hope, and some of you have given me inspiration, and now i am getting the help i need, it is all soo scary and new, but i will get there. the real rosie will be back. so thank you everyone, from the bottom of my heart you all have a place there, and keep talking. i am not going anywhere. so want to see you all talking as much as possible. this board is amazing and i have met so many great people, you are all strong, and we understand how each other feel. and we have a good team here and it keeps growing
so thanks and keep it up xxx

and we can do it, we are fighters, just remember the baby steps tiff has taught us and if we want to get better we will xxx

im sure there is something i have forgotten but i am soo exhausted of the last two days i cant remember
much love to you all
thinking of you all always
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Miroslav

Is it just my PC, or has blinky bust the thread with his hugs :rotfl:

Miroslav

Sazbo wrote:

Hiya Miro hun. So glad to hear you feeling happy, you deserve it :j Have a good day Sxx

I'm never sure when she's going to burst that happiness. She hasn't replied to my note or chocolate, so maybe today is another down day........hey, she didn't even respond to my text reply again

Remain positive Miro......

Miroslav

rose07 wrote:

Ok miro huni, i am glad that 'S' isnt going away now, this is a positive ok, so keep thinking that way, she obviously realised that she shouldnt leave. and i am sure you mighta had something to do with it, as hun when we are truly in love with someone, if we leave them, if we let them go, we regret it forever hun, so come on miro, get some smarties in ya, and be gald she is staying, give it time hun. xxx

It is a positive, and I really hope I had some part in her staying. I want her to like me and care for me.

I've had 2 jaffa cakes as a celebration

Nice to see you posting. Always good to hear from you, as everyone will agree

Hope you are coping right now, through this tough period.

You need to find out why you lost your job, you have rights!

Sazbo

Rosie hun, bless your heart. You are so strong, look how well you are doing. You are a brilliant inspiration to all of us - keep it going, you are so brave. We need our rose essays, so stay with us, and post whenever you can. But stay focused on what you're doing, which is getting yourself well and happy. Continue on the good path Tiffy has helped you find. We all want the best for you, take care and good luck hun. We're here for you. Much love, Sazzy xxxx

Sazbo

Miroslav wrote:

Is it just my PC, or has blinky bust the thread with his hugs :rotfl:

Yeah, blinky hun - ya bust our thread with ya w-i-d-e smileys! Altho' for some reason it bust it on me work PC but not me laptop at home?! xx

Miroslav

Well, we waited 3 hours, but builders never came back

Still not finished tiling in bathroom, so they will have to come back Monday with the kitchen floor people. We couldn't wait any longer today, not knowing, so we went Xmas shopping. Got 'S' some more Chocolate for her Xmas stocking, and got 4 Britney calendars at £1 each

Very tired, off to bed shortly. Flatmate is meeting 'S' tomorrow, so will be worried all afternoon as flatmate is going to try and fish for what 'S' thinks of me.