depression

Sazbo

Miroslav wrote:

I'm never sure when she's going to burst that happiness. She hasn't replied to my note or chocolate, so maybe today is another down day........hey, she didn't even respond to my text reply again

Remain positive Miro......

I can understand the frustration when she doesn't respond, but think how far things have come, sweetheart. Did you ever think she would say "I'm staying"? and that is not me saying to you "be grateful" or any bullS like that, just that it seems as tho she needs to work through things in her own time, at her own pace, does that make any sense? Which is frustrating for you of course, but slowly, slowly catchy monkey... Sxxxx

Sazbo

Miroslav wrote:

Well, we waited 3 hours, but builders never came back

Still not finished tiling in bathroom, so they will have to come back Monday with the kitchen floor people. We couldn't wait any longer today, not knowing, so we went Xmas shopping. Got 'S' some more Chocolate for her Xmas stocking, and got 4 Britney calendars at £1 each

Very tired, off to bed shortly. Flatmate is meeting 'S' tomorrow, so will be worried all afternoon as flatmate is going to try and fish for what 'S' thinks of me.

Miro hun, are you going to have a Britney calender in every room? Try not to worry about tomorrow too much, IMHO it all seems to be going ok at the moment... Sweet dreams Mr Miro xxx

Miroslav

Sazbo wrote:

I can understand the frustration when she doesn't respond, but think how far things have come, sweetheart. Did you ever think she would say "I'm staying"? and that is not me saying to you "be grateful" or any bullS like that, just that it seems as tho she needs to work through things in her own time, at her own pace, does that make any sense? Which is frustrating for you of course, but slowly, slowly catchy monkey... Sxxxx

Oh, I'm delighted at how far we have come.

When flatmate told me that she was emotional about my song on the phone, like she was holding back tears, and she tells us she is staying, the day she receives my song, that makes me feel good, that it means something to her!

It's frustrating when she doesn't respond, and it is her issues, but i'm determined to get inside the barriers.

If I don't try i'll never know

Slowly catchy monkey?

You people are trying to make me go mad :rotfl:

Miroslav

Sazbo wrote:

Miro hun, are you going to have a Britney calender in every room? Try not to worry about tomorrow too much, IMHO it all seems to be going ok at the moment... Sweet dreams Mr Miro xxx

I have 9 in total now, 2 different designs I never open them, I have so much Britney memorabillia

I will worry, but hey, I wouldn't be me otherwise.

Hope your day has been okay?

I have my final (hopefully) assessment tomorrow at 4.30

Have a nice sleep :wave:

Sazbo

Miroslav wrote:

It's frustrating when she doesn't respond, and it is her issues, but i'm determined to get inside the barriers.

If I don't try i'll never know

I think you're doing a good job of getting inside the barriers... yes exactly, so here's another one for you - "A faint heart never won a fair maid" :rotfl:

Miroslav wrote:

Slowly catchy monkey?

You people are trying to make me go mad :rotfl:

Correct! :beer: :j

Sxx

Sazbo

Miroslav wrote:

I have my final (hopefully) assessment tomorrow at 4.30

Have a nice sleep :wave:

You too :wave: good luck with assessment x

Miroslav

Sazbo wrote:

I think you're doing a good job of getting inside the barriers... yes exactly, so here's another one for you - "A faint heart never won a fair maid" :rotfl:



Correct! :beer: :j

Sxx

So far it's going okay. I just want her to give in to my charms She really is lovely

That is a saying? I shall remember it I know "Fortune favours the brave"

I'm already mad, so a little more from you lot won't push me too far.........maybe I can get to 'S' level :rotfl:

EthelBloggs

Evenin all

I feel a bit weird.. sort of disoriented and zonked out.. fell asleep on the kitchen table earlier this afternoon.. I don't think that helped somehow I'm getting a bit worried.. noticed myself ignoring the phone and knocks at the door too.. I got like that a few years ago and it ended up really bad.. the house is a squalid mess and I'm not much better.. I just hope its not the start of a slippery slope again

Sazbo

EthelBloggs wrote:

Evenin all

I feel a bit weird.. sort of disoriented and zonked out.. fell asleep on the kitchen table earlier this afternoon.. I don't think that helped somehow I'm getting a bit worried.. noticed myself ignoring the phone and knocks at the door too.. I got like that a few years ago and it ended up really bad.. the house is a squalid mess and I'm not much better.. I just hope its not the start of a slippery slope again

Ethel hun - it's entirely understandable, think of everything you've had on your plate - your daughter, college work, Happy Harry, recovering your stuff that was stolen - that's a huge burden for anyone, so it's not surprising you're feeling tired, zonked etc. You can only do so much. My place is a mess too, but it's just a case of devoting energies to what's important at the time, ie you, y'know? Sxxx

geminilady

rose07 wrote:

oke doke hope your all ready for a bit of a rosie essay



ok so prob time for me to tell you about me :rolleyes:
ok i have had a manic 2 days, yesterday i seen a central referral team (thanks tiff :kisses3: ), i seen a psychiatrist, have been put on antidepressants, sleeping tablets, and i have to go up to the hospital each day for day care and to be monitored. i go all day between 10 and 6, and tomorrow i get to do relaxation.
my personal nurse is soo harsh, yeah harded than tiff x, when i said i havent eaten in a while she was practically forcing food down me throat, :rotfl: , god she is a hard woman, till she pointed out she only has my best interests at heart, hhhmmm ok i believe you.

the ward is pretty scary tho, there are some absolutely mad people, mad, mad, mad. but they are alright, i just keep thinking one of them is going to stab me or something :eek: :rotfl:

i have lost me job though, i got a phone call yesterday saying it wasnt working out, they havent given me a proper reason, and i am very angry at the moment. i am wondering if i can fight them, but i dont really have the energy, its even a struggle just to get up in the morning.

My parents now know about whats going on and all i can hear them doing is shouting so nothings changed

I was wanna say to you all tho that i hope you all realise just how much you have helped me, as you all know i am not in a good place at the moment, and i come here for support, well if this support wasnt here i may not be here right now, seems quite dramatic that dont it, but i just wanna get across to you all how much this board does help and does keep us going, you have given me hope, and some of you have given me inspiration, and now i am getting the help i need, it is all soo scary and new, but i will get there. the real rosie will be back. so thank you everyone, from the bottom of my heart you all have a place there, and keep talking. i am not going anywhere. so want to see you all talking as much as possible. this board is amazing and i have met so many great people, you are all strong, and we understand how each other feel. and we have a good team here and it keeps growing
so thanks and keep it up xxx

and we can do it, we are fighters, just remember the baby steps tiff has taught us and if we want to get better we will xxx

im sure there is something i have forgotten but i am soo exhausted of the last two days i cant remember
much love to you all
thinking of you all always
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Hi Rose thanks for posting,we were all wondering how you were doing.Sorry to hear about your job its the last thing you need when you are going through so much.I am sure you can fight them they cannot just finish you like that.You can take them to a tribunel when you are fealing better.As a fairly new poster i don't know anything about your parents but maybe they were shouting because they are worried about you? It does sound a bit scary there but it looks like you are getting a lot of help.
You said something about the real Rosie being back soon well from what i can see this Rosie is a lovely caring person.You show such concern for all the members of the board and i notice you put them all first before you even mentioned how you were doing.Your illness is just a small part of who you are,someone very special.